A test from up above

God, if I can’t have what I want, let me want what I have

Life is hard sometimes, but there is always a reason for why it is

-Jacquelyn K.

Weekend was good as mummy and a neighbor of mine were here for a medical follow-up.They reached here on Friday night and went back this evening. We wanted to visit Bukit Bendera but it was closed for renovation so we went to Kek Lok Si temple. It was hot and tiring but good. The view from up there were beautiful until it made me don't feel like coming down ever....

Had a good conversation with mummy for the first time ever (after 26 years) about G...Didn't know that she could take the news so calmly. But I'm glad that everything has settled on my side that I don't have to hide my relationship anymore.

I'm praying that God will give me the strength to overcome what I'm facing now and that He will lighten my way and give me a peace of mind..And God, please keep away whatever that comes between me and him..

Feast the eyes on the pictures taken during the visit...

It was believed that you lit the candles and pray that your path and whatever you do will be enlighten by God.

They used to have turtles in this pond

This picture was taken during the medical follow-up. While we were waiting for our turn:-)

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

Javan (Steven Javan Jones)

Things hasn't gone well for the past few days. Many things happened and it affected emotionally. Talked to daddy for a while over the phone and it made me felt better. I never thought that I could talk to him about my relationship. It was a good conversation. I hope what ever is happening now is just temporary. Just a change of life cycle. I have so many things going through my mind so I do not wish to add any more burden into my tiny brain. I never want the same thing happen to me again like my previous relationship. It doesn't make me feel good.

Carrie Underwood - Temporary Home

felt awful since then....

I don't know what to feel

I don't know what to say even though I know it won't change

I don't know how to react anymore

I'm speechless

I feel threaten

I sense jealousy

I sense hypocrite

I feel annoyed

I don't feel well emotionally

I sense anger

I feel irritated..........and the list goes on........

I know what I feel now will not change anything but I do hope it will change....

Billy Gilman --- Oklahoma

This song is about a boy who never knew that he had a dad and his dad doesn't know he exist.
I cried when watching this music video

my heart wants to shout out

Sometimes, there are moments where I feel like standing at the edge of a cliff and shout my heart out but I can't find the perfect cliff here in Penang. The only cliff I know is Bukit Bendera..Not a suitable place to do that I guess Even though you have good friends or family to listen to what your heart want to say but there are things that you're aren't able to verbally tell them...It is hard to explain by words and that is what I feel now. Confused and decide whether to think or not to think...The harder I try not to think, the harder it gets...Sometimes it is best to just let it go...

Entri BM sempena Aidiladha

Entah kali ke berapa aku menyambut Raya Haji di negeri orang. Terasa sayu bila mendengar takbir raya di awal pagi. Bayangkan mereka yang terpaksa menyambut raya lebih jauh di negara asing. Entah apa perasaan mereka. Namun ini salah satu pengorbanan yang terpaksa dilakukan demi mencari sesuap nasi...Inilah lumrah kehidupan zaman sekarang. Mereka yang di kampung berhijrah ke bandar unutk mencari peluang yang lebih cerah....Ada yang berjaya dan ada yang hanya boleh melihat orang lain gembira kerana berjaya mencapai matlamat hidup...Mereka di perantauan hanya dapat menumpang kasih dan ihsan orang asing dan menganggap mereka seperti keluarga sendiri...Sayu................

Salam Aidiladha.

Wishing everyone a Happy Aidiladha

Drive safely and have a great holiday...

blogger is currently on exam mode

There won't be any update till the exam is over.......

Accomplishment in life.

"Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use."

Earl Nightingale

I know I haven't been updating my blog for quite some time. Been busy with exams and workload..Sorry readers..Nothing much to tell about for the past few days. Same chores..Go to work and come back, books, computers and so on...

Happy Diwali

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Hindu friends a very Happy Deepavali. Have a joyous moments with your loved ones....

Christina Milian ~ Thank You

weekend gateaway

Weekend was good as I spent it with the family back in my hometown. No pictures though...

blood is thicker than blood

At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable.

