It's Friday...weekend's tommorow!!!

I was excited yesterday. I opened my mailbox hoping that the clincher that I bought arrive and to my wish, it did. I was happy. I opened it up before reaching at my doorstep...So no-patience..haha..I ordered black. It fits me well. I can't wait to wear it tommorow for an outing with the boyfriend..So that night, I showed the boyfriend what is clincher...And he goes 'I don't know what is that la'. I laughed....hahahaha...

Daisy clincher.I ordered black color. Courtesy of

http://thekookything.blogspot.com/

I loved it so much!!!. Anyway, went out for lunch with the Boyfriend as we have 2 hours break today. Went for Tomyam fried rice...mmmmm...delicious. So now it makes me sleepy plus air conditioner. Very fullfiling... Anyway, today is quite a bit lame and down for me.

Daddy's day out

I'm quite happy today. Why??? Because daddy come to visit me on his way back from Trengganu to send grandma back. We had dinner at Dave's Deli (which is his all time fav). He reached Penang at about 8p.m. He looked so tired and haggard due to the long drive alone. Especially after an arguement with mummy the day before. Well, we chat after dinner and walked around. He wanted to go Borders. So I brought him there. It was around 15 minutes before closing time but he managed to read some books that captured his attention. While he was reading. I looked him from far. I remember when I was small, he used to bring me to book store. He said reading is good for me. The interest is in me until today. I rather lucky that I have a boyfriend that has similar interest(reading) with me even though we have so much differences in us except the gossiping part...hahah. I felt so happy even though we only managed to meet each other for one night.

I'm watching Friends at the moment as I don't know what to watch on YouTube. i have 2 feelings at the moment. Happy because I could see daddy and sad because the meeting period was short.

The family feels different and I don't know why. But sometimes maybe because everyone has their own thing to do that makes us sometimes forget the small things that family do.

I feel lucky to have both parents and a sister. Minus the fight that I had with the little ones. Apart from that, nothing to complain. Anyway, these are some things I got from

http://thechiccas.blogspot.com/

How To Survive A Break-Up

1)MIND SET - Girls,set up your mind.You're in control of your life now.No need be sad of feeling lonely.That won't change a thing if you're still in your room crying.Just say to yourself, I am young and free and pretty.I don't need that stupid jerk in my life.I love myself.And all my friends loves me.Hey,there're lotsa fishes out there in the sea!
*you may change that sentence a bit:P

2)THROW IT ALL OFF - If you have his stuff with you right now, quick, take them and throw it all away.But if you really like those stuff and it seems that your hands just couldn't pick 'em up and put it in the dust bin, make sure you keep it safe off sight. Make sure ok! That may help you ease the pain a bit. Don't let those stuff reminds you of him.

3)FAVOURITE THINGS - Do something that you love. Don't be so hard on yourself.Just do it. If you love reading story books, go and buy more books (for Malaysian,there's a book fair @ PWTC right now...it'll end on this Sun,26th April 09 ~ save save save!),if you still love barbie dolls, go and buy it!(so what,it's your life!),if you love doing sporty activities go and getcha head in the world of extreme.Join Rakan Muda or clubs in your school/uni, if you love writing,go and write!Why wait,write it all out and set your heart free...plus,how about write a song...who knows one day u can be a song writer?? The most common thing here is, go shopping!Hang out with your girlfriends and have some fun partying!

4)START FROM SCRATCH - Plan a new life babes.There's more to life than loving the guy who had been hurting you.See,it's all in the game.We live,we love,we hurt,we fall,we fight,we stand,we win,we love. What goes around comes around...life's a circle...karma baby!

5)LOVE YOURSELF FIRST - If you think you really need a man in your life, remember; they are the one who actually needs us (the women!!) in their life. Without us,who are they eh?:P Well if you think you want to start a new relationship,it's not wrong,but becareful; make sure you're ready and don't make the same mistakes twice.

