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Anyway, weekend was fun. Me and boyfriends watched Transformers last Saturday and it was so awesome. It is worth watching twice. Boyfriend did mentioned about watching it for the second time. Human traffic are so conjested!!! You won't believe it. Boyfriend bought Premiere class and it was so sweet. We bought it one week earlier and it was powerfulllllll!!!. It was actions from the beginning till the end and I concerntrated throughout the movie. It was filled with humor as well.

Someone IMed me and told me that there are ants on his chair...He's is so lame.OMG. I can't believe it. So I went over his cube and I see nothing. Maybe because the ants got frighten by his attitude. He looked like a nerd and awful. And when I said he can call CS, he said what is he supposed to do by then, keep the ants with him. Look on how rude and annoying he sounded. I felt like slapping his face off his computer.

Laughing out loud

I was watching Friends and half way through I was laughing. Damn la. I'm thinking of buying a red dress or any stricking color dress. Anyway, I'm boring. Very boring.

I got this pic from some webpage. Kinda like this dress. Pair it with a clincher. Thought of finding something like this.

Not much story today as you can see, it's raining a few minutes ago. Took this picture in Level 3 at my office. Coincidently I was in Level 3 to check the condition of the cubes for restoration purpose. It used to be empty. Jessie's in PG12 for meetings and training. What meeting??I'm not sure. Intelians always have meetings. Craps...Boring...

Anyway, I called daddy this morning, he said Uncle Sim and Auntie Jennifer are coming for a holiday next week. They'll be spending the next few days at my place(Perlis). So daddy asked me to meet them at Penang Airport as courtesy. They're my family's close friends since before I was born. They were mummy friends in Singapore. Very close friends.I can't recall when was the last time we met but I remembered it was in Singapore, previous Hari Raya. Damn,it was way back. I'm kind of excited to meet them actually.

Random pictures taken from last week

seeing their faces is like having to swallow poison

I'm back in the office after 3 days of holiday. I feel so lazy. the Boyfriend is on leave. When I woke up this morning, I was thinking, why can't I be Billgate's kids.Not having to go to work or maybe I'll be working with him in his company. So that I don't have to deal with the lower rank employee like what I have to deal at the moment. Fussy and annoying. That is the only 2 words I can describe about them. No motivation at all to even open my eyes every morning. Boring job but I have no choice. I asked the boyfriend to post the customer's items just now. He did it. Wow...Audy called me regarding his insurance thing. I said I agreed.

Nothing much happen for the past few days except the part when I actually mistakenly taken the Boyfriend's house key back to my hometown. Damn..He'd have to drive back all the way from Penang to take it. He was piss off...I'm so sorry, B.

I feel extremely moody today and I don't know why. Maybe because I know that I would have to see those mooroons face. Pathetic...

There are a few things that I would want to achieve in 2009/10 :

1. To further expand my online business
2. To have more savings
3. To cut short on shopping( which sounds impossible, but I'll try)
4. To be a better daughter, sister and girlfriend
5. To go for my Masters'
6. To get a better job that requires me to apply what I've learnt in my study years

Everything sounds achievable but knowing someone like me, it will take a little extra effort to achieve it.

Winners take time to relish their work, knowing that scaling the mountain is what makes the view from the top so exhilarating.

Denis Waitley

I don't have the mood to work right now. I feel very bored and I don't think that I'm practising what I've learnt in my university years. I'm very sad, not exactly that sad la but I were to study hard last time, I would have been in my final years by now in pursuing medicine. I kept remisnicing the past when I was doing my A-Levels.Looking at my sis excel in her academic and curiculum made me a little bit of envy. Thinking why can't I be in her position. I still remembered, when I got my result back in 2003, I cried and wouldn't want to go out to celebrate. I was ashame of my result compared to my other class mates. But daddy advised me to go for finance and find an affordable college that suits me. Therefore, I ended up in UNITAR (where I met my best friend, Kamini). We've been together since first year of uni. It was hard at first as seeing all my friends had the offer to study science while I'm the only one end up in art streme. I remembered crying almost everyday due to the regrets I had in me. I'll call my best friend and pour my heart out. Luckily she's not sick and tired of listening to my complains. There, I met Kamini She knew that I was a slow learner. She taught me everything step by step. She'll scold me when ever I'm absent from classes. We do group study almost everyday in campus or her house. It was the best years. If I were to rewind back, I would love that and never regret.