~Mark V. Olsen and Will Sheffer, Big Love, "Easter"

Families are the compass that guide us. They are the inspiration to reach great heights, and our comfort when we occasionally falter.
-- Brad Henry

girls night out and photography for fun

Had a great night with BFF Alla and Alina who came down to Penang for a conference in Park Royal, Batu Feringgi. She called and aked us out..So me and BFF went and pick her up but as usual we were late..Ahahahah..Brought her for a coffee in Coffee Island as me and BFF haven't had our dinner yet a the same time..Food was good but we ate too much..Now BFF have to think on how to shed those extra kilos:-). Took a few photos( girls called it camwhoring and I dunno why)...

By the time we reach home, it was about 1.30am..Washed my face and feet and then slept by 2.30am..Seriously can't wake up that morning plus it was raining(nice weather to sleep)...Its good to have girls night out once in a while...

its a girl's best friend right?

Let these 2 pictures do the talking..I assumed most of you know what this is right..Told you its a girl's best friend..Not just diamonds ok..Not all girls are materialistic...Well, bought this yesterday in Jusco as it was on sale...Delivered earlier in the evening...This will definitely make my life easier...No more rough fingers:-)...Silky smooth hands...

By the way, I signed up for a health screening which will be next month..It is a monthly activity organized by my company in collaboration with Pantai Medical Center...Best of all it is free. It consist of blood test up till HIV test..All included in one whole package and IT IS FREE!!!..Should I repeat that again?..The problem is, I'm scared of needles regardless of the sizes and worst is they're going to take a whole full of the lab tube..Even though I've signed up, I haven't actually made my decision...It is good to have a complete medical check-up and better if it is free but just the needle part that scare me off... The last I did my med-checkup that requires me to 'donate' my blood was like 10 years ago???I think so...

I miss Singapore and I want to visit the UNIVERSAL STUDIO...Agak-agak Malaysia ketinggalan berapa tahun kebelakang dari Singapura selepas diaorang ada studio tu ar?Ppfftt...

P/S; When I have kids, I want to be a hot-mama...

Red - Official Trailer 2 [HD]

Watched RED with boyfie today..The movie was awesome andbought something 'special' for me but not gonna tell you yet..Wait till the delivery which is tomorrow.....Hint ; A girl's/woman's best friend(not diamond ok)...Had Nandos for teatime(weird right?) and Shauban nasi kandar for dinner...Goooodddd........

America's got talent - Michael Grimm

I love this guy...He has a good voice...Listen to him...

Happy Weekend

Have a lovely Saturday Nite people...

Michael Bublé - Lost

what makes you happy in life?

Have you ever thought that? Honestly, me neither..Is it a happily-ever-after marriage? Tonnes of money? Caring and loving family members? Well, some things are not measured by how successful you're in life rather how successful you're are emotionally. When your emotions are happy, the impossibles will be possible...I never knew how important it is to be happy until today...I fell down numerous times and I still managed to stand strong regardless of what life throws in to me..I have my regrets but there's no point of regretting what you've done or what you should have done instead make your life happier and fuller in the future..Put the past behind...I know it is easy to say but doing it is rather hard..there's no exception for me either.Sometimes when bad things happen to you, you will start thinking back of what has happened in the past..That will lower down your spirit...You try your best to change things again and again but the result is not as good as you think...It is tired to make the best out of you every single day...From the time you wake up in the morning till you put yourself to sleep...Sometimes you just want to erase all the nightmares that you have that keeps haunting you everyday...

quote for today

Never have regrets because at one point everything you did in life was exactly what you wanted

-Anonymous

Life throws the bad things at us to make the good things all the more worthwhile

-Amy

Nelly - Just A Dream

Jess's wedding post

Attended Jess's wedding dinner in Paradise Hotel. Event started at 7.30pm and as usual I was late but only 15 minutes:-) They served 8 course dinner and 'not too' bad I say but I prefer burger tepi jalan lagi:-p..Boyfie went along as well with some other Dell colleagues...It was fun but tiring though...