6)SING OUT LOUD!! - I mean, real loud!!!Just let it go!Jump if you have to! *But for those who's living in an apartment..hehe..don't be too noisy ok.Be considerate. Sing whatever that makes you feel more alive like "Since you've been gone by Kelly Clarkson or Better in time by Leona Lewis"..Let your hair loose girls,not your head(keep that in mind will ya?)
SEE,IT WILL ALL BE OK AND ALRIGHT!

cat and dog fight

Well, mummy called me yesterday and asked me to call daddy. So I asked why..? She said, she and daddy got into an arguement and daddy decided to send grandma back to Trengganu to ease the tension. It's been many times they had this sort of arguement everytime grandma is here. She's sick, I know...But instead of letting her rot alone back in Trengganu, its better to take care of her. But mummy's too perfect, she want everything perfect...

The family is on heat, bad heat. It never happen before...I'm seldom at home and I do feel guilty for not being there to help them. I'm in the middle of the crossroad....Nobody understand the family more than I do. It is easy to say 'Don't get too emotional, nothing can settle even if you cry'.

I'm far from the family, the last things I want to hear, people who don't know how to comfort. Family is a big thing for me. I wouldn't want my family to go their own separate ways because of me....after 27 years of marriage I'm trying to be as strong as I can because daddy taught her daughters how to be strong in any situation...

Family quarrels are bitter things.They don't go by any rules.They're not like aches or wounds; they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal ...
F. Scott Fitzgerald

Anyway, skip that sad sorry. I don't want to think about it at the moment. I had a dream yesterday about my horrible ex-bf. Idreamt of him coming back to me. Well, even if it happen, I'm prepared for the worst. I'm no longger the little kitty that would run away whenever a human stomp his feet. The past has taught me a lot about life on how to connect with people, how to respect people, how to maximize my financial stability but I failed at controlling my emotions when it comes to family. I love my family and my boyfriend a lot.

Good Morning Tuesday

Hhmm.I'm on blues after 3 days of holiday. So damn lazy to come to work. been hanging out with the boyfriend for a couple of day. Daddy and mummy got into an arguement back at home as sis messaged me through her phone. I bought wedges from Vincci. Red in color. Reminds me of Eyna......

Comfortable but because it's new and because I can't remember when was the last I wore heels..I did spring cleaning at my house store and I think there are few shoes that I don't remember buying them.. Actually the Boyfriend bought for me....hahaha...sadly he can't remember buying it for me as well....Bad shit...

We watched Terminator...for the 2nd time yesterday. As usual, I slept off in the mid of the movie. Boring la....before movie we went for ice-cream at Baskin Robbin.

This is what we looked like as we indulge into our ice-cream...I took Cotton Candy flavour and he took chocolate something( can't remember the name).The night before, we went and chill at Sega's in UPR...You know what, it was empty!!!. We drank and then went for maggi goreng. As usual, the boyfriend shit the next morning. While we were at Sega's, the boyfrind was reading newspaper and I got boring and this is what I did...We watched Hanna Montana: The Movie which make me drag The Boyfriend along even he was hesitate to watch at the first attempt. But for the sake of love...he agreed at last. It's a movie you should watch. I cried half way, the part when Miley sang along with his dad...So sweet..The cinema was not full house, surprising ly. It was Saturday, I guess so...

shoe; Giselle Bundchen skirt; Topshop Petite(it's actually a tube:-) ), Top; Ladies singlet from F.O.S

summons and polica station

Well, went to the police station near my house to pay for G's parking summons...Total RM60. We reached there early but as usual, Friday, it stated at the counter 'offline'. Either its server down or offline as in close temporary until 2.45!!!! So we decided to have lunch and walked around Gurney Plaza....hahah...That's the advantage of Intellers....We took off at about 2.30 and when we reach there, people were queueing up. Not long...But that aslo causes me to reach back at work almost 4pm....phewww...
Not much to write today as I was seriously busy for the whole...People keep IM me non-stop...
Rushing up and down the stairs...Tired....

Today is the last day of working....I'm looking forward to it...

paddy fields and honey manggo

Well, I took leave yesterday to settle my FD thingy and have to go back to my hometown to withdraw. What a hassle... Anyway, when we were on our way back, we bought 'Mangga Madu" which are the Boyfriend favourite.. 1 kg for RM5...for me its reasonable but for craving sake, we don't care. Its kinda nice trip but The Boyfriend keep on mumbling on how he'll commit suicide if he ever have to stay in Perlis and complaining on how I drove the car...Men...are just complainers....they think cars are their play toy...Its not something worth to invest on...Drop the topic...I'll get heart attack....