Now, everyone has their own life, some work in bank, hotel, tax company and etc. I'm proud of myself now as I've achieved what I thought I could never got. Even it means different from what I dreamt when I was a little school girl. Evrything happen for a reason. For my case, I learnt the hard way...

I'm going home

The writer is back at her hometown.

Everything is green and fresh.

Updates soon.

something reminds me

Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.

Henry Van Dyke

Dear blog,

Today's story would be about someone and people who changed my life in many ways. Imagine how can a person change you life from good to bad or bad to good. They're humans like us. Amazingly, God created creatures with feelings and capabilities to think and do stuffs. Not many of us actually grateful on that. We tend to take advantage on the small things that slip through our eyes until the day when we realise, it's too late and there's no turning back. I had a few rough times for the past few days that make me very down and full of anger. Kind of. I worked in an environment where people are being paid high and their job are basically sitting on the chair, talking on the phone, looking at the PCs. Creating a whole new thing that the company believe could change the world. I'm basically doing the odd or cleaning up their 'shit'. No shame to tell.These people never knew that people like me do exist and people like me has help a lot in bringing up the company. Without people like me, all the small things like collecting newspaper, ordering lunch and dinner for them, attending to their nonsense, craps and etc, or having to listen to their complains(everyday!!!). It is sick. I'm not trying to complain but just to flip the facts. At the end of your contract, they'll do a small fairwell party for you. Saying that they'll miss you and what so ever.

When I took over a girl's job back in April'09. I attended her fairwell lunch. Held in the biggest conference room in my office. I did not feel sick when looking at those faces. But after having to stand on my own, I couldn't even stand by just hearing their voices. It actually make me feel disgusted. Honestly... The people took and still taking advantage on people like me. They set in their mind that they'r are the bosses while people like me has nothing to be qualified of. They don't know that...

I msged my senior that I might be late to work as working hours here are quite flexible...For some:-). And she replied by aksing why I'll be late. I said I overslept. When I reach work, she instant messaged me saying that my supervisor asked why I'm late. I'm just trying to be really honest. But the Boyfriend said, honesty will never bring you further. How far is honesty importance in today's living style??

Well, I've leartn many lesson for the past many years, but sometimes we keep repeating the same bloody mistakes.But why?? Even though the previous mistakes smacked us right in front of our face. Even myself. I don't deny that.

But I believe, human will never ever apprecaite what's good in their life until dreadful things comes to you. Then all the memories of the good things will swift before your eyes.

Hell nooooo....

'How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.'

Annie Dillard

Anyway peeps. I remembered watching Drag Me To Hell last Saturday. It was a mvie make your bump jumping on the cinema seats as the movie fill with surprises and suspense through out. 3 stars I give. For those who has heart attack, better not as you'll spending your last moment dying in the cinema even if it just started.

I think many of us could still remember this cologne which Tommy produced many years back. Well, I'm currently using it only when I go to work. It doesn't last long actually. I have another one that I seldom spray. I can't find the picture. It's pink in color. My favourite color. Bought it years back but the bottle is not even 1/4.

Aaahhh... Remeber the old school perfume. Very strong smell and it stick to you like a glue. I don't relaly like it but it still finishes.

Its Monday..

Well, it is Monday..starting of the week. Where everyone's not into it... Went for movie yesterday

Blood: The Last Vampire.

The movie was ok. For those who loves Manga shouold watch this blood sucker movie. The heroin was a cute young girl by physical appearance(she's actuallya 400-year-old demon-hunting vampire slayer). Kinda hotfor a 400-years old girl. Can I be a vampire....?hahahha.

Skip the story, I went back at &pm last Friday.Pathetic...All because a greedy pig boss. Last minute job given to me. What can I say. He's the boss. Selfish and fussy.I hate him. With Jessie's absent, I felt everything is so hard as the responsiblitilies are great. Imagine if I were a CFO in a big MNC company, guess I'll crack in stress. But because this is a last minute job, I blamed them. Not that I can't do but I've never done it before. Emailed me without proper instruction. But when I replied, it's always delayed but he put it as priority. Damn it... Don't wanna loose my mood because of this.

It's Friday...weekend's tommorow!!!

