When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life.
Monty Python's Life of Brian
what's your future like
To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone.
Reba McEntire
Have you ever dreamt of Prince Charming? I bet you did. So do I. Living in a magical castle and riding horses, walking in the castle's park every morning and evening. We imagine of having the perfect guy one can have in the universe but in real life, it is just bull****. That's why it is called imagination or dream. Man like that in reality doesn't exist. No one's perfect so how can you get one. Sometimes we wonder, will the person we're with can really take care of us like how they'd say 'I always take care of you'. What do they mean by take care?
When we're at the end of a relationship, we asked ourselves, will I get the same guy? or it won't be the same. A relationship that doesn't work has many reasons to it. It does not mean that the bond is break due to one party got caught cheating. Sometimes it's just not meant to be. It's hard to predict what will happen in the future. If everybody can see the future, then life means nothing without a mixed of feelings and the world will look dull.
People are different nowadays. Its not the same like the old days where man or women are more conservative and honest. They meant what they say. Its not easy to find someone who has similar personality to our father. And most girls will say they would want someone like daddy. Same goes to me. My dad is the closest person to me compared to little sis and mummy. We talked almost everything except now. I've grown up and stay far from the family. But once in a while they will come down to visit me.
At times I wonder, how will my future be? Will be that someone I’ve always wanted to be, to have my BMW that I’ve been passing by the show room almost everyday. It is all challenges. It feels so hard and merely impossible. And I wonder will I get someone like daddy who’s so responsible towards his family. All the hardship he went through to have what he has now. And sometimes, when I look back, I regretted things I’ve done but I know I can’t turn back time. See the future and think what I can do to make things better instead of thinking I could have done. Sometimes I would want God to just show me what’s the end of my life story so that I can get prepared.
I imagined myself getting married, have kids and working at the same time, having breakfast with my children and husband on weekends but at the same time, I imagine those things does not exist. Only me and my rabbit...
And I wonder and wonder and wonder........
somethings we have to let go
Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult
Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life even you've achieved many things?. You feel like it is the end of the road and that you can't seem to find any other alternative way. The only thing you can think of is ESCAPING. Escape from everybody and get some peace of your own but there's always some thing or some one that will come your way.
There are things that you don't want to know, but you have to learn.
There are things that you don't want to lose, but you have to let go.
Well, easy said than done aite? Motivation talks and classes are just tools to guide you in decision making but you as a whole, are the one who will choose the 2 cross road that you're standing in. Tough isn't it. When you think what you're facing now is tough, think about others. They have worst than yours. Sometimes, there are things that I just want to give up but I keep telling myself I can do it. But actual fact I can't.
At times, you have to let go things or people that you don't want to. I admit it is hard. But in order for the world to spin again, you've gotta be cruel or you'll be suffering. Love is just a gambling game. You'll never know whether you're destined to be with that person even after marriage. It doesn't gurantee anything. And to put aside or sacrifice some things in your life, you won't know how to differentiate. Everybody breaks down when it comes to emotions, even the toughest guy on earth will bow to his/her own emotions. But God is always there for us. At times, we blame Him for what has happened, but actuallyHe gives us time and wants us to learn the strength of being hurt, being rejected, the feeling of failing, so that we can be strong and get up back on our feet. He's preparing us for the biggest challenge in life. He created us, so no matter how naive we are, how bad we have become, He is always forgiving and will always be there when we needed Him the most.
So when things are going tough, pray and have faith in Him and yourself...
family and all those matter
The meaning of good and bad, of better and worse, is simply helping or hurting.
Today was unusually sunny compare to any other days when it is raining most of the time.Headed to Salvation Army Boys Home to donate unused clothes and toys before heading for late lunch. The place was quiet as children were in the house. You don't see kids running around the compound.
An Indian boy with a piece of paper and pen greeted us at where we put the clothes and toys. He asked whether we want to donate some RM for another orphanage home. They're also helping other home like them . My heart crushed and tears were at the edge of my eyes. It made me think how lucky I am to still have a family when they don't have the privilege. Compare to all orphanage homes, Salvation Army Home for Boys are consider lucky as they're well taken care of. Big companies like G Hotel held event for them each year such as Christmas Gifts Exchange (I participated and donated a black sweat shirt).
fast food
When you're staying on your own, cooking at home will be 2nd choice. Not for everyone I meant. McDonald has been my best buddy for the past few days and had apple pie and hot tea for dinner yesterday as I ate like a pig during breakfast and lunch with the boys. I wonder why I had 'big tummy' yesterday. My appetite shoot rocket high. And since I ate quite a lot, I skipped supper (I always have supper on weekend coz I don't have to wake up early the next day).
Anyway, woke up early in the morning (roughly 8am) as I planned to have McD's breakfast the night before. Set my alarm at 6am. And as usually, plan tak jadi. Was supposed to wake even earlier during the weekdays so that I can buy the breakfast set for my colleague as well but having hard time to wake up...as usual...