I browsed through Lisa Lee's FB and amazingly shock that she's married...ooo how time flies fast...I still remember when we were in the same class in piano...that was fun...Everyone's getting married or already married, and I wonder when is it my turn...no plans for the time being..

Sometimes, at the back of my mind, marriage is something nice and something forever. I want it simple but meaningful...Wedding by the beach, attended by parents of both side, close friends...my best friends hasto be there...make it private....lavender theme..but it feels like I have tonnes of things I want to do with my life first...It's nice to see, white wedding gown, platinum ring with 1 diamond encrusted on it...It does blew me away...But I asked myself, am I ready for that??...noooooooo....creepy...

Dance fever and the perfect boyfriend, nothing could go better

I'm watching Suntec Dance 2007, Singapore. It was amazing. Very young talents and fresh performance. It reminded me of those time when I used to follow my cousin for her dance practise down in youtPark, Orchard Road. Everyday...It was fun. After practise, we'll head to McDonald, grab a pizza or a fast food outlet which I forgot the name( they served seafood platters, delicious. they have it in KL). Anyway, as I was watching these videos in YouTube, I miss the life in Singapore. Night life with the cousins. Everyone has grown up now. They are no longer the kids that we used to bully...Time flies very fast...

One of them is getting married end of this year...We were extremely close despite of all the arguments we had. We used to bathe together, ran away from home together(there's nothing to do with me, was just eager to do what she does..hahah). Skip that awful story. when we were small, we used to go Sentosa...aarrgghh... a must-place to visit when you're in Singapore. We ate ice-cream and act foolishly. We were kids back then....Its normal...Thats what normal kids do, okay....

Ooo Ya, I remembered, its Long John Silver. Sorry me, I'm very forgetful...

Just had my lunch, a sardine, potato and some clams....what a lunch...Not many choice over here...

I spend some time with The Boyfriend. And for once, i thought..Will I ever get someone like him again??a guy like him never exist on this planet Earth anymore, you know... A guy that sees you picking your nose, scratching your butt, don't mind you wearing pyjama to movie....There was once I dreamt of having the most perfect boyfriend but I never knew I could get one now even though he's not perfect...Hei, no one's perfect,okay....

I had a rough relationship previously. Something I wouldn't want to recall or remember having one. It was a waste of money, time and everything. It haunts me everytime. I want to delete it from my memory, if possible. But I was lucky that I met The Boyfriend in time when I was in those hard times...Never had regrets..

We can forget and put the past behind, if we want to...

whenever I remember

'We never know the love of the parent until we become parents ourselves.'

Inspirational Quotes on Mothers Day by: Henry Ward Beecher

Well, I'm back in Penang yesterday. Called up my best friend's boyfriend(Alla has a bf..at last) on plans for Hari Raya Puasa. Well, its like 3 months away and everything has to be well plan. Chit chat a little bit with daddy yesterday. It feels like ages since me, adik and daddy can have a good chat. We giggle, played piano while Dianah pluck her guitar to the song of I Will Be by Leona Lewis and Just A Dream by Carrie Underwood... it was fun since the very last time I played on the piano. Adik is getting better and her piano in June 15th. Wish her best of luck. I remembered when I was like the age of 4, mummy would pick me up from school, piggy back me and walked for miles until we reach my music center. My mum would cook food worry that I might go hungry. She'll stay with until the end of my lesson. To be honest, I lead a very low life when I was small but my parents worked to their bones to give me the best in almost everything. They tried and I can say that they are the people that I should be proud despite of what the family have gone through all these years. It was painful. Daddy struggled so hard to give whatever he can for the family. Being away from the family and not being able to be there on special ocassion is not something that people would want but he sacrifised all that for the sake of his family's comfort. Birthday wishes through the phone calls and cards from the family has been a norm for him.