Delon was tipsy due to the unlimited wine and beer served(he had his fun la)..And his face was red..Nelly as usual, laughing at him...The dinner ended at 10.30m and all of us headed home...

Kompang Dipalu, Pengantin Baru

Lagu Kahwin - Direnjis Renjis

Bakal Pengantin....

buying a house is not like A,B,C

Planning for a house is not like munching almonds. Just choose and pop into your mouth. I've seen a few houses around(apartments, condos) but none manage to capture my interest yet. Price might be good but the condition (area, interior, etc) doesn't make me go aaww and when the price is like 'roof-top', the house is so beautiful...Landed houses in Penang is like the 'highest-tower-in-the-world' unless if I'm a tycoon's daughter....Well, it's better for me to still do some searching before rushing into any decision...Don't want to regret later..Houese built y IJM and Ivory is so 'pretty' but I can't afford that kind at the moment...There's a few things I want to settle first before getting into marriage so that I don't have to still renting a house later on...A car and a house..Not to brag, but if I have any extra cash...including help from daddy;-), I'd get a Honda for myself. My current obsession is the Honda City/Civic...But for a start I would go for a Vios but BMW would still be my preferred choice(even my own boss don't drive BMW..hahaha)... Well better put things together first instead of a last minute thing...

15th Anniversay

Met with one of my classmate after work. Discussed about our project which due next Wednesday..Tiring and sleepy...

Anyway, my company celebrated our 15 years Anniversary in Malaysia so there were some activities in cafe. Dancing, singing, and launching of our new official song for the company. Singers were among our company's staff and winners of the 15 years Anniversary Official song competition (m not gonna upload here). They have to create their own lyrics and beats...Didn't know we have such talented people in the office..I didn't manage to record the whole song. Just part of it....The whole event lasted for 1 hour (people have to get back to work ok,not that we're on holiday)

One of the staff sang Norah Jones's made famous song 'Don't Know Why'..She was damn good...

strength within is the fuel

Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

-- Anonymous

I'm darn tired today. Work till 5pm and then class at 7pm. God please give me the strength. Had a great night of photography with BFF yesterday. I hope she enjoyed my company and thanks darling for the gorgeous photos. Waiting for her to upload them into my Facebook. We'll do it again next time and next destination will be Batu Feringgi...Ahahah..Kononnya pro photographer la...As BFF is still learning on how to use her DSLR, I volunteered to be her so-called 'model'...Model yang pendek...Xpa la..Pendek pun jadila...And I miss Along(she's in Sabah I think). Thinking of going back to Singapore this coming January 2011. Been 2 years since I last visited my aunties, cousins and uncles...Hhmm...The family be spending the almost-2-months school holiday in Singapore starting next month.

*and should I cut my hair short or keep it long and then go for wavy look??

I want to get myself a compact SLR camera.....

wedding bells

Happy marriages begin when we marry the one we love, and they blossom when we love the one we married.

-unknown

Love doesn't make the world go 'round.

Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

-- Franklin P. Jones

Most of my friends are in the mid of changing their status from 'single'--'engaged'--'married'.. So when is it gonna be my turn?? I can't get married now due to a few reason and one of it is because I'm still studying... Some people said 'After married also still can study what'...It is not that easy buddy... But marriage is at the back of my mind now...The feeling is there...So now I have to make sure everything is in place...Money and properties...Gotta stop shopping from today onwards (nak kumpul duit la konon)*laughing at herself*...I hope everything will be in place within 2 years time...Goshhhh....

weeekend activities

“Did you ever think that making a speech on economics is a lot like pissing down your leg? It seems hot to you, but it never does to anyone else.”

