stretch marks and anti marks cream

These are the 2 product that I'm currently using. One is for my stretch marks and the Fair and Lovely anti marks is for the pimple scars that I have on my face. I used to have a smooth skin back in college years until I started working 2 years back. Previously I tried Fair and Lovely Multivitamin but that took me months to finish it as the product was too oily for my face as I seldom use . So I walking around Jusco Quuensbay and bumped into the anti marks cream which cost only $7.90 so I thought why not give it a try. Surprising it suits my face and it doesn't feels oily. The instructions says that you can see the difference after 2 weeks so we'll see how it goes.

Second product will be the Palmer's Vitamin E oil. It smells nice and I bought it during a sale in Guardian. It cost RM23.89 for 2 bottles and it;s only 150ml. It doesn't feels oily on your skin as it absorb into it right after you apply it. And it won't leave oily stains on your clothes which is good.

it was not just goodbye

A memory lasts forever never does it die.

True friends stay together and

never say goodbye

It was my last day with my team and I held back my tears so that I can have fun with them. Took pictures with each person on the team and how I miss those ' Call wait guys', 'please clear chat wait'.. I know you won't understand what I meant right. Anyway, I'm gonna miss my team a lot. Really a lot. Since I graduated, this is the best time of my real working life. These people taught me a lot of things and what to expect from the real world.

At the same day, went for an interview for another department which was recommended by my manager. I made the decision to step out of my team is not because of some problem that we have among us but some thing that I have to give up in order to give way to my future(studies). In fact all of us were like family. They make me laugh a lot through my experience working with them. Minus the 'berleter' part from my manager. She's just doing her job and I understand that. We took care of each other and gave support when ever one of us were down. That's what family does. Well, some things gotta go.

So these are the people who made my day except for certain days:-). Enjoy

this is humiliating

What happen to the Malays??? Read this..This is so embarassing.

Malay youth who itch for

online porn

OTHER NEWS & VIEWS

Compiled by LOH FOON FONG,

RACHAEL KAM and A. RAMAN

YOUNG urban Malays aged 13 to 19 are the most frequent visitors to pornography websites, reported Kosmo!, quoting a study by Universiti Putra Malaysia’s Social Sciences Institute (Ipsas).

The study said 22% of the multi-racial make-up of respondents in the survey were Malays, who also topped the list of those who liked to lepak (be idle) (15%), smoke (13.7%) as well as swear at people and play truant (11.5%) respectively.

“Playing truant used to be the dominant misconduct among Malay students. Now, it is viewing pornographic websites at cyber cafes,” said Ipsas director Prof Dr Md Salleh Hassan, who headed the research.

“These findings make it urgent for the Government to block easy access to the sites before they become a security threat to the nation,” he said, echoing a similar warning made recently by former Prime Minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad.

Dr Md Salleh lamented that it was disappointing that parents who were interviewed about their children’s penchant for pornography sites denied the claims, despite the confessions made by the youngsters.

Among the other races, Chinese students were found to be more inclined towards gambling (9.5%) and consuming alcoholic drinks (6.2%) while Indian youths were found to be prone to cheating during examinations (10.6%) and picking quarrels with their teachers (7.6%).

resources by The Star

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/7/22/nation/6707709&sec=nation

stars are what i can see

I'm seeing stars now. Can anyone help me bang my head..pretty please...

I'll be blogging more often after this as internet access is easy for me now...weeee!!! Anyway, I have assignments to pass by tomorrow. The good news is my team mate has done it for me but I still try to understand bits and pieces. I did learnt all this back in college but it was like 2 years back and the books are now in the storage. I'm not sure whether I can make through this semester or not. It is hard.

Went for an internal interview earlier on and hopefully I'll get good news by end of this week or most probably next week.

it is time to decide and say goodbye

It is hard to fail, but it is worse

never to have tried to succeed.