In his heart, I knew that the only birthday gift that he ever wanted was to be with the family again. Going for breakfast on weekend, family holiday and so on. I never believed when people say, their parent don't care about them. Parents have a very odd ways of showing how much they love you. They are not good in putting it into words but I can bet you, they're good in showing it through actions. Even though they never say' I love you' for as long as you remember living with them, that does not mean they don't care about you. Whenever my parents scolded me back in time, I always though that I might be a foster child but it all change after I moved to Penang for my studies. After being far away from the family, I soon realised that I missed them everyday. When I was still in my hometown, always hoping that I can stay on my own. The advantages of having a father that works in oversea is, you got the chance to travel and it made me think how lucky I am compared to those people who does not even know who their parents are as being away in Foster House since birth. Some begging for food and money just live a day.

We'll never appreciate what we have until we lose it.....

home sweet home

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship--never --

Charles Caleb Colton

I'm browsing through Kerry's blog page and it looked colorful. It made me thought of those good old days that I used to have with my besties back in high school...xoxo...I remembered back in Secondary 5...we had extra classes...which is a compulsory thing for SPM candidates...3pm to 5pm...after class, we would have so-called tea in one of the makcik's stall next to my school. Ice-kacang, gado-gado and etc...We'll whack like no one ever notice and go back with full stomach and my mum would nagged coz she cooked but I ate out...hahah
Life was endlesless for me and the rest................
Then, after Secondary 5, everyone chose our own way. Some got married(with 2 kids now!), some still studying, some dunno what, some planned to get married by this year and some got engaged...Anyway, we still meet each other like, once a year. during Hari Raya Puasa. We'll plan 2 months ahead on how to organise the reunion and when the day comes, we'll talk for hours, updating each other and best of all gossiping...hahahha...Tha's what most girls do...

This is a sneak pic of part of the family pic when my family was on the way to Kuala Trengganu for Chinese New Year. Not many pics to upload..Sorry

Anyway, will be updating tommorow as I'll be back in office....Talking about work...Damn...why can't I be a student for the rest of my life???...

Quote for today

'You cannot dream yourself into a character: you must hammer and forge yourself into one.'

Henry D. Thoreau

Well, I called my bestfriend, Alla yesterday(she's in KL and I miss her) and we were talking on the phone like no one's business. We were talking about my boyfriend, old school mates, how we used to crank the school and not to forget teachers, Teacher Norlida..haha...After putting down the phone, I thought of Nasreen, haha, the only student all the way from KL. We used to hang out at her house, thrashing her room, lepak in town with the rest of the girls( what do you expect to have in Perlis or I won't be in Penang...dowh). It was way back in Secondary 3...I guess. She'll write letters to me with different colors of ink and I'll reply back to her and so on. It never end..FYI, her class is just down stairs...And not to mention that she's the one who first created an email account under hotmail ( hotmail was an-in that time)for me..I still remember the account, adleenaluvvy84@hotmail.com...

Then, the both of us will be hanging out in cyber cafe(can't remember what its called). And there where she met her 'cinta monyet' boyfriend. I can't remember his name actually or how he looked like.Nevermind. We'll be gossiping in school. My Add Maths teacher will be teaching in class and I'll be sleeping. And when she noticed, she'll asked me to figure out answers for her question and as usual I'll looked damn blur...So shamed..

Skip the story, puasa is like 3 months more. I can't wait to get my hands on 'duit raya'. Normally, if my uncle or aunt ask me whether I'm still studying or working,I'll say...'Takdelah, baru je abis belajar'. Maut punyer answer. Tipu sunat je...hahah. But they believe that. For years I've been giving that answer.Nevermind.

shoe; Vincci flat, belt: Boon Lay MRT station, S'pore($S10!!), shirt; MNG

Today is the last day of the week and I'm very looking forward to it. I've been counting days to the weekend since Monday. Hei, its normal ok to do that. Evryone does that...Who would want to work 7 days a week. That's crazy unless you're superhuman or something. I ate KFC for lunch.Lame.I know but why not if you have a RM20 free coupons...Take advantage of it. Thats what I like working in Intel..Hahahah. Anyway, I'll be watching Terminator later tonite at 9.40pm. Hope its good and worth queueing up for hours last few days which ended me and The Boyfriend having dinner in A&W....which supposedly having sandwich at home. The Boyfriend is on strict diet....No shame to tell.

Yesterday's dinner is today's hunger...