- Lyndon B. Johnson quotes (American 36th US President (1963-69). 1908-1973)

Attended the USM Grand Scholarly Debate yesterday at Dewan Budaya, USM. It was a whole day event (9am-5.30pm)..Topic of the day was Are We Lacking in Economic Strength To Become A Develop Country..Topic was interesting but some speakers made us doze off for a while... Food was provided(brunch, lunch and tea time). For Graduate School of Business students (mainly MBA's), we are required to pay only RM50..For outsiders, fees will be RM250(with some extra goodies and not just the recycle bag).. Food was good and catered by Selera Wawasan Catering (near Sungai Pinang)... We also receive goodie bag (a recycle bag, note pad and a pencil)...One of the speakers was Y.M Tengku Tan Sri Dr.Mahaleel Tengku Ariff. His speeches were good and 'lively'. Other invited speakers were Y.Bhg Senator Tan Sri Amirsham A.Aziz (National Economic Advisory Council), Y.Bhg Tan Sri Dr.Sulaiman Mahbob (Chairman of the Malaysia Industrial Development Authority and Industry Advisory panel member of GSB), Mr Charles Ireland ( President of Malaysian International Chamber of Commerce and Industry), Mr Jonathan Addis (Chairman of the British Malaysian Chamber of Commerce). Tun Mahathir were suppose to be one of the panelist but was replace by Mr Hashim Mohammed( Industry Advisory Panel member for GSB) at a very last minute due to health reason. If he were present, it would be definitely a grand debate:-)... Event was divided in to 2 session..Morning and afternoon and attendance were taken twice as well (to avoid student cabut from the 2nd session, people like me:-)).

YM Tengku Mahaleel having light conversation with some of the students before starting of the second session debate.

purchase of the month

Got this portable speaker (with subwoofer) in Tesco. Got it on sale for a price of RM52.90..Cheap isn't it..Was reluctant to get it at first but everyone in office was talking about it.... It seems like everyone wants to get it. So called boyfie and brought him along that night itself. I didn't get to actually use the speaker yet except the time when I get it tested before paying for it...Might get another model also but same brand...

updates...

Pictures were taken during TM CR Program for Community and Environment 2010 talk in the auditorium

Falling in love and having a relationship are two different things.

Keanu Reeves

Sorry for the lack of update for the past 2 days. Been busy with workload and projects. Anyway, today is my 3rd year anniversary with boyfie and we ate Shauban for celebration*LOL*.. Have planned a few things but haven't had that time to do it. So we decided to postpone the celebration to another day...Maybe when both of us manage to get a leave...Unless if I have my own company..Ahahaha...Nothing much during these 2 days...

blessing of the day

God will not permit any troubles to come upon us, unless He has a specific plan by which great blessing can come out of the difficulty.

Peter Marshall

Arrived home safely considered as a blessing right...

say grace

Not what we say about our blessings, but how we use them, is the true measure of our thanksgiving.

~W.T. Purkiser

I admit that sometimes when bad things happen especially when it happen the entire week, feels like everyone and everything is going against me...I'll ask God 'Why is this happening?'.....I never understood the obstacle that He has thrown in for me...But as time goes by, I understand well... I try to take things one step at a time rather than doing everything all at once when I myself know that it is out of my capability... Last time, I do things so that people will like me and I didn't realize that even though people might like me, that doesn't mean they accept the way I am..They might be talking bad about me behind my back and smile nicely in front of me...I admit I bought friendship... Soon I realize it was wrong and I got my sense back...I know that I'm a nuisance, freak or a fussy to certain people but that's who I am. Yes, I do pick each strain of hair on the floor, and yes, I don't like the sink to be damp wet...The point is we can't change people if they themselves doesn't want to and I'm still learning to be grateful with what I have and yes I'm just a normal human who can't run from making mistakes...Who doesn't right???

some are hard to teach

The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.

~Flora Whittemore

Choose always the way that seems the best, however rough it may be. Custom will soon render it easy and agreeable.

Pythagoras

Watched this movie earlier...And damn have I read the online reviews wrongly???....It was boring..Throughout the show, I was like 'When the hell is this movie gonna end??' I was falling asleep halfway (even though I had my 3 hours sleep in the afternoon)Basically this movie is about soul-searching, making decision and knowing what you want/scare of in life (something like that)..Maybe the reviews that I've read is from a writer who pretty much favor this sort of story line..Not for me...But it seems that boyfie enjoyed it (coz its weird as I know he likes to watch movie with fighting/adventure scenes) . On the way back we tapau Burger King..They were closing and left only whooper burger (we bought it anyway)

*Some are just hard to teach no matter how many times you try to teach/tell them...So don't waste your time spend on this kind of human...Its just a waste of your time seriously...

happy weekend people

It is weekend again peeps. Have a great holiday. Drive safely...

