it feels good to be back

Well, pictures tell a million stories. As you can see, I looked happy right? Yes indeed. Being able to go back home after few months of 'hard labor' is definitely a good therapy. at least this is what I need. A break from the stress and tension of work. I miss boyfie at the same:-(

Anyway, reached home and put down my bag. Lazing around in the room with air condition on. Soothing...aarrgghh..Feels like giving in my resignation letter and just relax...As if like the money will just 'rain' on me...How good if it does.

Oohh how I missed home cook food. Ate mummy's cook,fish and vege...It is simple but there is nothing more delicious than your own home cook dish.

Work is tiring and there are times where I really gave up and just want to walk away from everything..It was stressful week last week...

BFF is moving down to Penang and she got transfered from Putrajaya...Woohoo...At least we can meet often now...I'm so happy...I have boyfie and BFF in the same place and at the same time.. At least I have more company...

even if we just met

Well, how time flew so fast and some of my colleagues are going off pursuing their dreams. Even though I have just join the team but I felt close to them especially Rina, Winnie,Sam. Winnie looks garang but she's nice and very motivational. I fell comfortable working with her. The pictures above was taken during Rina's farewell dinner which was yesterday. it was fun. We had the dinner at a Japanese restaurant. Food was ok but because we often have Japanese so it feel muak sikit. I reached there at about 8pm. Drove from the office.

And today Rina cried as she said she misses the friendship she has long built.I wanted to cry as well earlier but I 'tahan' my tears. It was quite dramatic. I'm going to miss her dearly actual fact as she jokes alot and teach me a lot of things. Everyone is leaving and I feel all alone over here. Honestly....Sadly...

Been going back quite late lately due to heavy workload and due to learning on how to use our new order management system.I can tell you that it is 'awesome'.

Anyway, going back to Perlis tomorrow and looking forward to a relaxing weekend.

This picture was taken 1 week back. It was Mona's engagement day in Kulim...Me and boyfie got lost while trying to find the venue of her ocassion...God knows where..I thought Perlis was dull, you couldn't imagine how dull can this place be compare to Perlis.Anyway, we started our road trip at about 7.30pm and reached there at about 9.30pm...Imagine that...Lucky there was food left for us. The first thing I did was,I find her and give her the tightest hug and guess what,we both cried...Aaww...She was a good friend of mine...We used to stay together for about 3 years. She was the best housemate ever. Yes, we do had our arguments,but we made up in the end. But it was fun.I miss her a lot.If I were given the chance to stay with her again,I'll definitely say yes.

Out with the group and good friend's enagagement

Went out with BFF Khang and Fifi to QB after work. Sent food to boyfie first.He didn't joined along as he has class to attend.Sad...Anyway, went for lunch with them and then later on met up with Riana and Yazid...As usual they're 2 hours late..We expected that...Fifi bought Forever 21 big clutch, Elianto mascara and Etude eyeshadow...I bought a Forever 21 bow belt...Black in color..Its like RM9..Value for money...wanted to buy skinny jean,RM119 but boyfie said how many would I want to wear...True....I have tonnes on jean but I only wear just a few...What a waste of money....

Then boyfie and me went to Mona's engagement party in Kulim...The journey was ages,and we got lost for almost 2 hours...But upon reaching there, I went straight to meet her...FYI, she was my ex-housemate and a good friend of mine.We had a lot of goodtimes together..I miss her a lot.. We were very close back in college years...her fiancee is sooo handsome...Mona, I was just kidding, but he is handsome...Hahahaha...I cried when I saw her...tears of joy...The last we met was many years back, right before she moved out after finishing her diploma studies. But we still keep in touch through sms....Well, she's gonna get married in December and will be moving to Ipoh with her husband...I' going to miss her dearly...She helped me a lot....
Yes, we do have arguements sometimes but we still remain good friends...

when customer says 'This is bullshit'

