God test our patience

Well, with the recent Dragon tradegy on going incident, it made me realise how powerful God can be. It also made me realise how short life can be...I know that I did not live to the fullest previously but that does not mean it will happen again. I have many plans up ahead and its a matter of time to execute them...Condolense to all the victim's family...May they rest in peace..

With the 'polluted' country we're living in, I'm not sure whether my spouse and future children will have the opportunity to live in peace like how it was 20 years ago...It was so different compare to now..Everything seems to be separating from each other..And plus the ongoing case of using 'Allah' terms for other races, this has caught the attention of international media...It is a shame...For a country that si so called democratic..

Well, to my BFF Khang Wei : DOn't forget us once you're in Jitra. Visit us often and not to forget our movie sessions ok...We'll miss you...

life can be hard sometimes

Talked to BFF yesterday night for about 40 minutes.She told me a whole lot of stories.Well, shame to that 'girl' that her so called boyfriend cheated on her...There must be a reason why someone did that to her...Well, too bad for her I guess....Anyway, congratulation to 'you' on your engagement...Have a happily ever after wedding...If you can still survive your sickness...She is so lame and a big bloody 'loser'...At least your boyfriend cheated on 'you' before.....So childish...But I'm glad that we've confronted each other last year..It was nice to see you pushing away the chairs, with tears in your eyes..It was like a big 'party' for us...Hahahaha...In your face!!!!!!!!!Well, that was the past..

Anyway, work is stressful for me for the past few days.Things are not doing great...I miss the family though...My BFF is leaving for Sabah next week..Well, I miss you, Adelyn.We haven't been communicating with each other lately....

when my mind doesn't go in a straight line

Things have been pretty much hectic and tiring for me and I don't like it. I hate the feeling of getting up early morning and be prepare to go to work.Honestly, I don't know what I want but one thing for sure is I want to have big car,big house and family of my own. But to get to that level, requires a lot of sacrifice and extremely hard work.That is the part where I'm still struggling. I've working for the past 1 year and this is the 3rd job I'm doing....I'm still far from my dream....

Met with my ex-schoolmate back in high school.We had lunch at McDonald Greenlane.To my surprise, he's already married (even though no traditional ceremony yet).Bu then, they are officially legally hisband and wife.Wow, how time flew so fast.He was the chicky one in high school. Nevertheless, to think that he'll be married at this age(not that young though)...He bought a house and I asked the Boyfriend to show me where the area is.The compound was clean, with guarded front gate....Apartment style. At least he owns a house..I'm so envy him. After that it makes me want to earn more money for a better life.

I knew that I have never done much about my life last year so for this year, I want to work hard towards my personal goal :

1. Take good care of Dianah in terms of her education. To provide her with what daddy and mummy have given to me last time.

2. Take care of mummy and daddy so that daddy don't have to work anymore.

3. To save more money so that I could get married.

4. Save money for my old days.

5. Be a good partner, sister, friend and daughter.

Well, these resolution seems easy to achieve but actual fact is, it need a strong will and determination of wanting to achieve them.Well, easy said that doing it. I'll try my best as well.

morning after

Well, started my morning with a cold bath. Was too lazy to wake up due to the weather. It was cloudy for the past few days. It rained for a while this morning.

Drove to work with my lazy eyes, listening to FLY fm morning crew,thinking how good if I could work from home. That is because this morning's topic was about working from home.Interesting topic and what a motivational topic to kick off the morning..Its only Tuesday but I feel like I'm working for the whole week already.Tired and exhausted.

Second day of school for Dianah and she's in Secondary 4 now. How time goes by so fast. I hope she'll do well in SPM.

Been wanting to watch Avatar for the past few weeks but it seems like everyone is still into that movie. Tried to book Avatar 3D but can't...Was supposed to watch Avatar 3D with the Group last weekend but too bad I was down with fever.Did not have the appetite to eat for the last one week. It was miserable.At this time, I wish mummy was here.She'll cook for me, feed me my medicine and would look after me.I miss her so much.

I have got no time for the family since I started working and I'm kind of feel guilty.And miss the family a lot.Its been a while since we all last had our vacation together. With stress from work and all,it would be unlikely that I could make it for Chinese New Year as well.Fingers crossed hoping that I could spend the day with the family.

Everything seems moddy for me....

second day of 2010

Its been a great 2009 for me and the Boyfriend. We spend our new year eve in cinema watching Sherlom Homes...Funny movie I can say...Me and the Boyfriend do not want to have our body sticking to each other in a pool of human...Its disgusting with all the sweats you can smell...EEWW...

