somewhere beyond

Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there is no way of life.---Angelina Jolie

How's your weekend peeps? Mine? It wasn't that good nor bad..Many things happened over the weekend and I haven't get a grip of what happened. Didn't get enough sleep as well. Many things running through my mind . Decision haven't been made yet..It will be a tough thing for me to do.

When you have someone who takes good care of you, would you say goodbye to them when there things that you can't avoid? When you're put in a situation where you gotta choose between 2 important party. People that you can't live without...How would you feel?? What you see is just the end of the road..You'll feel that's the darkest hour of your life..With nothing you can hold on to.

wedding videographer and photographer

Okay, this time, I'll be blogging about wedding slideshows and videography. You know why, cause it is beautiful and I loike!!.

Everybody has their own dream wedding theme and so forth. We want to capture every moment of the most important step in our life and hopefully it will last forever. I've been looking at this talented videographer who's from the Philippines.He's Jason Magbanua and I can say he's good. Every video that he has created are not the same. He managed to capture every single details of the historical event.

He's not only dealing with customers in the Philippines catering to the local demand but as well as other countries. Well, you can say, the fees is as 'good' as his video and I can bet it is worth every penny you spend on him cause this is once in a lifetime event. Wouldn't you want it to be perfect??If I have a lot of money, which will be a big IF, I will hire him to video my wedding. One of my favorite video is the one above..I think the bridegroom is a celebrity in the Philippines. It is the most beautiful video I've ever seen. And yes, Philippinos are pretty and handsome. The first thing I noticed is that..Enough said and enjoy the video.



And if you're looking at having a good, beautiful pictures for your special event, we have it in Malaysia too and this talented photographer comes from Penang, yes, I repeat, PENANG!!!..I guess Penang-born people are talented (e.g Nicol Ann David).. Hahaha, put that aside...Well, WHIZART is situated at 35 Lembah Permai 1, Tanjung Bungah and even the first glance at this boutique will make you drool..The layout of the boutique are simple and it makes you feel comfortable from the first step into the boutique..You can even visit their Facebook page

Photos's credit to Ke Wynn photographer

Steve Wilkos show

In order to change the world, you have to get your head together first.

-Jimi Hendrix

I've been watching Steve Wilkos show on YouTube and see many types of people and it is sad to think that these people are living among us, the society. At one glance, that person look like a decent man, but inside of him, he's a beast, an animal who doesn't have any feelings. No, animals do have feelings..So I'm not sure how to catogerize him...How can they be this ruthless. Weird is, most of them came from a good family background, so how could they turn out like this..If you were to watch some of the clips, you'll feel like going 'into' that show and give that person a taste of your punch...Seriously...

after a week long

I have yet to get my laptop fix and sorry for the lack of updates as I have no access to the world wide web...lame..The time seems so slow as I have not much things to do. Furthermore, my uni is on semester break till September. So now basically, I'm free..

To be honest, not many things happen lately. I'm still on a quest to find my true self and I'm still struggling . I have not decide what I want in life but I have all the plans lay down in front of me..A whole long list of it but the confidence is not there to achieve it..Decision has to be made but I'm just delaying it cause it is hard..But I know eventually someone will end up getting hurt and that's why I said it is hard..

I'm back with my contact lenses but this time I only wear them during weekend...I still need to get a new pair of spectacles for work as the one I'm currently wearing is not good enough since my astigmatism has increased...Blame it on ASTRO:-p

Anyway, many things and question unanswered running on my mind like how would we know if that person is meant for us? Despite you both keep ending up in arguments....It is tired...Tired of having to try hard to make everyone happy except you..Tired of having to sacrifise a lot of things but yet it is not good enough for another person..Tired of being questioned who's more important..It is darnnn tired..And it drains out all my energy left for me...In the end, suffering is what I get.. Why can't everything be just normal like anyone else...Everything is in a mess...Up to a point I don't even know how to untie all the knots...

My intention is just to make everyone happy...

when you're torn between 2 things

It will definitely drain out your energy...Pray that GOD will provide me the strength I need to go through this complication...