Yesterday, went for dinner at A&W, Gurney Plaza. Its wasn't a plan to go for dinner outside at the first place. We were supposed to buy movie ticket for Terminator Salvation only but as usual we routed our journey to where we wasn't supposed to go... I planned to make sandwich for dinner. 3 stack sandwich with beef burger and chicken slice, mayonnaise and chilli sauce but....you know.

This picture was taken when I was in the loo. My boyfriend is queueing up to buy food. I had a sudden stomachache. So invested in waste management. Its in Gurney Plaza new wing toilet. Malaysia toilets are known to be dirty, filthy, stinks but this one, for me, I can only sit like 15 minutes, max...they're still not up to the hygiene standard.Lightings are nice for this pic.I think.I wrote some 'late' resolution for 2009.I know, I know.Should write it earlier. Well, you know, when money problem comes into the scene, that is when my resolution starts...

1. Cut down on my shopping.
2. Cut down on unecessary spending
3. Cut down on junk food
4. Save aside some $ for my old age(i'm not getting younger)
5. What else ar,hhmm...ooo...pay off my study loan asap...like 30 grant?...hugeeee amount..(or else I'll be paying that for the rest of my life)

But, like I said, hard to curb the 1st resolution if have such a generous boyfriend, but, I'll have to do it or else my boyfriend would have to be friend with those 'ah kua' at Lorong Garu.

Quote of The Day

'Fate, is an excuse for why we end up where we do! Our 'Actions' predetermine our Destiny, our 'Reactions' seal that fate!'

Carl Stoynoff

pizza for lunch and dirty job??

Hhmm...its lunch time and I'm waiting for everyone to get out of the office, if possibly for good.Its just so plain looking at them thinking that they're the greatest engineers.So sick....I had Domino's leftover pizza for lunch that I bought yesterday after work.I know...sounds pathetic...but still taste nice....Well, you know the taste of leftover food..

Pardon me as my camera in in the 'hospital' for repair...I'm using my hp currently for the pics...Be grateful...

I'm currently watching The OC season 3.Going to level 3 later on to check on all the cubes..I mean one by one.This is ridiculous. 'She' should have told me this earlier instead of asking me to go for the 2nd time. Sitting at her chair, staring at the computer( so call busy ) and doing nothing. She'll only carry her butt up if she needed to go to the toilet or pantry. Damn lame....

It so nice if you could have someone to do your dirty job.Well, basically thats what the green badge in Intel does. Cleaning the permanent employee's s***...

i feel blackish today

Walked into the office today feeling soooo down and demotivated due to doing the same thing. Boring...I viewed Ryan's facebook and he seems happy. Not like he used to when we were still working in CF. Good for him and the weirdest things is 'He's engaged'. His fiancee is cute though. He's lucky and I'm jealous...hahahaha.. I added a few of people that I know in CF. They don't change much but I think I do.I guess so.

Talked to my guy yesterday about not being able to buy him PS2 due to my shopping fetish previously and I wrote down a few things in my organizer which hopefully I can fulfill. It's hard you know to cut down on shopping especially if you have such a generous boyfriend. Too bad on that. Without I realise, its going to be 2 months since I joined Intel and honestly, working here is fun. You do your own thing( How do you possibly think I could be blogging at this time, 10.45am?). But yet I don't have friends at all over here. My companion is just my deskstop and a few notebooks to scribble.

I can't get my mind off the blog that I mentioned yesterday. I opening my closet yesterday night and how pathetic it was...sad...Its been months since I last shop...too bad...I feel like I have $ when I was a student compare to now...Weird isn't it???

This is what I wear normally wear to work but today, it feels black...

Top: from mummy

Sandal:Vincci(size 3!!!!!!)

Jeans:PDI(bought ages ago)

My First One

Well, this is my first post as a blogger but I don't consider myself as a serious blogger. At the moment, wanting to blog about everything is in me after I read Hot Chocolate and Mint blog. It is interesting, not to mention the content. You won't feel bored at all. Anyway, I'm sitting at my cube reading other people's blog. During working hours.I know, I know its an offense. But, what the hack. Everybody does that.

Well, this is how my table looks like. The spce is bigger that you see actually but I only managed to take 1/4 of it. Trying to avoid from being spotted by my colleague. Or else they'll be...'What the hack??' with their nerd faces.