Anyway, I hope 2010 will be a better year for me, the family and the Boyfriend...To think back those old times,my previous relationship,it was horrible...

To him,
I'm glad that I dumped you and met someone much better that you,moroon....I never want to se you again or even have thoughts of you your lame ass individualistic...If I had the power to turn back time, I'll definitely stab you in the heart....

May God bless me and the family...May the Boyfriend and me will have the chance to take our relationship into another level, and may my friendship last forever...

Its been a long time

Well, its been more than a month since I last blog about my 'so call' life. Many things has happened but I can't be blogging every single thing. Well, lets start from Christmas... Went to the Boyfriend's house for Christmas as his mother organized a Christmas lunch and dinner. Everything went smoothly...I guess his parents has accpeted me eventually...Now its a matter of how to convince mummy on this..I can feel that he's the one for me...I don't think I can find someone better than this....Drop that anyway.....

Daddy's coming back today and will be fetching hima nd adik later around 7...Ohh ya, Dianah got 8As in her PMR...I'm so proud of you...Well, at least we have a scorer in the house...

Work wise..I'm no longer struggling except when there's too many calls to handle....GOD....Its been a pretty god December for me I guess....Luck is just on my side....2010 is just fingers counting away and I pretty much know what will be my resolution this year and the important note of all is to not over spending anymore....2009 has been a rough year for me and I managed to pull it through by the hard way too...

My cousin passed her exam as well...Congrats...

Well for now, I'll just the night with daddy and adik...

i'm trying to comfort myself

Well, this is my second week on call and I'm glad I managed to achieve a lot of things...yet, I'm still struggling a little bit, not much though....Colleague and bosses has been very helpful and I'm glad as I'm still in the learning process....
I miss the family a lot...Been 2 months since I last went back to Perlis which is for Hari Raya... I'm trying to make as much money as possible....Got some goals I want to achieve, possibly by this year....
Going for dinner with BFF, Khang..the Boyfriend is having his class...

its december

Wow, imagine how fast December comes by...It is almost a month since my first day in the new company...Colleague are super fun, coorperative and helpful...Pressure starts to build up...I'm still trying to get a grip of myself...Sent mummy,daddy and adik to the bus station yesterday as they're leaving for Singapore.I'm happy and glad that I could meet them up even for a short time....Honestly, I miss them badly...and I miss home too.....Too bad I could not tag along...If not it would be fun especially with Christmas around the corner...First time actually...I miss Singapore and miss my cousin,Phat...She's married though.....
Nothing much to update..I've missed my blogging session as my time is totally occupied..Not like in the previous company...

I do miss a few friends back in the old company...

salam aidiladha

Salam Aidiladha to all my blog readers and not to forget my family back in Perlis...And to ex-student SMKPutra, SMKPerlis and ex-student UNITAR batch 2004-2008...

still hanging

Tomorrow will be the ultimate day for me as I'll be on call for the first time and of course I'm nervous...I hope everything goes smoothly...But the sad part is, I have to work and won't be able to celebrate Hari Raya Aidiladha with the family.....

The family will be going off to Singapore next week and I'm stuck here....

adjusting my seating

Fuh, its been ages since the last I logged in my account...I'm trying to adjust to my new work.. Seems ok but has many things to learnt and my brain is like the size of a goldfish....

My team are havoc and laughing is like eating...Hahahaha...I'm glad...Sean quitted(the guy who went the same training as mine)....Will be going out with the Group this coming weekend..Have not confirm yet...

testing

I'm blogging using the Boyfriend's hp.To test whether it can be use or not. I'm trying to get a grip in my new job. For now, it is nice. I hope everything will remain this way. Training ends next week....Many things happened for the past few weeks...Had no chance to update this site as I don't have net access temporary...Lame...Had lots of photes waiting to be uploaded....

smoking is bad for your health

Well, the above title has got nothing to do with today's post...I took this picture while waiting for the Boyfriend to send me to work...Kind a free rite...Hahahaha...

Will be going to GP for my tembuilding session..So freakin' excited..Its gonna be my last day here..Gonna miss the group....

Going out with The Group this coming Sunday and planned to watch Phobia 2...Woohoo...And maybe watching White Out with the Boyfriend on Saturday....