I'm not sure has anyone get a customer that says 'Look, this is bullshit' before???? I do and almost everyday..Some say worst than that..Honestly...It is sick and tired...To those customer out there, it's not my fault if what you see and what is available is not the same...We can't keep on offering the same...We are doing our job...And remember that you are not Bill Gate that has your own company..You're just an employee like me who rely on your company for your montly pay. You're nobody so its better for you customers to watch what is coming out of your mouth...Don't be a rude asshole..Think twice before you want to say anything....

after weeks of struggle

Well, its been 3 weeks of hell. Been working 6am shift for the past like...3 weeks??? But I enjoyed because no one will disturb and I get more calls ;-).

I'm blogging from my office actually.Calls are low and not much things to do.Had Indian food for lunch. Elizabeth's mum cooked and it is delicious....Maybe because I prefer Indian food.

Khang's in Penang.Will be going out with him later on. Together with Fifi as well. Boyfie is not sure yet as he has class later in the afternoon but I asked him to skip the class...So bad of me...

Interview was ok last week but I won't put much hope actually....One thing went wrong but I'll keep it to myself.Kind of embarassing to tell the whole world...Most of the interviewees are like...30 plus and some are married.I think I'm the youngest one...I was the first to be called. Interviewer was a girl and a guy...Pretty friendly...Most questions are about myself, on why do I choose MBA and what will I benefit from the course...I 'goreng'everything out...Said what ever that comes across my head at that point...You should see the look of my face...Blur,fake and nervous...I wore baju kurung...Konon nak tunjuk ayu la.

BFF got her Government posting at Majlis Keselamatan Negara. Her first day was on Monday(5th April)..I called on that day..She sounded excited though...Girlfriend, I hope you'll find yourself a cute and handsome guy...Most important is a guy that loves you for who you're and takde pasang2 ok...I'll always pray for...I love you babe...

It's already April and I'm looking forward to May and June.Not that I'm gonna get married or something.Will update you guys when I get the news.

happy easter 2010

Wishing everyone a very Happy Easter 2010

The after gamble

Well, its been 2 weeks since my trip to Genting Higlands with my previous team members. FYI, boyfie tag along and you won't imagined what happen in Genting....I threw up!!!... But it was fun though. And we went to the casino...first time for me and boyfie. It was cold but as the place is small, so there's not much things to do...We spent our time eating...BURGER KING...And boyfie bought 3 pieces of burger back to Penang...There's no BK in Penang....Lame...

Well been working hard for the past 2 weeks and has been a very hectic week for me..Time is running fast as well.....

Missing the family a lot lately..Called adik and daddy few days back..Hhmm..

Got an interview for my masters intake next Monday.very nervous but not sure what to expect for the interview. I've never heard of interview for master's study before in my life...

Looking forward for a better week next week...Fingers crossed...

typical people around us

Well,just finished talking to a customer...Normal routine..Looked through some of the post posted in FB.Some sounded weird,lame,ridiculous,arrogant...Well too many to list down.. But above all, I'm happy to see some of them are happily married, getting married not including those who got divorced...I'm sorry to hear that.Not sure when will it be my turn.But not anytime soon...

I've started reading finance books and magazine. Starting to be a bookworm as used to in uni. Fingers crossed hoping that my master application come through.

Nothing much to blurp actually.I miss my hometown and my family.The last I went back was 4th day of Chinese New Year..I took a 5 days leave that ended me regretting for not paying a visit to grandma's place.It was a disaster...Seriously...

I'm currently planning getting my blogshop up and running for the next few month to come. As I mentioned earlier in my blog that I want to work from home.Well this is what I like I guess. Being entrepreneur..Don't have to crack my head everyday at work...

my heart is pouding fast

Thing has not been great for me since last month. Firstly I lost the car key, then the housekey and my handphone. God, I pray to you to give me the strength to go through all this...

