daddy, daddy cool...

I'm stuck in Penang tomorrow and it is Father's Day. Crap...Plan to buy someting nice for daddy but out of budget. Currently talking to a customer on the line while blogging. Cool ei...Haha.

Dear daddy,
Thank you for all the support you have provided to the family. All the hard work, tears, sweat due to all the hard work. We love you a lot. You're the person who guided us on our first bicycle ride, first day at school (mummy as well), first day in high school, first day in uni and graduation day. We proud to say that we're grateful to have a father like you.

Happy Father's Day Daddy

We Love YOu Daddy.

spanish class?? You've gotta be joking

Despite having bad migraine, I have to drive to the clinic and stop by USM in regards of my USM application that has been approved. At the same time, met up with an old friend where we met in secondary school, Along. She guided me through roughly the process of my online registration for my subjects. My first master's class will be around the corner and I'm freaking excited and nervous at the same. I got the timetable and the fees are quite 'reasonable'.And I have a Japanese lecturer who is going to teach us economic class. Cool ei.... Before that we stopped by Graduate School of Business (GSB) to enquire some info on how to go about the online application. Sounded easy even though the offer letter that I got looked complicated. Anyway, the 'abang' was friendly enough to share some info with us. Surprisingly enough as most government officers are quite 'friendly' at times. So now I'm in USM lab blogging and at the same time finishing my registration but sadly, the website is under maintenance.

To be honest, I have never though that I would be able to pursue my masters as I was a lzay bump back in high school. I love to sleep and that is untill today. Boyfie said I'm a piglet. Hahaha. I'm very grateful that after all the things I've been through, GOD gave a second chance to prove myself. I thank HIM for all the guidance, the support and the strength HE gave me untill today. And I know the fact that I'm no saint as a human. I do bad things but still HE protected me. Also not to forget biggest second thank to daddy and mummy, for EVERYTHING they have sacrifise for me, the money, time and everything they could possibly provide me. And another important person is boyfie, thank you so much for your tolerence and patience you had since we met. The staying till wee hours accompanying me during my exam periods. You and the family has given me so much that it is not enough by just saying thank you. If not because all of you, I would never be standing here now. Also BFF, for being there always, listening to my nonsense and nagging. I promise that I'll do my best, better than my degree and will definitely make all of you proud of me.

This is like a dream. A dream that I could not possibly think of. Another thing to bring back on track is my online business. Once everything settle, here I come again. This time, ALL OUT...

And GOD, please help me this time around again. Give me the strength, patience and guidance to pursue my studies. Show me the road to success and give me the ease to learn things during this period. And show me what is right and what is wrong. Guide me to the correct path and bless me with all the goodness in life. Bless my family and my loved ones.

hati sakit

Well, sometimes, we just have to swallow deep the pain that we feel in order to keep 'everyone's' feeling happy and satisfied. In the end, we are the one who suffers inside. With my workload bundling up, with my classes around the corner, it seems to be upside down. Not sure whether I can coupe with all this nonsense. With some 'things' that are out of my control, it makes me wonder, is it worth it???

feels like slapping the living s***

As per the title above, that's how stressful I am. Feels like chocking someone.. Everything is so messy.God...I'm starting my masters next month and I'm not sure whether I can divide my time between work and uni...This is so tense. Anyway, working on Sunday morning when everyone is still sleeping...Boyfie spent most of his time 'dating' with his PS2. We didn't catch any movie yesterday. Lucky or else I'll be dead. Woke up late this morning but reached work on time... Pheww...

movie date with boyfie and an evening with the girls

Went out with BFF and her cousin, Intan. Attended a beauty class in Pulau Tikus (Belissa Row). It was fun. And met Thipah as she invited us to join. It's a 2 hours class and filled with fun. We got the opportunity to try out the products ( Mary Kay). It was good. the after effect is immediately. I was immediately hooked to the products and went back home to 'negotiate with boyfie...hahahha.. After the class, we went to QB, BFF and her cousin wanted to buy a set of CROC shoes (they have big jumble sales beside BORDERS). I fell in love with this one

It's only RM60. So I tried it on, sadly it doesn't fit me even though it is size W4. Too many people has tried on the shoe, so possible reason is it expanded. So I ended empty handed. Only BFF managed to bought this one. I liked this but coulnd't find my size. *sobbing*.