Just to inform my readers that there'll be late posting in this blog as some adjustment of my new work time need to be done...Sorry for the delays....Happy working people....

last day at work before signing off

Today will be my last day at work before signing off and most probably I'll be blogging in some other office or at home...Depends...Sent farewell notes to all my colleagues...Kind of sad actually, not because I have to leave but because some of them are so nice to me...Well, everything has to come to an end eventually...I'll start fresh strating next week...I'll try to be more discipline, try not be lazy anymore.....

I'm out of words actually...Not sure what to say....

The new hire who is going to replace me is with me and I'm coaching her the new task and it is hard....Need not to mention here...Well best part is I'll get to leave Mr.V behind...So lamo...Hate him...

Going for my teambuilding tomorrow..Treasure hunt activit...Woohoo

Dear BFF : Words of encouragement are just the only thing I can provide you..The rest is up to you...Babe, GOD has planned many things for us and He knows what is best for human kind...Whatever comes between you is just a test to see whether or not you're ready for the bigger challenge...These small tests are things that make you stronger and keep you prepared....At this point of time, friends and family are the best company to you...Take some time off from your hectic life and think about what you want in life...Once you waste a day in life, there is no turning back...BFF, I owe you a lot and I know some thing I can't pay you back...We've been tpgether since high school, therefore our bond will never ever break no matter what comes in between us...Our friendship is so strong that I'm willing to do anything to keep my best friend happy.....best friend are the one who not just share our laughter but tears and cry as well...Friends that leave you when you're in need is not a true friend...Just bear in mind that, HE'S NOT WORTH IT and take it as a bad dream and you will wake up from that some day...

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Attended admin meeting yesterday through phone conference...Lazy to go over...Nothing much to talk about...Boring...

Then, went back in the evening...Cooked for dinner....the Boyfriend helped out in frying the chicken and oil spilled all over....I'm the one who has to do the cleaning...Uurrgghh!!!.He went for his badminton session till 11pm and by the time the comes back, I'm already asleep...But before that, I tried doind a vidoe for this blog and it was 'awesome'...Hahaha

Nothing much to do today..very boring...Msged BFF just to check on her whether she's ok or not and gladly she replied she's feeling better...Happy to hear that.....

Dear BFF : Just remember in mind that our friendship will never fade away no matter what comes between us. We are like sistesr. You stood by me when I was in total darkness, so now it is my turn...Even though we are far apart, trust me that my heart will always be near with you. When you're in deep pain, remember that you deserve something better than this and that you're strong...Love will always find its way to your heart...Love does not mean that you need a man, it is further more than that...You will always have us and your family..We have never gave up upon you...We love you more than he do...GOD created human to withstand every obstacle that he rained upon us and every little that happen comes with a reason. You deserve someone better and I know you can make it through...We have faith in you..

buat teman-teman universitas

Lama sudah kita tak berjumpa

Apa kabarmu kini?Aku yakin semuanya baik

Tak ada yang berubah

Kini aku tlah kembali lagi dari perjalananku

Hingga kini aku menemukan apa yang aku cari

Akhirnya aku sadari

Lewati ruang dan waktu

Sahabat kita kan s’lalu bersama
Di saat engkau tak tersenyum

Dan saat engkau tak bersinar

Pastikan aku ada di hatimu

Dan ingatlah akan senyumku

Rasakan hangatnya sinarku

Sahabat kita kan selalu bersama
Di saat engkau tak tersenyum

Dan saat engkau tak bersinar

Pastikan aku ada di hatimu

changing of a new surrounding

Well, 4 days to my last day here...I'm looking forward to it but at the other side would be nervous...I can't predict what will the new job be like...Maybe I'll enjoy it or maybe I'll be crying while talking to daddy....Well, we'll never know if we don't try...I miss KL, absolutely...But not the jam...Just the nightlife, shopping mall....The previous visit to KL was good and nice...With BFF and other friends around...Nothing more I could ask for....

I told myself that I have to learn to handle stress instead of doing this job-hopping thing... It won't look good in my resume as people might question me why do I change job too often...

I hope everything goes well next week as it will be my first week....I don't expect anything but smooth working environment...Things has been great except financially...Hhmm....