Final exam is next month and I gotta scrub my ass till wee hours again...OMG!!! Again???

of friendships...

pictures courtesy of Sarah's DSLR. thanx

This picture was taken during Sarah's 'rumah terbuka'. We did not plan to stay that long (till about 9pm from 5 in the evening). Cik Pah said she wanted to take a look at the house so me and Alla tagged as well. Sarah took us around the house from the front porch to the kitchen to the rooms and to the bathroom:-) It was an old-classic-british type of house. Inside has been renovated before the whole family moved in. It has contemporary deco. Didn't manage to take pictures of the exact deco. But the above pic was taken in the guest living room (air conditioned ok)...We drink and ate cakes, which supposedly a gift from Eastin hotel and it was for Sarah's in-laws..But we (as in Alla and Cik Pah) whacked most of the toppings... Alla and Cik Pah nibbled most of the fruits and the cake deco...Greedy girls!!!...As I don't really favor chocolate moist cake, I didn't eat. Plus my stomach was packed with lontong, nasi dagang, kuih and laksa which we ate before we entered the house during the open house...Food was good especially the nasi dagang....It's kind of sad when we had to leave as it has been a long time since all of us get to gossip and such...Sarah didn't change much..Still same old her with her jokes, nonsense and laughter..And she has 1 daughter already...Hahahaha.

13 years of friendship and still going strong...

A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world.

~Lois Wyse

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive.

~Anäis Nin

I believed that most of us received emails and some even posted in FB saying that Burger King is officially opened in Penang. A long waited favorite joint has finally here...Set that aside....Met with my long old school classmate back in Secondary 5. It was good to see her and had a long chat as well with BFF Alla and Cik Pah. So sad that Along could not be here:-)...Sarah invited us to her 'rumah terbuka' at the Kediaman Setiausaha Kerajaan Negeri (i hope I got it right)... We took a few photos and most of it is in Cik Pah's and Sarah's digicam and SLR....How good if all of us can often meet like this...And we just realize that all of us has been friends for the past 13 years...My God... And this prove that we're getting older each day..Ppfftt..Well, one day we'll look and enjoy the moments that we had together..You now what, despite of every arguments, tears, laughters, craziness and every little things that we said to each other, never a moment I regret knowing the friends that I have back in Secondary school...These are the bunch of people who really stood by me even though my own world look 'ugly' at times... They too never once judge me of the mistakes I made in my life...They supported until I changed to what I am now...They listen to my nagging even though it's 3am in the morning...

what makes a life complete and what is moderate lifestyle???

picture was taken during lunch last weekend

A people that values its privileges above its principles soon loses both.

~Dwight D. Eisenhower

Definitely some post to think about after you have read..I did...Ever wondering what makes one's life complete?? A big car? Tonnes of cash?? Married to a good husband?? A big house?? Well,one thing for sure, every one has their own definition of 'complete life'..To me?? I'm indefinite seriously...This topic was brought up because of some post that I've seen on the web.. Won't mention where (sensitive case:-) )...Some just feel satisfied after they've own a house, married to someone, 2 kids and a car, but is that enough or a 'complete' life requires more than that?? As a human created by The Almighty, we will never be satisfied with what we have. Not to forget myself as well...Everyone says live in moderation but I don't really see that concept implemented in today's society...Today's so called 'moderate' lifestyle is having a big car, a big bungalow, a high post, branded stuffs from head to toe....Weird isn't it??? And people would kill each other just to live up to that standard...Ada yang sanggup ikat perut..Bak kata setengah orang ' biar bergaya asal papa'. Pelik kan...

Not just that, ada setengah manusia bukannya kaya pun tapi berlagak lebih...That sounds familiar to me coz I met that type of 'person' before and it was a bad mistakep:-p... Well, people will always assume many things but the wise one will understand well...