Since grandma passed away,everything seems dull to me.The only thing that make me laugh and smile are my colleagues, BFF alla, khang,fifi, dearest boyfie and the family. The rest is just dull. I don't really speak much now but because of my work nature, I forced myself to. I hold this guilt inside me for blaming myself of not having to visit my grandma and I never knew last year's Chinese New Year will be my last visit. If I knew things would work out this way, I would have gone back instead of pressuring myself for the money.

there are some thing money can't buy

It was a very sad day for the family last week as grandma passed away at her home in Seberang Takir, Kuala Trengganu. The worst thing ever happened to me in my entire life. I can't show how much guilt and regret I have. I was supposed to go back for Chinese New Year celebration as I do it every year but for this year instead of going back to visit grandma, I choosed to work just for the sake of the triple pay as it was public holiday...Therefore I went to work as usual and my shift was from 9.30am to 2.30pm.So happily thinking about the money, I ignored the time of celebrating the joyous day with the family...

So 3 weeks after that, on Sunday morning(7th march), I received a call from daddy saying that grandma has passed away..I was holy shocked and I cried instantly reminiscing the regret of not going back to visit her..I asked daddy again whether it's a prank or real...And he said, it is real and that they're going back to Trengganu the next day (morning). They came down that night and we went back early the next morning...Heart was pouding as I still hope that they're wrong...When we reach, I took a peek at grandma's coffin and tears came swimming down my tears..I couldn't hold my tears back and with full of regret in me...We sat for a while and about 5pm we checked into the hotel..Had shower and a change of new clothes...Waiting for the Buddha priest to come...part of the tradition...When the part where we have to go round grandma's coffin, I saw daddy was crying and it made me cry too...I grew up with her and I would call her once in a while just to check on her...

The 3rd was the day where she'll be bury..So we followed the car that carries her coffin to the cemetery ground... the worst part was when seeing they closed her coffin and bury her...We were hoping that she'll bang at the coffin case to tell us that she's still alive...But no sound....I hugged daddy and cried for the last time...

I've learnt the biggest lesson ever, money is really not everything...I'll carry this regret forever...

God, please give me the strength...

Been back home since Wednesday night and will be heading back to Penang tomorrow afternoon. Feels hesitated to go back actually. I'm still on holiday mood. Having to work in a new environment and requires your talking and convincing skills take up a lot of energy and by end of the day, I'm extremely exhausted. Even though I'm on leave, my mind still think about on my work... Well, I'm torn between staying or walk out...I know it's just 3 months but the pressure and workload is like tonnes...Maybe because I'm not used to it yet or maybe it is just not my thing...

Having not able to go back for Chinese New Year make me think whether it's worth to continue my current job or just leave it...Eventually, I still need a job in order to survive...I'm still finding work that I can operate from home and having the flexibility of my own...I realized that my new job takes up most of my 24 hours time...I don't even have a second to breath...By the time I leave work, I'm so tired and sometimes don't even feel like having dinner...No appetite... I dragged myself up each day to go to work...I'm not sure the reason why, maybe because I don't like the job or just because I'm tired....Anyway, I'm still searching...

Sometimes, when things get tough, it feels like the whole world came tumbling down on me and that no one can help me...Its like I'm in a lonely dark world....Struggling to survive...I miss college years actually, care free mind...Need not to worry anything apart from exam...But since I started work, commitment came down on me...It feels heavy..So I'm not sure whether I can carry the responsibilities of a wife in the future.....

Not every feeling can be describe by words....I don't have the heart to talk out with the family as I don't want them to worry as well as think that I'm unreliable...I miss my good old high school days and turning back is impossible and I know that everyone will grow eventually...That is the cycle of life...

Each day in Penang passes by so slow and I feel like I can count by fingers...I miss my family every time I'm down with hard times...I pray every night that God give me the strength to go through every obstacles that come in between me, that God blessed me with good people and companion and that God will protect everyone that I care and love...

after CNY and having family time.