And we went back about 9pm, so I hung out at BFF's place while waiting for boyfie to watch midnite movie. We watched Karate Kid. It was not bad. Full of cuteness and actions. Imgaine Will Smith's skinny tight son has a six pack...GOD....

wedding dinner

Picture was taken last Saturday in conjunction of Kamini's wedding dinner. Went with boyfie and Dinesh. Bumped into a few college classmates. All of them are working now. And till now I can't believe that Kamini is married. It was held in Chee Hoon Khor Moral Uplifting Centre. It feels like just yesterday I went to her house for our weekly study group. How time flies. I miss those days. Years without pressure, just plain fun. Exclude the exam part. No one likes that ok.

Anyway, work is getting hectic and I hate that. I'm exhausted. F**** exhausted. With my master's class starting next month. I hope I can coupe with my classes despite of my work schedule.

last night at home

Came back from town after picking up mummy from the bus station. Before that, daddy and me went for dinner at a nasi kandar stall that I used to eat when I was small.. They still taste the same and was looking around the area thinking how time flew so fast....I wish I could come back and work here..Closer to the family..I miss them so badly....

After picking up mummy, went to KFC as mummy hadn't had her lunch and dinner yet. Since adik finish her tuition at 10, so we sat there until she finishes her tuition...

blogger is back home

I'm back in Perlis. Reached yesterday. Finished work at 3pm and rushed back to pack my things. Lucky to get a ticket at a very last minute. Boyfie said if no ticket, he'll send me to Alor Star bus station. Aaww, so sweet of him. Anyway, I woke up at 11am and till now, I'm a stinky as hasn't take my bath yet. Ahahahaha... I felt sooooo excited to be back home....The smell of a small town gives me the heart-beep. Daddy is in the room resting, adik is at her friend house for a group study and mummy is on her way back to Perlis from KL...A long 3 weeks holiday for her:-)..

Daddy suggested me to find a house in Penang as he assumed I might settle down in Penang. Oohh ya, my master's application has approved and I'm starting my class this coming July in USM. I'm so excited. I did not expect I'll get through as I think I busted during the interview session. Big-time some more.Anyway, now that I'm in, I have to focus on getting my masters done, get a better and stable job. Some savings and plan for my wedding...

BFF is in KL, I believe. And she'll be heading to Trengganu tomorrow for training which will take about a week...I hope she'll manage to pull through the nights in Trengganu..Ahahaha...Good luck BFF....

will it do any harm if a girl keep texting your man?

Well said in the title. Not that I say your man is cheating on you. But what will you think if your man's colleague keeps texting or calling your guy even after office hour, weekend and other day even after they meet each other every single fucking weekdays? Horror isn't it...Worst part is if you feel like there's nothing you can do, right??? Horrible feeling I can tell you...

Imagine this...Your man's colleague msged your boyfie everytime for no reason. Yes, you can msg a guy to ask how are you................If you both don't meet each other for a very long time.. But in this case, both of them meet each other every fucking weekdays....What the fuck...Yes, your man does all this in front of you. His intention is just messaging a friend and not more than that but the girl don't understand that what she does is wrong. Or maybe pretend to not understand. There's limitation of having a work relationship with a man, especially if he's taken. I'm not accusing anyone over here but if anyone feels threaten or something, then you know the drill.

I'm not a control freak but if this kind of thing happen, don't you feel weird??? I'm not against friendship between a guy and a girl as I have guy friends more than girls but if it's over the board, what will you do???...