I was excited yesterday. I opened my mailbox hoping that the clincher that I bought arrive and to my wish, it did. I was happy. I opened it up before reaching at my doorstep...So no-patience..haha..I ordered black. It fits me well. I can't wait to wear it tommorow for an outing with the boyfriend..So that night, I showed the boyfriend what is clincher...And he goes 'I don't know what is that la'. I laughed....hahahaha...

Daisy clincher.I ordered black color. Courtesy of

http://thekookything.blogspot.com/

I loved it so much!!!. Anyway, went out for lunch with the Boyfriend as we have 2 hours break today. Went for Tomyam fried rice...mmmmm...delicious. So now it makes me sleepy plus air conditioner. Very fullfiling... Anyway, today is quite a bit lame and down for me.

Daddy's day out

I'm quite happy today. Why??? Because daddy come to visit me on his way back from Trengganu to send grandma back. We had dinner at Dave's Deli (which is his all time fav). He reached Penang at about 8p.m. He looked so tired and haggard due to the long drive alone. Especially after an arguement with mummy the day before. Well, we chat after dinner and walked around. He wanted to go Borders. So I brought him there. It was around 15 minutes before closing time but he managed to read some books that captured his attention. While he was reading. I looked him from far. I remember when I was small, he used to bring me to book store. He said reading is good for me. The interest is in me until today. I rather lucky that I have a boyfriend that has similar interest(reading) with me even though we have so much differences in us except the gossiping part...hahah. I felt so happy even though we only managed to meet each other for one night.

I'm watching Friends at the moment as I don't know what to watch on YouTube. i have 2 feelings at the moment. Happy because I could see daddy and sad because the meeting period was short.

The family feels different and I don't know why. But sometimes maybe because everyone has their own thing to do that makes us sometimes forget the small things that family do.

I feel lucky to have both parents and a sister. Minus the fight that I had with the little ones. Apart from that, nothing to complain. Anyway, these are some things I got from

http://thechiccas.blogspot.com/

How To Survive A Break-Up

1)MIND SET - Girls,set up your mind.You're in control of your life now.No need be sad of feeling lonely.That won't change a thing if you're still in your room crying.Just say to yourself, I am young and free and pretty.I don't need that stupid jerk in my life.I love myself.And all my friends loves me.Hey,there're lotsa fishes out there in the sea!
*you may change that sentence a bit:P

2)THROW IT ALL OFF - If you have his stuff with you right now, quick, take them and throw it all away.But if you really like those stuff and it seems that your hands just couldn't pick 'em up and put it in the dust bin, make sure you keep it safe off sight. Make sure ok! That may help you ease the pain a bit. Don't let those stuff reminds you of him.

3)FAVOURITE THINGS - Do something that you love. Don't be so hard on yourself.Just do it. If you love reading story books, go and buy more books (for Malaysian,there's a book fair @ PWTC right now...it'll end on this Sun,26th April 09 ~ save save save!),if you still love barbie dolls, go and buy it!(so what,it's your life!),if you love doing sporty activities go and getcha head in the world of extreme.Join Rakan Muda or clubs in your school/uni, if you love writing,go and write!Why wait,write it all out and set your heart free...plus,how about write a song...who knows one day u can be a song writer?? The most common thing here is, go shopping!Hang out with your girlfriends and have some fun partying!

4)START FROM SCRATCH - Plan a new life babes.There's more to life than loving the guy who had been hurting you.See,it's all in the game.We live,we love,we hurt,we fall,we fight,we stand,we win,we love. What goes around comes around...life's a circle...karma baby!

5)LOVE YOURSELF FIRST - If you think you really need a man in your life, remember; they are the one who actually needs us (the women!!) in their life. Without us,who are they eh?:P Well if you think you want to start a new relationship,it's not wrong,but becareful; make sure you're ready and don't make the same mistakes twice.

6)SING OUT LOUD!! - I mean, real loud!!!Just let it go!Jump if you have to! *But for those who's living in an apartment..hehe..don't be too noisy ok.Be considerate. Sing whatever that makes you feel more alive like "Since you've been gone by Kelly Clarkson or Better in time by Leona Lewis"..Let your hair loose girls,not your head(keep that in mind will ya?)
SEE,IT WILL ALL BE OK AND ALRIGHT!

cat and dog fight

Well, mummy called me yesterday and asked me to call daddy. So I asked why..? She said, she and daddy got into an arguement and daddy decided to send grandma back to Trengganu to ease the tension. It's been many times they had this sort of arguement everytime grandma is here. She's sick, I know...But instead of letting her rot alone back in Trengganu, its better to take care of her. But mummy's too perfect, she want everything perfect...