Theodore Roosevelt

I gave my final answer and final decision to my boss that I would have to let go of my job as I'm not going to let my MBA go. Either I have to transfer department or resign and I really hope that I'm doing the right thing. This is what I have wanted to do and part of my wish list. I've been waiting for 2 years to go for MBA. How could I possibly just let it slip pass my fingers. I'm so excited to finish my MBA as I did for my degree. I've promised myself to try my very best to be on Dean's list even though I'm not 100% confident but at least I try my best. It is better that not trying right. Well, fingers cross and I hope things would be better after I finish my MBA. I miss college years but it feels different to be in uni. Different people with different opinions. And more competitive as we are all adults and it will be a challenge for a slow learner like me.

I have a few plans in mind once I'm done with my job. But it is not clear whether it will be successful or not and I hope it does. I talked to daddy after work and he as usual was still supportive and I'm glad that he does. Same goes to boyfie and BFF. Well I have to decide what I want now and I can't be job hopping as well. To be honest I'm still not sure what I want to do for a career. I used to have an ambition to be a doctor but sadly I 'blew' my Maths...It was a funny story and long. But at least I have a Degree like others even though not as a doctor. So I'm still grateful as well. There are still things that put me at par with the society and something I can be proud of. Many people thinks that once I'm done with my Degree, that's the end. Not for me though. I want to be 'someone' and make people who are close to me proud. And I'm happy when they're proud of me as they know that their effort towards me are worth it.

I hope that everything will go smoothly. And with God's guidance plus my close ones's support, I would be able to make it through like how I did previously.

first class was ok

Attended my first MBA class. It was good but boring. Basically it was an introduction class just to refresh what we have learn in degree. Most of the students are working adult so this group is more mature. Some of them are good. I can know that from the way they answer questions from lecturer. So I'm a bit scare and worry that I might be left behind. It is tired to attend class after work. So I'm not sure whether I can coupe and divide my time between my classes and work. With the job I have now to be honest I don't think I can coupe with my studies. So many things to juggle. Plus I'm not the kind that can withstand stress. I'll crack under pressure.

So many things to referesh now. I've forgotten some things that I have learn back in college years. It feels odd to be a student again after 2 years I graduated from my degree. Still not use to it yet. Well, like I said, hopefully boyfie will bring me good news so that I can 'retire' early from work and focus on my study.

Boyfie will have team event with his colleague while BFF have to attend a seminar outstation and I'll be stuck at home all alone. Sad isn't it.

this is tiring

I feel so drain out each day and I dont' feel like doing anything. Work is ok but workload is sooo fucking hectic. Class starts tomorrow and I'm very excited. Excited to meet new people. It is time for me to make new friends.

I feel that my job is not bringing me anywhere. To be honest. I'm stuck here with no what-so-ever assurance of what I'll be getting. Finding another job is not easy as well. I have no choice now but to stay put. I hope that boyfie will have good news...I'm counting on you bb :-)

weekends

One way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure.

William Feather

Manage to watch movie after 2 weeks of spending the weekend at home. Boyfie was busy with juggling 2 jobs at the same time. I know he's tired. We watched Knight and Day. Movie was good. Funny packed with actions. Since it was a public holiday, we had a hard time to find parking and cars were many today. After movie we bought some things for the house including a mop that has broken (twice this year). Ahahahha.. Wonder how I broke it??? I'm not sure myself...It was suppose to be boyfie's off day today but as usual, people still need him at work....So I went back and change and followed him to futsal centre. Before that we bought maggi goreng for dinner.

dark circle is my best friend

I was chatting with my colleague and she said why I looked tired. So I looked into the mirror on my desk and gosh I have dark circle. I looked ridiculously pale and as if I'm sick and unhealthy. This is not a good sign. With lack of sleep for GOD know till when, the dark circle will always be with me.

Anyway a friend of mine will be leaving for Indonesia for 10 days. He'll be on holiday and I'm stuck here. How I wish I could leave everything behind and go for a vacation. I desperately need a break from all of this stress.

By the way I went for medical check up as it is criteria for my master's application. And the doctor said I have a very low blood pressure. I'm young and I have low blood pressure. I'm not sure what am I getting myself into.