Happy Mother's day

I guess some of you are walking around the mall at this time thinking what to buy for your mum on her special day rite?? Last minute shopping and start thinking what is mummy's favorite thing. And fret not, I'm one of those people except I know what to get for my mum.

Mother's day is a yearly thing and some of you think that it is just another ocassion but not for mothers. This is the day where she put hopes that all her children [including those who has 12 kids] will come and sit at the round table, having a nice dinner together. Most mothers will not ask her kids what have they bought for her. If you notice, the first thing she'll do when she sits down at the dinner table is either scooping the dishes into her children's plate instead of hers first, or ask how much of rice do you want? And then cnntinue eating. You don't notice those actions, don't you?? Nevermind...

When you were young, you couldn't wait to get out of the house and living independently right? So did I..But eventually, you'll missed home and when mummy knows that you're coming home, she'll call you and ask what would you like to eat so that she can cook for you...The irritating part is when your 'young' blood starts to kick in. You became rebellious and a constant pain in the ass to your mum but she did not even think that is a burden instead she thinks that it is still her responsibilities to take of you no matter how you've become. You keep asking yourself 'Why does she likes to nag alot?'. In fact, she don't want to coz it is tiring..

One thing I learnt from my mum is no matter how your mum has changed, or no matter what she has become, her blood still runs in your body and that is the fact you can't change. So no point saying 'From now onwards, you're no longer my mum' when you're angry. So just save your energy and shut up...

To those who didn't have a 'good' bond with you mum all this while, this is the chance for you to make things better between you and your mum. To those who hates his/her mum for becoming or did what she has done in order to protect her kids, it is time for you to forgive them. To those who compare their mum and other people's mother, be thankful that you still have a mother instead of the orphans who doesn't have or worst never even know who their mother was.

While you can still see your mum's number on your cellphone, or still can hear your mum's nagging, or still can see her wrinkle face, appreciate her coz you don't know when are you gonna lose her...

Happy Mother's Day, Mummy...We love you no matter how bad or naughty we were....

Love Dianah and kakak

kids are so smart

You know how kids nowadays outsmart us, adults?? Well, this is the proof. To read further click Mia Suraya's page. I love the post that has Asna in it. Asna is Mia's cute little sister. She's smart and sweet...So cute...And be prepared to laugh as well:-)

life ain't good or is it you??

Ever know someone that always complain about EVERYTHING?? You feel like shoving a cockscrew into her big mouth so that she'll shut up?? I do..I don't put it as complain but rather unsatisfied with life..We'll just name her *Jenny okay for privacy issue:-)

Well, Jenny and I met a few months ago and we get along very well I can say. But lately, it feels annoying to be around her. There's always some thing that she'll complain about. Well, one thing I learnt about life is NEVER EVER,EVER,EVER compare yours with others as you don't know the pain that the other person has to go through in order to get what she/he wants in life.. Everybody's got their own sets of story and no one's story is the same..If you start to compare, you'll only create your own best friend called MISERABLE and forever you will regret.

People like Jenny should visit places like China rural area, India, Sri Lanka or any other 3rd world country and when Jenny sees all these, hopefully she knock a sense of grateful and realize that her life is wonderful after all as well as thankful that she doesn't have to go through hardship like these people.

I do complain about certain things in my life sometimes especially after a bad day at work. But I calm myself down and think about all the good things in life I have. I've travelled almost half of the globe so I should know how my life is compare to those. Like I said, everyone has their own sets of stories. That's what differentiate we, humans...Or unique, so they called it...

Life is easy but we, as human created the complication and in the end, we assumed life is complicated...Life don't circle just around you only Ms.Jenny. It is more than that. Look at the bright side of life instead of being in the dark all the time. And believe that there's always sunshine after the rain..Nothing is easy, you've gotta work hard for it...And things don't just come rolling towards you. If everything is easy, then life will be boring...

we were soldiers

Since Astro doesn't have any movies that I like, I decided to watch DVDs that I bought previously. This is one of the movie that I haven't watch yet. It is a good movie. But I don't think most ladies will like it as it is more to a boyish type...:-)

We Were Soldiers is a 2002 American war film that dramatized the Battle of Ia Drang on November 14, 1965 — the first major engagement of the United States Army in the Vietnam War. The film was directed by Randall Wallace and stars Mel Gibson. It is based on the book We Were Soldiers Once… And Young by Lieutenant General (Ret.) Hal Moore and reporter Joseph L. Galloway, both of whom were at the battle.