So girl, you know what to do....

today was a fairytale

Well, good things will come eventually if you have the patience. Enough said, boyfie came back after all my hard prayers, my tears and what-so-ever-nonsense nightmares i had for the past few days. We celebrated by having a simple dinner at Friday's and movie later on, The Bounty Hunter. Honestly, I give 4 stars. The only reason I still honoring the stars is because there are some romantic parts in the movie. Movie lasted about 2 hours I think. Due to lack of rest for the past few days, my eyes was watery and I was exhausted. But happy at the same time as boyfie has come back.

Anyway, I'm having Q2 kick-off dinner later tonight ar Bagan bar and restaurant. Looking forward for free food.Hahaha...Who does not...Sadly, I can't bring boyfie along. If possible, I would want to drag him everywhere. Pity him...

Anyway, I'm recovered from my fever, but not 100% yet. Still having bad cough and flu. I hate the weather.

Most important of all, I've learnt my lesson for the past few days. Trust your man especially if he does not have any history of cheating. And never ever take him for granted. A relationship is based on give-and-take policy. But for all the girls out there, don't take people's boyfriend for granted as well... Sometimes being too close to other people's boyfriend can lead to misunderstanding eventhough they're just friends. Well you know, GOD gave us brain to think,so use it and play safe. Why want to get yourself into trouble or being the caused of separation in other people's relationship???

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND, PEOPLE!!!

lonely,pathetic and sick.

I guess blogspot will be my 'best friend' for the next God-knows how many more days.

I didn't sleep at all yesterday night. Been turning around the bed, in and out the toilet, heart pumping so fast, sweating and when I tried to sleep, half way through, I had nightmare..I had to wake up and washed my face. The nightmare seems so real and I can't differentiate which is reality and which is dream. I was so scared. I turned on the light and eventually its already 4.30am. So I though, since I can't sleep, might as well I take a shower and head to the office earlier to clear my email. God, hundreds of emails to clear and I managed to clear them. Pphheeww..I looked at the mirror this morning and GOD, I looked like a walking corpse.

I lost appetite in eating, keeping myself in the room, staring at the 4 white walls and now I start drawing...Imagine how pathetic it is. I miss boyfie extremely a lot. The house has been very quiet. I miss his jokes, his smile, his laughter, everything about him. I've never felt this much lost before. I know I made a mistake previously but I'm willing to do anything to make him come back.He's my strength and my support. He took good care of me and accept me the way I am. No one can ever replace him.

When you have that perfect someone, you would want to keep forever.This is what I feel at the moment.

i miss my family and boyfie when i'm sick

Today is my second day of having fever. To be honest,I feel like going back to my hometown. At least there's daddy and mummy to take care of me. And boyfie is not around as well. I miss him a lot. Extremely a lot. The house has been very quiet lately. No one is at home. House mate is away. So its just me and myself. Went out for lunch with Fifi and BFF. Don't know what to eat. Then went to Popular book store. Bought myself a sketching book and a whole set of magic pen. Reached home, sat down at the table and start drawing. Imagine how pathetic my life is!!!! Worst part is the TV has die on me. Not sure when am I gonna buy a new TV.

B, please come back faster. I really miss you a lot....

Lucky that BFF is in Penang or else I'll go crazy. Even though I'm sick, I have to do everything on my own..It sucks, you know...Now I know how it feels when there's nobody to help you to do anything especially when you're sick...First day when I had fever, I actually cried..Because I miss daddy, I miss mummy and I miss boyfie very much. I had high fever and I was scared as well. Scared that in case anything happens, no one will be at home to help me...

fever visited me

Picture was taken quite some time as I didn't have time to actually upload. It was roughly a month ago. We had lunch in Fridays. Boyfie ordered his favourite steak and I ordered mac and cheese something. Can't remember the actual name. Looked good in the menu but it came in a big potion. I can't exactly finish it up so boyfie took some.

Picture was taken when we just arrived in Gurney Drive soon after we had our dinner. Its been a while since the both of us actually hang-out till late a night. We went back around 3am.Gosh. reached home and called boyfie but there was no answer on the phone. So I assumed that he was sleeping and I was correct when I called him again the next day. He was down with high fever. And today it is my turn.Had high fever in office since morning but I did not went back as I didn't want to go back home half way through.

