decision making

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.

~David Russell

The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.

~Flora Whittemore

Decision making is an everyday thing in life. The differences are whether it is hard or easy to decide or, whether it is life and death. Having to many choices is also bad as it will leave you undecided. Heard before 'best decision in life sometimes is not making decision'. Some people decide to take a longer and harder path in their life but some just want the easy way out. People who take the route where nobody else want are better in decision making and they're stronger as they've been through a lot in order to achieve what they have now. But not everyone is tough. Confidence is the key to decision making. Confident that you'll be able to handle what ever that comes in your way after deciding. I know it is hard but at one point of your life, you will definitely be standing at a cross route when both route are as important. It is a matter of priority after that.

read this and ponder...

This post was taken from my sister Dianah's blog

Read 10 things to learn from Japan AND learn to give rather than take.

Things are not doing well in Japan. It is far from better. Let us all pray for them. It is the biggest catastrophe ever in history.

Imagine this kind of natural disaster happens in Malaysia, will we be as strong as they are?

past days

I have been busy reading journals for exam. Having to read so many articles make my vision double and tired. I'm not even half way through my studies but everything seems so difficult. Juggling work and study at the same time needs patience and strength. It drains out all your energy that by the time you have spare time for yourself, all you wanna do is SLEEP...YES, SLEEP!

The more I read these journals, the more my head spins. It seems endless and there's pages and pages and pages that I have to remember. Plus I have a memory of a gold fish...Great isn't it.. Sometimes, I would question myself whether am I dreaming or is this for real..

part of our life are unspoken so let your heart speaks

true isn't it?

sometimes, we have no clue, that our words and actions left a big impact on others. we dont know the damages we caused for breaking a person's heart and feelings. sometimes, we dont realize, just how inconsiderate and selfish we are. and sometimes, we forgot, we used to get hurt, long time ago. we hated the person who left the scars. we fall, and we break into million pieces. we cried all night long, because we can actually feel the heart is breaking. and then, just when we have learned not to feel the pain, why... why we've become the person we hated at the first place? we turned into everything we said we'd never be... sometimes, we have no clue, that our words and actions left a big impact on others. we dont know the damages we caused for breaking a person's heart and feelings. sometimes, we dont realize, just how inconsiderate and selfish we are. and sometimes, we forgot, we used to get hurt, long time ago. we hated the person who left the scars. we fall, and we break into million pieces. we cried all night long, because we can actually feel the heart is breaking. and then, just when we have learned not to feel the pain, why... why we've become the person we hated at the first place? we turned into everything we said we'd never be...


taken from Fi's blog

geli and disgusted

I've been noticing this kind of news lately in the newspaper. It has been a widespread disease among our citizens especially the older generations. I wonder how can this happen especially when you're already married...This is so disgusting and immoral behaviour. Has our dignity and pride gone down the drain. And he's 55 years old and expect a sixteen years old girl will keep her mouth shut from her parents. Stupid isn't it???...Even sent her home after it happened...OOHH gosh.. Where did he put his brain..At his knee or what?? This is sickening. And one more thing, how can she not know that banks do not open on Sunday? I'm not sure the reason why she doesn't know as I don't want to put words into her mouth. I guess she'll be traumatised for the rest of her life. People has become animal. Even animal has sense of sympathy.

colorful quotes

I am GLEEk, are you?

http://youtu.be/AeN-8PsLHJ4 So, while revising my work, one thing came across my tiny little head. A grand entrance of me and my future husband at my wedding. How cool right. Coincidently there's a song of Marry YOu in Glee version which sounds cheeker, colorful and lively than the original one. Maybe because they're Glee. They tend to exxagarate every single song they sing but in a nice way:-) http://youtu.be/RmIcimA1N9w?hd=1 I love this episode of Glee where they sang MJ's version of Thriller but they meshed it up in a unique beat. It was awesome that I kept watching it on You Tube since then. Their dance routine were damn good and make-up I should say.

fashion speaks

Style is an expression of individualism mixed with charisma.

Fashion is something that comes after style.

Well it is Sunday but I'm at home revising while watching TV. So many articles to read and notes to revise. Ohh how tense. While reading my notes, I browsed through a website about a girl from KL who blogs about her own fashion style. I love her haircut and her style but not sure whether it will be suitable on me or not...Ahahahahaha..Funny..Visit her blog here Strapped.

See what I meant...This is only one of her many pictures...I loike!!!

life is hard indeed

When you're chewing on life's gristle

Don't grumble, give a whistle

And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the light side of life.

Monty Python's Life of Brian

what's your future like

To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone.

Reba McEntire

Have you ever dreamt of Prince Charming? I bet you did. So do I. Living in a magical castle and riding horses, walking in the castle's park every morning and evening. We imagine of having the perfect guy one can have in the universe but in real life, it is just bull****. That's why it is called imagination or dream. Man like that in reality doesn't exist. No one's perfect so how can you get one. Sometimes we wonder, will the person we're with can really take care of us like how they'd say 'I always take care of you'. What do they mean by take care?

