First of all I'm not emo okay. Let's make it clear. I was eating burger king for dinner (what a healthy meal) as I finished work quite late. Was suppose to cook some tomyam fried rice but tak jadi at the very last minute due to work commitment*sigh*. Anyway, while eating (watching tv as well), my mind wondered off some where in the future. I mean, at one point in your life, definitely you'll be thinking, what will you be? or who you'll be? in the next 5? 10? or maybe 20 years down the road. I'm sure you don't want to do same thing as what you're currently doing right? Me too..I'm not shy to say that I'm dreaming of becoming a big manager(will be good if I am the tauke:-p despite I'm a slow learner, and a blur most of the time). hey, everybody has their own goals and dreams right.
Well, at times I wonder how can those big tauke stand right at their current position now. How can they be rich?? Lottery? Work like a dog 12 hours a day?. Even if you ask them, they'll say 'You need to work hard. Life is not easy'...working hard like how????
Every single morning(only weekdays when I have to get up early), I'll tell myself 'Daddy is not a millionaire'..I have to force myself to wake up and get ready for work..I feel it is so hard to juggle work and study at the same time. Even last Monday, I had my mid term exam for one of the papers, I thought of quitting my job and focus full time on my Masters but lucky I gained consciousness at the back of my head and tell myself to stay strong. This is the ultimate test to do the thing that I've been wanting to do and it is part of my wish list and I know I'm half way through achieving it. It's just a matter of time.
I know as a normal human being created by God, we're prone to break down especially when things doesn't work out. But I believe that God test us for a reason. To prepare us for something bigger and even when we're lost and not knowing what to do, He will not leave us instead he guide us the right path.