When we're at the end of a relationship, we asked ourselves, will I get the same guy? or it won't be the same. A relationship that doesn't work has many reasons to it. It does not mean that the bond is break due to one party got caught cheating. Sometimes it's just not meant to be. It's hard to predict what will happen in the future. If everybody can see the future, then life means nothing without a mixed of feelings and the world will look dull.
People are different nowadays. Its not the same like the old days where man or women are more conservative and honest. They meant what they say. Its not easy to find someone who has similar personality to our father. And most girls will say they would want someone like daddy. Same goes to me. My dad is the closest person to me compared to little sis and mummy. We talked almost everything except now. I've grown up and stay far from the family. But once in a while they will come down to visit me.
At times I wonder, how will my future be? Will be that someone I’ve always wanted to be, to have my BMW that I’ve been passing by the show room almost everyday. It is all challenges. It feels so hard and merely impossible. And I wonder will I get someone like daddy who’s so responsible towards his family. All the hardship he went through to have what he has now. And sometimes, when I look back, I regretted things I’ve done but I know I can’t turn back time. See the future and think what I can do to make things better instead of thinking I could have done. Sometimes I would want God to just show me what’s the end of my life story so that I can get prepared.
I imagined myself getting married, have kids and working at the same time, having breakfast with my children and husband on weekends but at the same time, I imagine those things does not exist. Only me and my rabbit...
And I wonder and wonder and wonder........