The family is on heat, bad heat. It never happen before...I'm seldom at home and I do feel guilty for not being there to help them. I'm in the middle of the crossroad....Nobody understand the family more than I do. It is easy to say 'Don't get too emotional, nothing can settle even if you cry'.

I'm far from the family, the last things I want to hear, people who don't know how to comfort. Family is a big thing for me. I wouldn't want my family to go their own separate ways because of me....after 27 years of marriage I'm trying to be as strong as I can because daddy taught her daughters how to be strong in any situation...

Family quarrels are bitter things.They don't go by any rules.They're not like aches or wounds; they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal ...
F. Scott Fitzgerald

Anyway, skip that sad sorry. I don't want to think about it at the moment. I had a dream yesterday about my horrible ex-bf. Idreamt of him coming back to me. Well, even if it happen, I'm prepared for the worst. I'm no longger the little kitty that would run away whenever a human stomp his feet. The past has taught me a lot about life on how to connect with people, how to respect people, how to maximize my financial stability but I failed at controlling my emotions when it comes to family. I love my family and my boyfriend a lot.

Good Morning Tuesday

Hhmm.I'm on blues after 3 days of holiday. So damn lazy to come to work. been hanging out with the boyfriend for a couple of day. Daddy and mummy got into an arguement back at home as sis messaged me through her phone. I bought wedges from Vincci. Red in color. Reminds me of Eyna......

Comfortable but because it's new and because I can't remember when was the last I wore heels..I did spring cleaning at my house store and I think there are few shoes that I don't remember buying them.. Actually the Boyfriend bought for me....hahaha...sadly he can't remember buying it for me as well....Bad shit...

We watched Terminator...for the 2nd time yesterday. As usual, I slept off in the mid of the movie. Boring la....before movie we went for ice-cream at Baskin Robbin.

This is what we looked like as we indulge into our ice-cream...I took Cotton Candy flavour and he took chocolate something( can't remember the name).The night before, we went and chill at Sega's in UPR...You know what, it was empty!!!. We drank and then went for maggi goreng. As usual, the boyfriend shit the next morning. While we were at Sega's, the boyfrind was reading newspaper and I got boring and this is what I did...We watched Hanna Montana: The Movie which make me drag The Boyfriend along even he was hesitate to watch at the first attempt. But for the sake of love...he agreed at last. It's a movie you should watch. I cried half way, the part when Miley sang along with his dad...So sweet..The cinema was not full house, surprising ly. It was Saturday, I guess so...

shoe; Giselle Bundchen skirt; Topshop Petite(it's actually a tube:-) ), Top; Ladies singlet from F.O.S

summons and polica station

Well, went to the police station near my house to pay for G's parking summons...Total RM60. We reached there early but as usual, Friday, it stated at the counter 'offline'. Either its server down or offline as in close temporary until 2.45!!!! So we decided to have lunch and walked around Gurney Plaza....hahah...That's the advantage of Intellers....We took off at about 2.30 and when we reach there, people were queueing up. Not long...But that aslo causes me to reach back at work almost 4pm....phewww...
Not much to write today as I was seriously busy for the whole...People keep IM me non-stop...
Rushing up and down the stairs...Tired....

Today is the last day of working....I'm looking forward to it...

paddy fields and honey manggo

Well, I took leave yesterday to settle my FD thingy and have to go back to my hometown to withdraw. What a hassle... Anyway, when we were on our way back, we bought 'Mangga Madu" which are the Boyfriend favourite.. 1 kg for RM5...for me its reasonable but for craving sake, we don't care. Its kinda nice trip but The Boyfriend keep on mumbling on how he'll commit suicide if he ever have to stay in Perlis and complaining on how I drove the car...Men...are just complainers....they think cars are their play toy...Its not something worth to invest on...Drop the topic...I'll get heart attack....

I browsed through Lisa Lee's FB and amazingly shock that she's married...ooo how time flies fast...I still remember when we were in the same class in piano...that was fun...Everyone's getting married or already married, and I wonder when is it my turn...no plans for the time being..