So with much of confidence, I drove to Greenlane McD as they're having promotion of buy anything more than RM5, you will get 2 free big breakfast. Promotion ends 31st March. More details, visit McDonald website.I thought I was the earliest but I guess, some people are earlier. The drive-in queue line are so long until the main road. Need not to mention the line in the restaurant itself. So I drove off and bought Transfer Road roti canai. With the weather so cold, I made myself a jug of Nescaffee (damn), sat in front of the tv and enjoy my breakfast when some people are still queuing for their breakfast:-) I think by the time, they reach their turn, it would be lunch. Ahahahahahaha...
work and work and work
the hooded one is Benson and the blur face is Jason
We decided to have our meeting in GSB lounge (Graduate School of Business) where the disturbance and distraction are low apart from Facebook, YouTube and blog entry (which is by me). And the temperature is bearable unlike in the library where you'll freeze to death especially with the rainy season that has been going on for days. People might think you're doing revision until you've forgotten or surroundings.
Anyway, I've been following Kimberly's blog . It is interesting and my favorite part are posts on recipes. They look yummy and delicious. You should check it out.
there's always rainbow after the rain
picture credit to Dianah
Photo was taken during our visit to grandma's graveyard. It was before we head back to Penang after our CNY celebration with the family in Trengganu.
Looking at the picture make me feel grateful of what I have now. A perfect partner and a great family. Yes, at times I'd ask myself, why can't I have better things than what I have now but you know what, not everyone has the privilege to have what I have. At times we do have our setback and misunderstanding with each other but doesn't mean we don't care about one another it's just that we show it differently.
Sometimes we have to fall in order for good things to happen. And it all depends on how strong you're. But when you're not, that is when the 'meltdown' happen. Not everyone have the strength, so am I. Prayers are the only help we have when all way out are block.
I used and still complaining about my life but I'm human created by God so I can't help myself in that sense.So do you. Humans will never be satisfied with what they have therefore they will strive for more. Up to a point they forget how to be normal.
What I'm seeking now is just happiness and peace. Working hard for my goals...
torn between hearts and soul
have you ever feel as if you're torn between 2 decision. it is easy to say 'things gonna be fine' when it isn't. And that's when you turn to God to seek for peace and a way out. Hoping that He will enlighten your way. It is hard I admit. I've been through so many hardship in life but not like this. at times I'll be thinking how grateful I am compare to those people who has more problem than me. but when you have to face the situation on your own, it feels like the whole world come trembling down on you. and when it doesn't go your way, that's when you feel like giving up. you may have best friends or family members who care about you but still you find it hard to find the words.
at times I feel like giving it lose will be the best way out but feels reluctant.
what's hard in life
“In life you are going to make mistakes, you're going to fall down, but it's the getting up that counts. Just like in baseball: you'll get a few hits, but most likely, you'll strike out more than you'll get on base. But don't quit. Find your focus, relax, take a deep breath and give it a good swing"
Dave Pelzer - A Man Called Dave
a burnt down country
The picture above were taken from CNN following the after earth quake tragedy. See how much differences it caused? Imagine if it is Malaysia. The earthquake that shook Japan has changed the layout of their country in the world's map. It looked like part of the place were burnt down. No one can imagine how suffer they're now. This is even worst than the 2004 tsunami.
a nuclear plant in Malaysia??????
We've been hearing about nuclear radiation for the past days since the explosion of one of the nuclear plant in Fukushima and rumors has been spreading around about the effect, danger and risk.Panic around the world has led to people staying at home, stock market went down steeply and prices of basic necessities also increases especially in Japan when demand of that basic things are high. We,in Malaysia are still lucky of having the pleasure to eat anything we want, stepping into a supermarket without having to worry anything whereby people of Japan are staying in cold and hunger.
I've been following Japan's development since it happened on Friday and honestly said I'm moved and feel guilty for not able to do anything except watching. Imagine if it were to happen in Malaysia? And the government planned to built a nuclear power plant in Malaysia. Handling a nuclear plant is not the same as handling the Tenaga Nasional power plant. Do you know how strict are the rules and regulation when it comes to handling a nuclear plant. If there are 10 precaution steps of handling that kind of plant, you will and need to follow all 10 steps. Malaysian does not have the discipline in that matter, so why waste time to built one. They always find a shorter way in carrying out the task. The shortest possible way is the best. Instead focus on boosting the country's economy and political situation. This is truly a waste of the people's tax payment. Malaysia will never learn their lesson. Having the thought or even the idea of building a nuclear power plant is bloody ridiculous. We have surplus of energy resources. So I don't understand why do we need one?? Is the government out of their mind. God Gracious... Or Malaysia just wants to compete with other country. Take for example the Kuala Lumpur International Airport. Why do we need another airport when we can just upgrade the Subang airport.See what I mean. And why do we need the KL Tower?..
quote of the day
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.