'amazingly' STUPID

I saw a video taken on top of a building. Recording a girl and a guy who's arguing by the roadside. To my surprise all of a sudden the guy start kicking the girl like no one's looking. BY THE ROAD SIDE WITH CARS passing by and the best thing is no one stop to help. You see how inconsiderate Malaysian are. When there are time they don't have to 'sibuk', the have to be a 'penyibuk', when times like this situation, they just drive pass. That is what I call a stupid Malaysians. They prefer to 'sibuk' about accidents(with bloods and all those things) rather than helping this kind of people. And people wonder why is Malaysia so undevelop right...Because of Malaysian's mentality... So shallow.

When I first met boyfie many people criticize me why on earth do I have to choose other races?? Want to know why? Because people with the same religion as mine are mostly so shallow minded. If someone marries a Euro, why people dont' say anything? Instead they're sooooooo fucking proud... 'Oh I'm married to a mat salleh' See what I mean. Why do people have to be soooo proud of that? He/She is also a normal human being. They'll be bury in a coffin and underground and meet God after that. Just that they're more advance, civilized (not all though, some are still stupid), tall, white and bla bla bla...

This is just some of the reason my Malaysia is not develop. The government can create what ever policy they want but in the end, it comes down to the people.

online shop and daddy gets a year older

Well I was in a good mood yesterday. Boyfie went to futsal centre early than usual as there was a tournament and 1 person could not handle the centre. At the mean time, I was out with The Group (riana, fifi, khang, yazid and wan joinedtowards the end of our outing). We watch The Back-Up Plan and it was a touching movie. I nearly cried. Not something that boyfie would like. Too girlie. I was fucking happy until I think of Monday. Starting of the week and it is not good at all. Best thing is I hate my job to be honest..........But daddy said, just be grateful I still have a job in the middle of world's economic downturn...

Anyway, I was thinking of getting my blogshop up and running again but not so sure how. Starting was a disaster. Manage to sell a few and ending up I wear those clothes...Hahahaha... But I will definitely get it done and once successful, I'm quiting!!!!!!!!!!!!. Who doesn't want to be your own boss right???...And it's daddy's birthday today..

Happy Birthday Daddy. We love you a lot.

weekend with The Group

Boyfie will have to work AGAIN this weekend. So there goes my 2nd week of boring weekend. NO movie in 2 weeks. Gosh!! Missed a lot of new movies. I want to watch Sex and The City 2 !!!!!!!. But its ok, even if boyfie and me can't watch movie, I don't mind as long as he's still around. I accompanied him for the past 1 week in Sportiva. Tired but worth while. Boyfie is down with fever and cold. Kesian him and he's so stubborn towards medicine. You'll feel like killing yourself just to pujuk him to take medicine. He's been falling a sick a few times this year itself. I know you're tired. Daytime in office and evening till late at night in futsal centre. Hopefully the it is worth your effort that you put.

Going to meet up with Fifi and Khang later after work. I'm so excited!!! Woohoo....I missed you two BFF....Best part about meeting them is the gossip segment. Ahahaha. Please, don't tell me you say NO to gossips...Khang is like the CNN...Ahahahahaha.

Anyway I feel like my head is going to explode. Everything is jumbling up and I'm in the middle of the crossroad. Class starting soon..Goshh...

durian oh durian

Pictures say a thousand words.

last day at home

Well, it is 10.15am. I just woke. Couldn't sleep after 6am. I'm not looking forward to go back Penang. How I wish Perlis is a big city so that I don't have to move else where. Close to teh family as well. BFF is coming later to pick me up and we plan to visit an old friend of us back in high school. It has been years since we last met. She's married with 4 kids. So cute. Anyway Along will be tagging along. Then after that, we'll be heading back to Penang which is the hardest and saddest part of the trip.

Messaging with boyfie yesterday and I know he's going through a rough time. God, please give him the strength to go through all this. Show him the right path. Give him calmness and every strength in every part of the world so that he can pull through. And I miss him as well.