Sometimes, at the back of my mind, marriage is something nice and something forever. I want it simple but meaningful...Wedding by the beach, attended by parents of both side, close friends...my best friends hasto be there...make it private....lavender theme..but it feels like I have tonnes of things I want to do with my life first...It's nice to see, white wedding gown, platinum ring with 1 diamond encrusted on it...It does blew me away...But I asked myself, am I ready for that??...noooooooo....creepy...

Dance fever and the perfect boyfriend, nothing could go better

I'm watching Suntec Dance 2007, Singapore. It was amazing. Very young talents and fresh performance. It reminded me of those time when I used to follow my cousin for her dance practise down in youtPark, Orchard Road. Everyday...It was fun. After practise, we'll head to McDonald, grab a pizza or a fast food outlet which I forgot the name( they served seafood platters, delicious. they have it in KL). Anyway, as I was watching these videos in YouTube, I miss the life in Singapore. Night life with the cousins. Everyone has grown up now. They are no longer the kids that we used to bully...Time flies very fast...

One of them is getting married end of this year...We were extremely close despite of all the arguments we had. We used to bathe together, ran away from home together(there's nothing to do with me, was just eager to do what she does..hahah). Skip that awful story. when we were small, we used to go Sentosa...aarrgghh... a must-place to visit when you're in Singapore. We ate ice-cream and act foolishly. We were kids back then....Its normal...Thats what normal kids do, okay....

Ooo Ya, I remembered, its Long John Silver. Sorry me, I'm very forgetful...

Just had my lunch, a sardine, potato and some clams....what a lunch...Not many choice over here...

I spend some time with The Boyfriend. And for once, i thought..Will I ever get someone like him again??a guy like him never exist on this planet Earth anymore, you know... A guy that sees you picking your nose, scratching your butt, don't mind you wearing pyjama to movie....There was once I dreamt of having the most perfect boyfriend but I never knew I could get one now even though he's not perfect...Hei, no one's perfect,okay....

I had a rough relationship previously. Something I wouldn't want to recall or remember having one. It was a waste of money, time and everything. It haunts me everytime. I want to delete it from my memory, if possible. But I was lucky that I met The Boyfriend in time when I was in those hard times...Never had regrets..

We can forget and put the past behind, if we want to...

whenever I remember

'We never know the love of the parent until we become parents ourselves.'

Inspirational Quotes on Mothers Day by: Henry Ward Beecher

Well, I'm back in Penang yesterday. Called up my best friend's boyfriend(Alla has a bf..at last) on plans for Hari Raya Puasa. Well, its like 3 months away and everything has to be well plan. Chit chat a little bit with daddy yesterday. It feels like ages since me, adik and daddy can have a good chat. We giggle, played piano while Dianah pluck her guitar to the song of I Will Be by Leona Lewis and Just A Dream by Carrie Underwood... it was fun since the very last time I played on the piano. Adik is getting better and her piano in June 15th. Wish her best of luck. I remembered when I was like the age of 4, mummy would pick me up from school, piggy back me and walked for miles until we reach my music center. My mum would cook food worry that I might go hungry. She'll stay with until the end of my lesson. To be honest, I lead a very low life when I was small but my parents worked to their bones to give me the best in almost everything. They tried and I can say that they are the people that I should be proud despite of what the family have gone through all these years. It was painful. Daddy struggled so hard to give whatever he can for the family. Being away from the family and not being able to be there on special ocassion is not something that people would want but he sacrifised all that for the sake of his family's comfort. Birthday wishes through the phone calls and cards from the family has been a norm for him.

In his heart, I knew that the only birthday gift that he ever wanted was to be with the family again. Going for breakfast on weekend, family holiday and so on. I never believed when people say, their parent don't care about them. Parents have a very odd ways of showing how much they love you. They are not good in putting it into words but I can bet you, they're good in showing it through actions. Even though they never say' I love you' for as long as you remember living with them, that does not mean they don't care about you. Whenever my parents scolded me back in time, I always though that I might be a foster child but it all change after I moved to Penang for my studies. After being far away from the family, I soon realised that I missed them everyday. When I was still in my hometown, always hoping that I can stay on my own. The advantages of having a father that works in oversea is, you got the chance to travel and it made me think how lucky I am compared to those people who does not even know who their parents are as being away in Foster House since birth. Some begging for food and money just live a day.

We'll never appreciate what we have until we lose it.....