nuffnangers

my heart is pouding fast

Thing has not been great for me since last month. Firstly I lost the car key, then the housekey and my handphone. God, I pray to you to give me the strength to go through all this...

Since grandma passed away,everything seems dull to me.The only thing that make me laugh and smile are my colleagues, BFF alla, khang,fifi, dearest boyfie and the family. The rest is just dull. I don't really speak much now but because of my work nature, I forced myself to. I hold this guilt inside me for blaming myself of not having to visit my grandma and I never knew last year's Chinese New Year will be my last visit. If I knew things would work out this way, I would have gone back instead of pressuring myself for the money.