Mummy's baking bread. Nothing beats a home cook bakery and dish.

days when you and your dad had the quiet moment

Today was suppose to be a happy dinner as I planned to treat my family for dinner and I did. But before that, I had a bad argument with daddy. Felt bad though. The argument was about my young and rebellious sister. Do you ever have a stubborn, rebellious and arrogant sister that sometimes you want to choke her???? I do. Even then I still love her as we have the same DNA strains in both our body where no matter what we do, we're still sisters. But you know a teenager who's age between 15 to 17 ( I had my rebellious years myself). Things have change for the past couple of years where teenagers in those days are not like today. Weird isn't it.

Last time, when we have to call our parents, we use the public phone, but now kids are using Sony Ericsson that cost thousands.

Last time, when we want to buy sneakers, we go to Bata. But now, they buy Converse (which is for them the cheapest brand they can get).

Last time, we only bring $1.00, maximum $2.00. But now they're bringing $50.

Last time, the meaning of lepak is at kopitiam, but now kids choose Starbucks...Damn.

See what I mean. I don't how am I going to support her in the future. Things have change so much that sometimes we missed certain things.

durian season is soooo good

So I came back with BFF. Started our journey at 9pm. And we stopped by SP, to drop Intan (BFF's cousin). Thinking that her friends will be back as well. But in the end, she decided to follow us. It was so quiet and I wouldn't dare to stay alone as well. Anyway, since I have to take my dinner. BFF suggested us to stop by Alor Star stadium. Coincidently I was craving their famous naan bread as well but as we reached there, the place was crowded as there was a live football match against Brazil and Portugal, so we turned back and headed straight to Perlis and stopped by Seriab to have dinner. We ordered daging merah, ayam merah and tomyam. Sat for a while and went off. So by the time I reach home, it was like 1 am. the journey that was suppose to be only 2 hours have become 4 hours. Hahahaha..

Anyway, I was craving to have durian since it is durian season. Penang is so expensive and does not taste as nice as Perlis. Hahaha. I asked my god brother to get a few for me. Have not eaten yet actually. Before that mummy and me drove to Batu Pahat thinking there might be people selling durians along the roadside but there was nothing and no one so we drove home empty handed. Trying to find mango for boyfie as well as he like to eat mango but none left as mango season has passed. But I'll try to find again tomorrow. I miss him a lot :-( .

And I know someone will be 'happy'...

am i getting skinner?

True, my weight has gone down drastically. Oo btw, I'm going back to Perlis this weekend. Woohoo. I'm soooo excited. I didn't get the chance to celebrate Father's Day with the family so I'll pay for it this time. Sorry Dadddy..Anyway, work is terribly bad and tiring. I don't get enough rest and eat. Been working like hell for the past couple of weeks. Hope things would be better by this month end. Class starting soon and I have yet to go for my medical check up. Macam nak start keja baru la pulak. Not sure whether I can balance between my classes and my work but I do hope that my masters will bring me some benefit after this. I'm grateful that I manage to pursue my masters as it was mumm'y dream to see me finishing my masters, and it is also part of my wishlist to go for masters. So basically it is a win-win situation.

Scenario number 2.
What do you think if you ex mentioned YOUR NAME in facebook. The best part is your break-up history is really bad. Annoyed?Disgusted?Pissed? I feel everything. One thing for sure I would want 4 tough guy to pin him down the floor and I will do the punching. That would definitely reliefs me. I hold grudge on him, to be honest. When we broke up, I swear that I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore and deleted him from my thumbdrive, my hard drive and deleted everything that has to do with him including his smell. Sounds freaky right. But try to be in my shoe. You'll know how it feels like. I was weak at that time and I'm sooooooooooooooo f***ing over him. For all the girls out there (or his current gf), you chose the wrong guy. But its not your fault as I don't think he tells you what he was like back then. I can say that he lie a lot of thing to you, ain't?? Make an effort to dig it out like how I did last time.