These are a few sneak peeks of what's happening during the previous Chineses New Year(I was working on that day)...All of the family members were there except for ME!!! Sad isn't it??? I kind of miss the family reunion actually. Daddy said this year was quite different except for the fact that grandma's health is worsen...

I'm at my home in Perlis currently. Felt so good to be here...Its been a while since I last came back..Nothing change..I love the smell of ikan goreng cooked by the neighbour, the sambal belacan smell...Neighbours talking to each other at the gate..We hardly see that in big city... Everyone knows each other basically over here...Going out with my best frined, Yana later in teh evening. It is 4 months since I last met her....She's on a holiday for Chinese New Year...

By the way, my ex-Form 6 friends did some small reunion..BFF, Alla was there as well..She tagged me and I can't attend as I'm working...Bloody work...Talking about work...Will be back to work on Monday...I hate that part....I don't feel like going back to Penang, I mean not now... Time flies too fast...I'm back here on Wednesday night, and today is Friday........I hope I can stop the time from going forward....

pre Valentine and chinese new year

Valentine is around the corner and I have yet to buy gift for the Boyfriend. And I'm working on the day,and CNY falls on the same day as well..Daddy and mummy is coming tomorrow or Saturday morning and they'll be heading back to Trengganu for Chineses New Year and sadly I can't join them this year, FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!. I hate the feeling of not being able to be with family members especially festive season...NO angpow for this year as well...And can't visit grandma....

work from home

It is Wednesday and every mall are jam packed with shoppers shopping for Chinese New Year. With the sales that are going on, makes it even worst....It make me sad at the same time as I'm not able to celebrate this year due to work commitment...Sometimes to think of it, will people appreciate what we do? Or they'll pass you by like you're not important at all...Sadly, I always say yes to what ever people's request........

Don't have the mood to go to work today actually but I dragged myself up though, with my eyes shut while walking.It is exhausting and tiring to work in the wee hours(mind you, I work at 5am). While some people are still dreaming, I have to wake up at 3.30am,brush my teeth, cold bath and have breakfast and best of all is my breaktime is at 8am!!!!That is the time where people starts to eat breakfast and I'm already on my break...I wonder when can I drive a BMW and goes to work whenever time I want...So good isn't it....Dream la...

Well, was thinking of getting a job that I can do from home (work from la konon). Had this so called 'project', can't even stick my butt at the table for 5 minutes, how the hell I want to work from home. It looks easy when you see someone else doing it but discipline is important...

CNY shopping

Went for Chinese shopping with BFFs. The Boyfriend could not tag along as he has class to attend.Too bad.But we hade great time together..It was a quick shopping trip as Khang already knew what he wanted and I'm the one who tagged him along to the fitting room..I hope he like the shirt I choose...I'll definitely buy one for the Boyfriend if I have the extra cash in hand...So sad...Upon reaching QB, we had lunch in Sushi King as Khang was craving for it...FYI, there's no Sushi King in Alor Star..But they have McDonalds,unlike Perlis...OMG!!!....

After lunch, waited for Riana and Yazid, as usual they're late for 30 minutes...We accompanied them for lunch in food court as they do not know where to eat and Yazid only survive on chicken chop, nasi kandar and nasi melayu:-p........Then we had to shop as fast as lightning as Khang need to take a bus to go back to Alor Star..He came for only 1 night...It was nice though even though its only 2 weeks he moved back there,it feels months.......And I hope he liked the shirt we choose for him:-)...

After tired of walking, we stop at J.Co Coffee and Donut...Fifi bought 3 pieces of doughnut and Khang bough ice coffee...As usual, I 'belasah' Khang's drink and Fifi's doughnut...Sorry dearist.... We waited Yazid and Riana...Called them and they were at optical shop to buy contact lenses for Riana (this is her first time)....Then, they met us up in J.Co..We proceeded to the parking...I sent Fifi back on the way home and dropped Khang as the ferry jetty..There goes the goodbye again...