When we're at the end of a relationship, we asked ourselves, will I get the same guy? or it won't be the same. A relationship that doesn't work has many reasons to it. It does not mean that the bond is break due to one party got caught cheating. Sometimes it's just not meant to be. It's hard to predict what will happen in the future. If everybody can see the future, then life means nothing without a mixed of feelings and the world will look dull.

People are different nowadays. Its not the same like the old days where man or women are more conservative and honest. They meant what they say. Its not easy to find someone who has similar personality to our father. And most girls will say they would want someone like daddy. Same goes to me. My dad is the closest person to me compared to little sis and mummy. We talked almost everything except now. I've grown up and stay far from the family. But once in a while they will come down to visit me.

At times I wonder, how will my future be? Will be that someone I’ve always wanted to be, to have my BMW that I’ve been passing by the show room almost everyday. It is all challenges. It feels so hard and merely impossible. And I wonder will I get someone like daddy who’s so responsible towards his family. All the hardship he went through to have what he has now. And sometimes, when I look back, I regretted things I’ve done but I know I can’t turn back time. See the future and think what I can do to make things better instead of thinking I could have done. Sometimes I would want God to just show me what’s the end of my life story so that I can get prepared.

I imagined myself getting married, have kids and working at the same time, having breakfast with my children and husband on weekends but at the same time, I imagine those things does not exist. Only me and my rabbit...

And I wonder and wonder and wonder........

somethings we have to let go

Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult

Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life even you've achieved many things?. You feel like it is the end of the road and that you can't seem to find any other alternative way. The only thing you can think of is ESCAPING. Escape from everybody and get some peace of your own but there's always some thing or some one that will come your way.

There are things that you don't want to know, but you have to learn.

There are things that you don't want to lose, but you have to let go.

Well, easy said than done aite? Motivation talks and classes are just tools to guide you in decision making but you as a whole, are the one who will choose the 2 cross road that you're standing in. Tough isn't it. When you think what you're facing now is tough, think about others. They have worst than yours. Sometimes, there are things that I just want to give up but I keep telling myself I can do it. But actual fact I can't.

At times, you have to let go things or people that you don't want to. I admit it is hard. But in order for the world to spin again, you've gotta be cruel or you'll be suffering. Love is just a gambling game. You'll never know whether you're destined to be with that person even after marriage. It doesn't gurantee anything. And to put aside or sacrifice some things in your life, you won't know how to differentiate. Everybody breaks down when it comes to emotions, even the toughest guy on earth will bow to his/her own emotions. But God is always there for us. At times, we blame Him for what has happened, but actuallyHe gives us time and wants us to learn the strength of being hurt, being rejected, the feeling of failing, so that we can be strong and get up back on our feet. He's preparing us for the biggest challenge in life. He created us, so no matter how naive we are, how bad we have become, He is always forgiving and will always be there when we needed Him the most.

So when things are going tough, pray and have faith in Him and yourself...

family and all those matter

The meaning of good and bad, of better and worse, is simply helping or hurting.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Today was unusually sunny compare to any other days when it is raining most of the time.Headed to Salvation Army Boys Home to donate unused clothes and toys before heading for late lunch. The place was quiet as children were in the house. You don't see kids running around the compound.

An Indian boy with a piece of paper and pen greeted us at where we put the clothes and toys. He asked whether we want to donate some RM for another orphanage home. They're also helping other home like them . My heart crushed and tears were at the edge of my eyes. It made me think how lucky I am to still have a family when they don't have the privilege. Compare to all orphanage homes, Salvation Army Home for Boys are consider lucky as they're well taken care of. Big companies like G Hotel held event for them each year such as Christmas Gifts Exchange (I participated and donated a black sweat shirt).

fast food

When you're staying on your own, cooking at home will be 2nd choice. Not for everyone I meant. McDonald has been my best buddy for the past few days and had apple pie and hot tea for dinner yesterday as I ate like a pig during breakfast and lunch with the boys. I wonder why I had 'big tummy' yesterday. My appetite shoot rocket high. And since I ate quite a lot, I skipped supper (I always have supper on weekend coz I don't have to wake up early the next day).

Anyway, woke up early in the morning (roughly 8am) as I planned to have McD's breakfast the night before. Set my alarm at 6am. And as usually, plan tak jadi. Was supposed to wake even earlier during the weekdays so that I can buy the breakfast set for my colleague as well but having hard time to wake up...as usual...