3rd scenario
Well, I feel drain off and not sure why maybe I worked to hard and loose my balance in life. You know there's one point where you feel like leaving everything behind and get yourself a nice holiday. that's how I feel now. Drained and tired. I kept reminding myself that I'm sttrong inside and this is life. I never thought I will grow up this fast. Feels like I'm still in high school/college. But now it has been 2 years since I graduated from my degree. How time flew so fast. Till today, I don't think I'm ready to face the working world but I know I have to in the end. It is just a matter of time. Daddy and mummy has been so supportive to me and I'm doing this for them as well and I know I have a big responsibilities toward Adik. She's counting on me in the future. I have a lot of big dreams but I'm not sure whether I can achieve all that or not. Sometimes I feel like the dreams I have are moving further and further away.

today was tiring

Saturday was ok but Sunday was gooooood (as I don't have to work on that day:-) ). Went to QB. Was plannig to watch Sex and the City 2. have already booked the ticket but we went late and ticket has been canceled. So we decided to take a stroll in the shopping mall. We went to Palace of India for dinner (2 days in a row). Teringin want to makan punya pasal. Ordered my favorite dish (masala something, can't remember). And then went for ice-cream at Baskin Robbin. Both of us ate quite a lot during the weekends.

Called daddy yesterday to wish him Father's Day. Sad that I couldn't celebrate with them as I had to work. Anyway, BFF asked whether I would want to follow her back to Perlis. I said yes. Hahahaha...BFF, we're gonna go for a road trip....Woohoo.. Plan to buy some durians back. her car is gonna sting man...Too bad..Hahaha.

daddy, daddy cool...

I'm stuck in Penang tomorrow and it is Father's Day. Crap...Plan to buy someting nice for daddy but out of budget. Currently talking to a customer on the line while blogging. Cool ei...Haha.

Dear daddy,
Thank you for all the support you have provided to the family. All the hard work, tears, sweat due to all the hard work. We love you a lot. You're the person who guided us on our first bicycle ride, first day at school (mummy as well), first day in high school, first day in uni and graduation day. We proud to say that we're grateful to have a father like you.

Happy Father's Day Daddy

We Love YOu Daddy.

spanish class?? You've gotta be joking

Despite having bad migraine, I have to drive to the clinic and stop by USM in regards of my USM application that has been approved. At the same time, met up with an old friend where we met in secondary school, Along. She guided me through roughly the process of my online registration for my subjects. My first master's class will be around the corner and I'm freaking excited and nervous at the same. I got the timetable and the fees are quite 'reasonable'.And I have a Japanese lecturer who is going to teach us economic class. Cool ei.... Before that we stopped by Graduate School of Business (GSB) to enquire some info on how to go about the online application. Sounded easy even though the offer letter that I got looked complicated. Anyway, the 'abang' was friendly enough to share some info with us. Surprisingly enough as most government officers are quite 'friendly' at times. So now I'm in USM lab blogging and at the same time finishing my registration but sadly, the website is under maintenance.

To be honest, I have never though that I would be able to pursue my masters as I was a lzay bump back in high school. I love to sleep and that is untill today. Boyfie said I'm a piglet. Hahaha. I'm very grateful that after all the things I've been through, GOD gave a second chance to prove myself. I thank HIM for all the guidance, the support and the strength HE gave me untill today. And I know the fact that I'm no saint as a human. I do bad things but still HE protected me. Also not to forget biggest second thank to daddy and mummy, for EVERYTHING they have sacrifise for me, the money, time and everything they could possibly provide me. And another important person is boyfie, thank you so much for your tolerence and patience you had since we met. The staying till wee hours accompanying me during my exam periods. You and the family has given me so much that it is not enough by just saying thank you. If not because all of you, I would never be standing here now. Also BFF, for being there always, listening to my nonsense and nagging. I promise that I'll do my best, better than my degree and will definitely make all of you proud of me.

This is like a dream. A dream that I could not possibly think of. Another thing to bring back on track is my online business. Once everything settle, here I come again. This time, ALL OUT...

And GOD, please help me this time around again. Give me the strength, patience and guidance to pursue my studies. Show me the road to success and give me the ease to learn things during this period. And show me what is right and what is wrong. Guide me to the correct path and bless me with all the goodness in life. Bless my family and my loved ones.