"We are moving into the Valley of the Shadow of Death where you will watch the back of the man next to you, as he will watch yours, and you won't care what color he is, or by what name he calls God. We are going into battle against a tough and determined enemy. I can't promise you that I will bring you all home alive. But this I swear. .. when we go into battle, I will be the first to step on the field and I will be the last to step off. And I will leave no one behind. .. dead or alive. We will all come home together. "
With these words, on the day before he was to lead his men off to war, Lieutenant Colonel Hal Moore addressed his soldiers and their families. Before him were young men, still innocent to war, and older men already bearing the scars and decorations of battle. And sitting among them listening to her husband's words, was Moore's own wife, Julie, who had seen him up late at night studying history books about various massacres, strategizing a better outcome for his men, the First Battalion of the Seventh Calvary. .. the same regiment as General George Armstrong Custer. On Sunday, November 14, 1965 at 10:48 a. m. , Lt. Col. Hal Moore and his young troopers touched down at Landing Zone X-Ray in the Ia Drang (pronounced: Eye Drang) Valley, a place in Vietnam known as "The Valley of Death. " A man of his word, Lt. Col. Moore set foot on the field of battle first only to find himself and approximately 400 of his men surrounded by roughly 2000 North Vietnamese soldiers. The ensuing battle was one of the most savage in U. S. history, and the first major encounter between the soldiers of North Vietnam and America. "We Were Soldiers" is a tribute to the nobility and uncommon valor of those men under fire. It honors their loyalty to their country and to each other, and it brings to light the heroism and unimaginable sacrifice of men and women both home and abroad.

Read more here in wikipedia

between India, US and the land of kangaroo

The calender has marked the month of May and my attachment is nearing as well but I have yet to decide where I want to go. Browsing through the net for India, Aussie and US makes me even confuse on which should I choose..I was hoping I could go Aussie. The people there are friendlier and communication will be easy[since they speak English as well]. It will definitely be easier if I just let my uni chooses the country and place for me. Saves a lot of hassle in terms of paperwork.
Talked to daddy earlier and tell him a little bit of what I have in my mind but it hasn't been finalized yet though.

I've been to India when daddy was working there. Food was similar with Malaysia except the pollution and people. They're a bit 'rough' but not every one of them,. And be prepared to be cruel towards beggars especially to the young ones. If you're kind to them, you'll be flock with many of them. So just ignore. But looking at the condition there, you'll be grateful that you're in Malaysia [except the political scene here, gosh]. During winter, they have no clothes to wear except a piece of maybe saree for the ladies and a pants and shirts for the man. And their living condition are so teribble that some of them will have to cook by the road side, poop and pee by the road side, not to mention have shower by the road side. Road side means in the middle of the town, in front of public...See what I mean. Maybe you can't imagine how it is but trust, it is not a situation that you would want to be in.

We always complain about things, even the little onesbut see what other doesn't have that we have...When trouble come, we give up but those people trying their best to stay alive for themselves and their family. We take som many things for granted but we're still ungrateful...

Well, my hearts says strongly that I should go to India but I'm not sure myself. If yes, I'll have many sources to write about. Their politic scene, economy people, bribe. That's a few to name.

Oh my God, what has happened to younsters nowadays. Married at a very young age but doesn't have the resposibility at all.. Read it all here

details in her wedding

So the royal wedding fever has yet to subside and I bumped into this link that explain the details of William and Kate's wedding. I took some of it only as there are tonnes of them. You can read further here

The Royal School of Needlework

The Royal School of Needlework (RSN), based at Hampton Court Palace, assisted the Alexander McQueen team in accurately cutting out the delicate motifs from the lace fabrics and positioning the lace motifs with precision into the new design. The lace motifs were pinned, ‘framed up’ and applied with stab stitching every two to three millimetres around each lace motif. The workers washed their hands every thirty minutes to keep the lace and threads pristine, and the needles were renewed every three hours, to keep them sharp and clean.

