The after gamble

Well, its been 2 weeks since my trip to Genting Higlands with my previous team members. FYI, boyfie tag along and you won't imagined what happen in Genting....I threw up!!!... But it was fun though. And we went to the casino...first time for me and boyfie. It was cold but as the place is small, so there's not much things to do...We spent our time eating...BURGER KING...And boyfie bought 3 pieces of burger back to Penang...There's no BK in Penang....Lame...

Well been working hard for the past 2 weeks and has been a very hectic week for me..Time is running fast as well.....

Missing the family a lot lately..Called adik and daddy few days back..Hhmm..

Got an interview for my masters intake next Monday.very nervous but not sure what to expect for the interview. I've never heard of interview for master's study before in my life...

Looking forward for a better week next week...Fingers crossed...

typical people around us

Well,just finished talking to a customer...Normal routine..Looked through some of the post posted in FB.Some sounded weird,lame,ridiculous,arrogant...Well too many to list down.. But above all, I'm happy to see some of them are happily married, getting married not including those who got divorced...I'm sorry to hear that.Not sure when will it be my turn.But not anytime soon...

I've started reading finance books and magazine. Starting to be a bookworm as used to in uni. Fingers crossed hoping that my master application come through.

Nothing much to blurp actually.I miss my hometown and my family.The last I went back was 4th day of Chinese New Year..I took a 5 days leave that ended me regretting for not paying a visit to grandma's place.It was a disaster...Seriously...

I'm currently planning getting my blogshop up and running for the next few month to come. As I mentioned earlier in my blog that I want to work from home.Well this is what I like I guess. Being entrepreneur..Don't have to crack my head everyday at work...

my heart is pouding fast

Thing has not been great for me since last month. Firstly I lost the car key, then the housekey and my handphone. God, I pray to you to give me the strength to go through all this...

Since grandma passed away,everything seems dull to me.The only thing that make me laugh and smile are my colleagues, BFF alla, khang,fifi, dearest boyfie and the family. The rest is just dull. I don't really speak much now but because of my work nature, I forced myself to. I hold this guilt inside me for blaming myself of not having to visit my grandma and I never knew last year's Chinese New Year will be my last visit. If I knew things would work out this way, I would have gone back instead of pressuring myself for the money.

there are some thing money can't buy

It was a very sad day for the family last week as grandma passed away at her home in Seberang Takir, Kuala Trengganu. The worst thing ever happened to me in my entire life. I can't show how much guilt and regret I have. I was supposed to go back for Chinese New Year celebration as I do it every year but for this year instead of going back to visit grandma, I choosed to work just for the sake of the triple pay as it was public holiday...Therefore I went to work as usual and my shift was from 9.30am to 2.30pm.So happily thinking about the money, I ignored the time of celebrating the joyous day with the family...

So 3 weeks after that, on Sunday morning(7th march), I received a call from daddy saying that grandma has passed away..I was holy shocked and I cried instantly reminiscing the regret of not going back to visit her..I asked daddy again whether it's a prank or real...And he said, it is real and that they're going back to Trengganu the next day (morning). They came down that night and we went back early the next morning...Heart was pouding as I still hope that they're wrong...When we reach, I took a peek at grandma's coffin and tears came swimming down my tears..I couldn't hold my tears back and with full of regret in me...We sat for a while and about 5pm we checked into the hotel..Had shower and a change of new clothes...Waiting for the Buddha priest to come...part of the tradition...When the part where we have to go round grandma's coffin, I saw daddy was crying and it made me cry too...I grew up with her and I would call her once in a while just to check on her...

The 3rd was the day where she'll be bury..So we followed the car that carries her coffin to the cemetery ground... the worst part was when seeing they closed her coffin and bury her...We were hoping that she'll bang at the coffin case to tell us that she's still alive...But no sound....I hugged daddy and cried for the last time...

I've learnt the biggest lesson ever, money is really not everything...I'll carry this regret forever...