So with much of confidence, I drove to Greenlane McD as they're having promotion of buy anything more than RM5, you will get 2 free big breakfast. Promotion ends 31st March. More details, visit McDonald website.I thought I was the earliest but I guess, some people are earlier. The drive-in queue line are so long until the main road. Need not to mention the line in the restaurant itself. So I drove off and bought Transfer Road roti canai. With the weather so cold, I made myself a jug of Nescaffee (damn), sat in front of the tv and enjoy my breakfast when some people are still queuing for their breakfast:-) I think by the time, they reach their turn, it would be lunch. Ahahahahahaha...

work and work and work

the hooded one is Benson and the blur face is Jason

When everyone is snuggling under the blanket at home, I'm punching numbers and clicking my mouse on Google, finding info for my semester final project. Accompanied by 2 heroes, I'm the only female species stuck between them. But you know what, it is fun to work with them. We laugh a lot definitely even we have 'discrepancies' at times. We study in the same class(only certain subjects) and end up in the same project group :-)

We decided to have our meeting in GSB lounge (Graduate School of Business) where the disturbance and distraction are low apart from Facebook, YouTube and blog entry (which is by me). And the temperature is bearable unlike in the library where you'll freeze to death especially with the rainy season that has been going on for days. People might think you're doing revision until you've forgotten or surroundings.

Anyway, I've been following Kimberly's blog . It is interesting and my favorite part are posts on recipes. They look yummy and delicious. You should check it out.

there's always rainbow after the rain

picture credit to Dianah

Photo was taken during our visit to grandma's graveyard. It was before we head back to Penang after our CNY celebration with the family in Trengganu.

Looking at the picture make me feel grateful of what I have now. A perfect partner and a great family. Yes, at times I'd ask myself, why can't I have better things than what I have now but you know what, not everyone has the privilege to have what I have. At times we do have our setback and misunderstanding with each other but doesn't mean we don't care about one another it's just that we show it differently.

Sometimes we have to fall in order for good things to happen. And it all depends on how strong you're. But when you're not, that is when the 'meltdown' happen. Not everyone have the strength, so am I. Prayers are the only help we have when all way out are block.

I used and still complaining about my life but I'm human created by God so I can't help myself in that sense.So do you. Humans will never be satisfied with what they have therefore they will strive for more. Up to a point they forget how to be normal.

What I'm seeking now is just happiness and peace. Working hard for my goals...

torn between hearts and soul

have you ever feel as if you're torn between 2 decision. it is easy to say 'things gonna be fine' when it isn't. And that's when you turn to God to seek for peace and a way out. Hoping that He will enlighten your way. It is hard I admit. I've been through so many hardship in life but not like this. at times I'll be thinking how grateful I am compare to those people who has more problem than me. but when you have to face the situation on your own, it feels like the whole world come trembling down on you. and when it doesn't go your way, that's when you feel like giving up. you may have best friends or family members who care about you but still you find it hard to find the words.

at times I feel like giving it lose will be the best way out but feels reluctant.

“I believe that any man's life will be filled with constant and unexpected encouragement, if he makes up his mind to do his level best each day, and as nearly as possible reaching the high water mark of pure and useful living.”

what's hard in life

“In life you are going to make mistakes, you're going to fall down, but it's the getting up that counts. Just like in baseball: you'll get a few hits, but most likely, you'll strike out more than you'll get on base. But don't quit. Find your focus, relax, take a deep breath and give it a good swing"

Dave Pelzer - A Man Called Dave

a burnt down country

The picture above were taken from CNN following the after earth quake tragedy. See how much differences it caused? Imagine if it is Malaysia. The earthquake that shook Japan has changed the layout of their country in the world's map. It looked like part of the place were burnt down. No one can imagine how suffer they're now. This is even worst than the 2004 tsunami.

a nuclear plant in Malaysia??????

We've been hearing about nuclear radiation for the past days since the explosion of one of the nuclear plant in Fukushima and rumors has been spreading around about the effect, danger and risk.Panic around the world has led to people staying at home, stock market went down steeply and prices of basic necessities also increases especially in Japan when demand of that basic things are high. We,in Malaysia are still lucky of having the pleasure to eat anything we want, stepping into a supermarket without having to worry anything whereby people of Japan are staying in cold and hunger.

I've been following Japan's development since it happened on Friday and honestly said I'm moved and feel guilty for not able to do anything except watching. Imagine if it were to happen in Malaysia? And the government planned to built a nuclear power plant in Malaysia. Handling a nuclear plant is not the same as handling the Tenaga Nasional power plant. Do you know how strict are the rules and regulation when it comes to handling a nuclear plant. If there are 10 precaution steps of handling that kind of plant, you will and need to follow all 10 steps. Malaysian does not have the discipline in that matter, so why waste time to built one. They always find a shorter way in carrying out the task. The shortest possible way is the best. Instead focus on boosting the country's economy and political situation. This is truly a waste of the people's tax payment. Malaysia will never learn their lesson. Having the thought or even the idea of building a nuclear power plant is bloody ridiculous. We have surplus of energy resources. So I don't understand why do we need one?? Is the government out of their mind. God Gracious... Or Malaysia just wants to compete with other country. Take for example the Kuala Lumpur International Airport. Why do we need another airport when we can just upgrade the Subang airport.See what I mean. And why do we need the KL Tower?..