Graduation is over, so does college days...It is a lie if I say college sucks(part of it yes;-p)... I learnt many things during my years in college....Whether study wise, making new friends, having boyfriend(that sucks), fail my paper ;-p, resit again and other college matter....Every details and events make me stronger than ever...I worked my ass-off for this day and it definitely paid off and I'm happy to make the family and the Boyfriend proud of me...At least I have achieve something that I thought I will never get...It is a relieve....I hold my tears back after the convocation when the ceremony come to its end as I don't want to spoil the day...But I know right after that, everyone will go their own separate ways and it will be hard to meet each other again after this...I feel scare....Afraid that I might lose friends that I've bonded for the past 5 years....Kamini is getting married soon, she's the closest and bestest friend....What's more after this??I'll never know...Well, when I was in college, I pray everyday that I'll finished asap as I can't wait to get out of here, then daddy said 'Girl, believe me that you'll miss your college days once you start working'.... I never thought of it until it really happened....But you can't turn back time or be a college student forever...You'll have to grow up eventually...These people has been with me through my worst years in life....They never gave up upon me....I'll defintely miss them a whole lot!!!!!!

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku

Mengagumi tanpa di cintai

Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia

Dengan hidupmu.. dengan hidupmu
Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu

Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku

Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah

Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku
Ku ingin kau tahu

Diriku di sini menanti dirimu

Meski ku tunggu

Hingga ujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya

Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja

Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya

Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

I'm officially graduated and I had so much fun!!!

Above pictures says it all...I had so much fun during my convocation trip in KL...With attendance from the family and BFF, it makes my graduation more meaningful than before...This marked the starting of a new life...I had pictures some more but it is in another camera..Well, will upload those soon...Pictures were taken in graduates waiting hall...We've taken our scrolls but could not get out of the hall until the ceremony is over...It was freaking boring ok....I slept off half way but lucky me, my buddy woke me up...hahahhaha...Funny...Met up with a few Penangite like Munyis, Karthik....Well, dunno when will we see each other again after this....Kinda sad *sorb*...

One of my KJ friend(wan) bring us around KL...Without him, we might be sleeping in the hotel only...Tune hotel were sloppy...That will be my first and last stay there...Down part of it is, the rooms does not have TV...Can you imagine that...I'll be bored to death...But lucky, most of my time are occupied leapking with Khang, BFF, Wan, Nasreen a few of Khang's friends...It was a nice trip actually....We came back at about 4am everyday and I did enjoyed my stay there....

The night on my graduation day, my uncle called us as he planned to meet up at Pavilion.. The family went off first, we came later on by BFF's car...Went to Thai Express as there wanted to celebrate in conjunction with my convocation...It was nice though...Food was great...And people were awesome too... Not to mention that Aizat from Akademi Fantasia was the guest of the nite...Awesome isn't it...We really had a great time...

Dianah

with BFF Alla
my aunt and my uncle
cousin's GF and cousin

this post is dedicated to the people who has helped me alot in life.

By the time you're reading this, I'm walking up/down the stage in Putrajaya International Convention Center after receriving my scroll..Marking that I've successfully finished my Bachelor studies...Maybe tears running down my chicks....Daddy and mummy are watching me by the podium...Maybe mummy is crying...All my hard work has finally paid off...For all the things I had to go through, made it worth while...Seeing the smile on their faces....

I never thought I can go through this when I first started my semester...As all my friend managed to enter public universities, I'm way off the route....I dreamt of being a doctor since high school but because of my so-called laziness, I ended up in a private college which I thought private college are only for losers and ended up doing finance instaed of medicine...My heart crushed at that time...Regretting for not working hard enought and regretting for not listening to my parent's advice..I took everything lightly untill it actually slammed at my face....Daddy was the one who motivated me all this years up till today....While mummy provided me with the extras that I need...They both has sacrificed a lot....Even Adik sacrificed her needs and wants just to give way to me...

I can never repay everything that they has done for me for all these years...Not to forget the Boyfriend who supported me as well, emotionally...Who stood up till late at night accompanying me during exam period...Who listened to my nonsense, who let me use his t-shirt as tissue to wipe off my tears because I was scared that I might fail...Every test....Who calmed me down a day before the exam, who sent/pick me to/from college.....

To my classmates especially Kamini who willing to put up an effort to teach me(FYI, I'm a slow learner), who will call me in the morning and forced me to come to class(I'm a sleepy head), who has been there for me throughout our 4 years in college, for letting me study at your house even during weekends, for nagging me because I did something wrong(for my own good) and most important of all, you accepted me as your friend for who I am regardless of my history.

Also to my bestfriend, Nor Farah(Alla) and Adelyn who supported me from far..We only talk on the phone..Hahah..It is good enough...

To those who I did not mention names, I would like to thank you as well for being there for me. For standing by me through everything which a friend would do...