As you can see the picture above, I was wondering why on earth does people like her has the 'courage' to actually put on an outfit like that. Gosh, pain in the eyes..I bumped into this girl when I was sitting by Gurney Drive with BFF,Alla. We were actually waiting for our movie to start at 11pm. It was on Saturday night and just so you know that boyfie was in KL at that time. I didn't mention to BFF but I know eventually she'll read this post..Hahahaha

sure enough worth fighting for

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse (curse)
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt.

Is it better? Is it worse?
Always sitting in reverse
It's just like we're going backwards.

I know where I want this to go
We're driving fast but lets go slow
But I don't want us to crash no.

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's' worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

Now everyday ain't gon' be no picnic
Love aint no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark.

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

I don't know where we're heading
I'm willing and ready to go.

We've been driving so fast
We just need to slow down
And just role.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
It's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh...).

Happy Mother's Day mummy

Wishing you a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
Moga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki.

Thank you for all that you have done for our family.

Those sleepleess night you have during years of taking care of us.

Those sweat that we caused while waiting for us to finish school.

While waiting for us to finish our music class.

The dishes that you prepare for us for lunch,dinner and breakfat.

And everything.

We love you,Mummy!!!

One of the people I care most

Well, as you can see on the title, the man in the picture is the man that I would want to spend the rest of my life with. He's peeeeeerfect in every way except when he jokes:-) (he thinks that I'm big in size)..Hahaha.We've been together for the past 2 1/2 years and still going strong. And throughout these years, he showers me with care,love and affection even though he don't say it out loud (guys and ego are a set). If you ask me whether is he worth it? I'll say yes because I bet you that I might not find someone like him. He cheers me up when my day is terribly bad and stood by me when I almost falling apart. He accepted my clause and never once complain. He put me first on top of his priorities. He make sure that I'm safe everytime I'm with him. He takes good care of me when I'm sick and even though sometimes he nag, it's for my own good.

I always pray that both of us will last forever and I never want to set my eyes on another man, not anymore.

I have my insecurities, and he gave me an assurance. He's loyal and faithful and it is hard to find that kind of man in this modern days.He respect and accepted me for who I am. But sometimes, when things goes wrong, worry starts to haunt me. Worry that I might lose him to someone better. I know he won't cheat as he is not a 2 timer man. Like I said, he's loyal and faithful.

Everyday I look forward to see him after work, go for a simple dinner or movie. And he don't mind if I wear my sleeping attire for the dinner as long as I'm comfortable.And he prefers my bare-face instead of make-ups all over. I do wear light make-ups for certain occasion. Make-up and girl are one:-).

I just want him to know that, even though sometimes we argued about the smalls things, but I want him to know that, I'm looking forward to a better life with him, through sick and health and through rich and poor. I'll never dump him for any other man and he's the only man in my life apart from daddy.

Putting into words about his characteristic won't be enough as the list will never end. But what is put into this blog is sure enough to explain how good he is in my eyes.What epople think,does not matter because at the end of the day, I lead my own life not anyone else. And when you're in trouble, these are the people that you'll think of first.

boyfie is old enough to get married

Well, 30th April was boyfie's birthday. We went out to Gurney Plaza with his colleague as well. Watched Iron Man 2..It was crowded..Holy s***...And saw a few people that I wish I don't bumped into...I didn't even say hi...Well, past that off...

Anyway, movie started at 10pm.. So all of us met up in 7th floor for dinner...7 of us left from 12 of us who should be attending the dinner and movie...Then, at a very last minute, 1 attendee canceled the movie-date...That's it.. So during movie, only 11 of us left...So after movie, we didn't know where to head..Club???It will be jam pack as it is labor day and Monday will be a holiday as a replacement holiday for 1st May that falls on Saturday...And I can say, club is the worst place to be during any public holiday..Place will be damn humid,hot,sweaty adn uncomfortable...People will bump into you escpecially drunkers, they will talk nonsense....And I don't like that...So everyone decided to have a drink at Sega's GP...We sat there from 12.30pm till 4am...We were the last customers left and pity the waiter, they have to wait for us to leave...We talked, we laughed, we talk, we laughed...Hahahaha..It was a good exercise for my mouth...