Later evening, went out with the Boyfriend...Watched Avatar but not in 3D...Could not get my hands on the tickets.....Headed home early as supposedly wake up early to clean the house and visit the Boyfriend's mum...End up waking up at 11.30am....Cleaned the house and went to the Boyfriend's house to have lunch...It was a good lunch and fullfilling......Burpppp!!!!!...Headed straight to QB again...Walk around and both 2 bottle of juice (on promo) and headed home...

extra income=extra headache

Well said on the post..Was thinking of finding ways to earn extra income instead of depending on just one job that I'm currently doing...How good it is if I could just blog all day but still earning some income...There's this website referred by a friend of mine which generates money for you.. All you need to do is just refer your friend to the website and make sure the sign up and voala, that's where the money starts...But I don't think that easy as many people might think this is a scam...Well, I was sceptical at frist but I still signed up:-p........

Its Friday and I'm looking forward to weekeend as it has been a hectic week for me...Tiring and exhausted...Has not been able to go back on time even though my shift is over...Is torn apart whether to change my job or just give it a go...But I've been changing too many jobs now...Until then, when can I drive my own BMW...*sigh*....

The Boyfriend has started working now, so most of the things I would have to do on my own... Sad......

untitle

*Weekends was pretty laid back. Went to Sticks( in front of QB) to meet up with Adrian and Nicole.We went back quite early as I have to work the following day(Sunday)..Before that we watched Legion.Was a pretty good movie...Slow at the starting...Not much of actions...

*Watched Tooth Fairy yesterday. Movie was pretty funny. Worked from 9.30 am till 2.30 pm and did not plan to stay back even 5 minutes..Damn tired..Reach homer after work and slept off till 6.30pm.Went out again for dinner in McDonald.Me and the Boyfriend had Regular Ayam Goreng McD.Felt so tired the whole day.

*Today is the Boyfriend first day at work.At last.....Good luck my BB.......

rude people are just annoying and full of crap and i have to work during CNY

Well, it is Sunday afternoon and I'm in the office while some people are still day dreaming on the bed..Waking up at 2pm and watching TV...And I'm stuck in the office for another say 3 hours approximately...Working in a call center is certainly a challenging job...Not many can tolerate different kind of customer...When an annoying cutsomer calls in, in order to release anger is by muting the damn phone and start scolding vulgar words and then unmute the phone and start talking back as usual but faking it...Some even ask stupid question some even ask question after purchasing and blaming everything on the sales rep...What the hack???I'm not looking myself in this line in the next couple of years...I'll age faster and get heart failure faster due to stress... I used to think that the westerners are friendly, professional, classy and etc..The fact is they're cheapo, rude, annoying..Just a few...Not all....Obviously...Well, I can't complain much as at least I have a job...But sometimes, I don't feel like waking up in the morning and get ready to go to work...Its not fun at all....Well, it was my choice to work here, first of all..So what the f*** I want to complain after all.....

Another thing that annoys me is when working in a company where it is dominated by one race...When it comes to festive seasons, MY GOD...Everyone will be taking off holiday..Sadly, I can't celebrate Chinese New Year I have to work on that day...To think, I was better off in the previous company...This job I'm doing currently is totally for money minded human...And I'm not that kind...

To make it short, customers are just plain stupid...

God test our patience

Well, with the recent Dragon tradegy on going incident, it made me realise how powerful God can be. It also made me realise how short life can be...I know that I did not live to the fullest previously but that does not mean it will happen again. I have many plans up ahead and its a matter of time to execute them...Condolense to all the victim's family...May they rest in peace..

With the 'polluted' country we're living in, I'm not sure whether my spouse and future children will have the opportunity to live in peace like how it was 20 years ago...It was so different compare to now..Everything seems to be separating from each other..And plus the ongoing case of using 'Allah' terms for other races, this has caught the attention of international media...It is a shame...For a country that si so called democratic..

Well, to my BFF Khang Wei : DOn't forget us once you're in Jitra. Visit us often and not to forget our movie sessions ok...We'll miss you...