The RSN workers included existing staff, former staff, tutors, graduates and students, with the youngest aged 19.

The RSN’s work was used primarily for the train and skirt of the Bride’s dress, the bodice and sleeves, the Bride’s shoes and the Bride’s veil

Veil and Jewellery

The ‘halo’ tiara was made by Cartier in 1936 and was purchased by The Duke of York (later King George VI) for his Duchess (later Queen Elizabeth The Queen Mother) three weeks before he succeeded his brother as King. The tiara was presented to Princess Elizabeth (now The Queen) by her mother on the occasion of her 18th birthday.

The Bride’s earrings, by Robinson Pelham, are diamond-set stylised oak leaves with a pear shaped diamond set drop and a pavé set diamond acorn suspended in the centre. Inspiration for the design comes from the Middleton family's new coat of arms, which includes acorns and oak leaves. The earrings were made to echo the tiara. The earrings were a personal gift to the Bride from her parents for her Wedding Day

The Bride’s Bouquet

The bouquet is a shield-shaped wired bouquet of myrtle, lily-of-the-valley, sweet William and hyacinth. The bouquet was designed by Shane Connolly and draws on the traditions of flowers of significance for the Royal Family, the Middleton family and on the Language of Flowers.

The flowers’ meanings in the bouquet are:

Lily-of-the-valley – Return of happiness
Sweet William – Gallantry
Hyacinth – Constancy of love
Ivy: Fidelity; marriage; wedded love; friendship; affection
Myrtle: the emblem of marriage; love.

The bouquet contains stems from a myrtle planted at Osborne House, Isle of Wight, by Queen Victoria in 1845, and a sprig from a plant grown from the myrtle used in The Queen’s wedding bouquet of 1947.
The tradition of carrying myrtle begun after Queen Victoria was given a nosegay containing myrtle by Prince Albert’s grandmother during a visit to Gotha in Germany. In the same year, Queen Victoria and Prince Albert bought Osborne House as a family retreat, and a sprig from the posy was planted against the terrace walls, where it continues to thrive today.
The myrtle was first carried by Queen Victoria eldest daughter, Princess Victoria, when she married in 1858, and was used to signify the traditional innocence of a bride.

it's holiday and i'm spending time with my lovely desktop

How I wish my work station is as neat as this...sweet...

Talk about holiday when I have to work as everyone is still in their bed, covered with blanket on a good day like this..Anyway, Happy Labor Day peeps...To all Malaysians.

Any howssss, weekend was simple. Spend most of my time at home. Movie marathon. Went out just to buy groceries and dinner. Surprisingly it was jam packed and I almost forgotten that it was public holiday and most of the people are visitors from other states especially KL and Perak..Right after that, went back straight...On the way back, was thinking that I had to go Tesco to buy some thing but as usual forgot what was it [FYI, I have a memory span of a goldfish which can last about 2 second so it is save to tell me your darkest secret as after 2 second, it won't stay put in my tiny brand, I assure that].

By the way, talking about public holiday and jam packed. I wonder why some drivers can stay in their on lane instead of having to 'crumple' into other people's lane. On top of that, there's no indicator given..Hello, you're driving a BMW and pay like what...half a million for that car? so fully utilize the things that come with the car maybe like a freaking SIGNAL light. God!! I'm not sure why are there still brainless people like this living in this world. Lucky that there is no law stating that it is LEGAL to murder someone or else the police will see a lot of dead bodies on the street...

Piano and me

The picture with the girl playing piano reminded me of my youngers days when I used to attend piano classed every week....

Did you know that Lionfish or Pterois volitans is the deadliest fish in the world..Think I'm that smart to know this fact? Nahh...I was watching Bones season 5..hahahaha...

Anyway, at home watching TV on a Sunday afternoon. Don't mention that I'm working tomorrow when everyone else are still in their dreamland...Sad mode is currently turned on... But happily anouncing that my exam mode has ben turmed off...Yippee...

Meet with BFF Alla on Friday in QB mall...Had dinner then at night, went out for a birthday outing...Nothing much, just 'lepaking' in Sega's Gurney...But lucky managed to go back quite early as they closed at about 12am...Thank god...No pictures though....