I woke up at 2pm the next day feeling so 'freshhhhh' and lazy!!! It' s been a while since I last had my 'good-night' sleep... Then, me and boyfie headed to QB and my GOD, the jam was longer than a giant caterpillar and then only I remembered that it was public holiday..So I told boyfie to park at open-parking lot instead of having to line up to get carkpark....no way..We ate Nando's for lunch and the crowd was 'full-filling'..We had to dashed through 'oceans' of people...And guess what, sales was everywhere and my jaws dropped down but because of the overcrowded humans, I wasn't that keen to lineeeeeeeeee up just to pay my shopping stuff..So we went for a walk...Postponed my shopping to the next day...

BFF is coming to town

As happy as I can be. Bff said she's moving in to Penang this weekend...Woohhoo..Have compnay for gossip and stories..No need to spend my phone calling her anymore...Just an sms or surprise meeting at her house...And to that b****, me and BFF gonna kutuk you till you drop...Bloody b****...We don't f***ing care whether you're gonna die or almost die...Whatever *snap*...

Today can be consider good for.Calls were quite good.

God, please give good health and panjangkan umur my parents

Good to be back home last weekend. But sadly, I had only 1 day to spend with the family. Didn't meet up with friends as time was limited for me. So this time around, I spent the 1 day I had with mummy,daddy and adik and as usual adik has to go for her tuition. It feels so good to be back home. Nothing better to compare.I feel different this time. Felt more attached to the family. Help mummy with house chores. I can see that they're not as strong as they used to be. Wrinkles on the their faces and hands..How fast I grew up...I can still remember house daddy used to run around the house playing catching with us but now he can't barely walk to the kitchen..He looked so tired...Mummy as well..I pray to God to give me strength and courage to work hard so that I can afford to take good care of them like how they used to do it...Sebak rasa hati...

I can't imagine how my life and world would be without them...Even when I lost grandma, it felt so heart-broken,apatah lagi mak bapak sendiri...I rely on them for their encouragement and support..They provided me everything to make sure I have what I have now...I feel very blessful and greatful for the achievement I got today...I used to give up in almost everything I do but they gave me moral support and push me harder...

I always pray that God will always panjangkan umur my parent so that they can enjoy a good life. Just sit back and relax. I really miss them a lot. I've been having this kind of fear. Fear that I'll get a phone call one day from someone to inform me that they are gone...

Yesterday, when daddy sent me to the bus station, I salam him and feel so sebak. I didn't cry though but berat sangat hati nak tinggalkan family. Mummy didn't tag along as she followed the neighbour to the supermarket. I salam her first before she went off, she didn't look at my face but I gave her a kiss on the cheeks. I shed some tears....It was very hard to leave them yesterday and I don't know why..

when we were young

Well, I believe that most of us went through a very rebellious years when we were teenage. And yes, I did too but compare to the rebellious behavior with today's teenager are totally different.

When we were young, the things that we did really upset our parents but not to a point where it made our parents speechless or not bothered anymore. But today youngsters are so lucky, they have handphones at the age of 12 years old, PSP at the age of 10, nintendo Wii at the age of maybe 15 and best part is few weeks back, I was at a mall with boyfie, so we were chatting and I saw a girl who's using a Sony Ericsson that is worth $2000 so I showed boyfie and he said 'See la, parents nowadays really spoil the kid'... Part of it I agreed but what about kind that comes from a good upbringing but still end up spoil????You can't blame their friends or peers..Yes, they maybe easily influenced by many things when they are 16 but what are the reasons??? Family? Friends?..