Oscar Wilde
*By the way, I'm currently obsess with the orange dress that this girl wore with a jeans jacket. I love to see how she mix and match her wardrobe. So colorful. He name is Shea Rasol. I've been following her blog for the past 1 year. How interesting.
let us pray for the people of Japan
Some of the pictures were taken around Graduate School of Business as well as during my way for lunch.It has been raining for the past weeks but this time it rained radiation. People are advise to stay indoor and if they have to go out, use umbrella or raincoat. Expecting a lot of cars on the road for the next few days.
The necklace I wore(which is my favorite currently) was bought in Singapore during my Christmas trip last year. S$9.90. Cheap ain't it? It is a horoscope necklace even though it is not my star.
I'm grateful that I can still wake up to the morning breeze, have a warm bath, have a nice breakfast where else in Japan people are fighting to survive. Even a clean water to drink is like rabbit hunting. To get 1 meal a day is like finding the rarest diamond on earth. 3 disaster for one country. Isn't that too much to handle. God, we pray that you'll ease the burden of these people. Give them strength to live for themselves and their family. Your test on earth are far too great for us to carry. Help save the innocent life.
*Well, let us all ray that God be with us through these hard times. Show us the way and guide us through all this.
8.9 earthquake in Japan
All of our prayers goes to all victims in Japan who suffered severe tsunami attack and earthquake that wrecked millions of houses and thousands that went missing. May God be with you.
some are true some are not
"The easiest job in the world has to be coroner. Surgery on dead people. What's the worst thing that could happen? If everything went wrong, maybe you'd get a pulse."
- Denise Miller
true friend?? Not sure myself
Do you have a close friend? I bet everyone of us does. How does your good friend treat you? Colder or the bond is still as strong as a diamond. Well today's post will be about friends. Let me tell you a story and you decide what kind of friend I have because I'm not sure myself.
When I was in college, I have a close friend who I share stories with, laugh and cry together. Where ever we go,we'll go together. We took different course. He took education and I took business but that didn't shake our friendship. Yes, there are times we argued but we made up. Life won't be colorful without a little negativity in it right?. So, as time goes by, we graduated. After years of hard work. Still our friendship still remain the same. I work in Penang and he got offered some where else which I won't mention here in the name of respect. So years goes by, he got a new sets of friends so do I. I admit that sometimes I do miss him. Remembering those time when we were still teenagers. It was a whole lot of fun. Nothing to worry.Carefree world. I still cherish our friendship. So as time passes by, I get less phone calls or text from him. I assumed he was busy as both of us are working adults now. I understand that. But after a while, I notice that he only calls when there's business related. As time goes by, a gap existed between us. We no longer send sms to each other just ask how are we doing and that kind of thing. I still meet him once in a while when ever he's here. Even at times, I don't even know he's here. And when ever I ask him why he didn't tell me that he's coming he'll say 'Oh I have something to do, Couldn't make it to meet you'. I can still accept that excuse a few times but later on it's just a lame excuse. Can't he take an effort to meet up even just for a few minutes? I'm not sure whether is it worth to maintain this friendship or let it surpass me.
Frankly speaking, I'm not sure whether he feels that I'm a friend with benefit or a true friend.
Happy International Women's Day
So today marked International Women's Day. This celebration is to celebrate women around the world. To appreciate what they have done that changed the world and what makes a part of the world we live in today. As we know women played and still play an important role in every aspect of our everyday life. Be it in the social sector or high-post ranking in the government or private sector. But sadly, women are only about 60% part of it. And still many big companies are sceptical of hiring women in the board. In Norway, there are sets of ruling that every company must follow and one of it is,every company must have at least 40% women in their board of directors and surprisingly they follow the rules and not a single company went bankrupt instead they're doing very well. I think we should implement that kind of rules in Malaysia as well. People think that women belong in the kitchen and their job are taking care of the kids, takes care of the house. Basically staying at home and doing the house chores. That mind set has long gone in women's head. Hei, this is 21st century okay. We even have women police and soldier. So what's not possible that a women can't take?
Even universities are populated by women than man. Problem is, women are not given the chance to try things or given a responsibilities to prove that they're able to do work. Take Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir for intstance. See how powerful she is...She is the role model of every women in Malaysia as well as an active activist. She stood up for women in Malaysia and defended the importance of equality between men and women. Yes, we can't deny that in some part, women can't do a man's job. But at least the equality in segregating task is practice.
but I do hope that in the future, we can see more women stand out...
over the weekend
As final exam coming next month, I was busy as a bee over the weekend. Replacement class to attend, meetings, assignments due and tutorial to finish up. The lecturer won't let us pass easily ain't he??. Anyway, had class yesterday. Replacement one actually. Then went for lunch, bought movie ticket for the night session(I need a break as well ok), dinner and went home for bed. It was tiring though. Feels like 24 hours wasn't enough. Tomorrow's gonna be Monday. I've noticed lately that weekend passes by so fast. I don't think I had time to even catch a breath and it is Monday already with classes to attend.
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