this ride is not open to public yet. i was going to ride it if its open.
these dancers are from Indonesia and they're so freaking cool
final goodbye to 2010
Well, for me, many things has happened for the last 12 months.And today mark the last day of 2010. How time flew so fast without you realizing it. I hope that 20111 will be a better year for me, turning me into a stronger person, more focus and dedicated human being. What ever that are not important, I wouldn't want to put it into my organizer or keep it in my mind.Therefore a toast to an excellent 2011. The year of glory, full of achievement and happiness....
We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives... not looking for flaws, but for potential.
Ellen Goodman
i'm back
this small little creature is back in action...pictures taken in Singapore will be uploaded soon.
A Merry Christmas
I will be away till 28th December so there'll be no updates till then. Will post pictures from my holiday to the Lion City once I'm back. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all readers. Have a safe journey home. Don't drink and drive...
dream is just a word without you
You've got to follow your passion. You've got to figure out what it is you love--who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dream
let it go...........
.There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go
can I speak to GOD directly because I'm....
It takes a minute to meet someone, an hour to get know them, maybe even a day to love them. But a lifetime to forget about them.
When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.
life quote of the day
everything will be okay in the end, if everything is not ok, then it’s not the end.don’t think about the future, but reach for all your dreams, don’t think about the past , but cherish every memory, don’t think about today, live today.
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the ones who treat you right, and forget about the one’s who don’t.Believe everything happens for a reason.If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it.Nobody said life would be easy, they only promised it would be worth the ride.
5 rules to have a happy life: 1. Free your heart from hatred; 2. Free your mind from worries; 3. Live simply; 4. Expect less; 5. Give more
Friday nite
Attended 7aste event at 32 Mansion yesterday night. It was a good nite as the last I had my fun time was months ago. Met a few friends..And Adrian got this CD as a gift..Is Nadhira's CD. I guess she's a newbie in the music industry. Collaboration with Vandal from Canada and King Lhota from Senegal. She's small in size with big voice.Can't remember what question it was...Sorry no pics during the event. Busy talking and eating:-)... The YouTube video clip is one of the song in her latest album.
People make mistake and they should be given a chance to prove that they have changed. So do I. And sometimes we would do the extra things for the person that we care and love. I don't mean that we have to accept what ever mistake our partner did but at least give time to both side to reconsider things and think what they really want. If they're meant to be, fate will be on their side but if fate is not there, no matter how hard we try to be together, it will be broken eventually. I believe good things will happen to people who has faith, hope and patience.
Katharine McPhee - Better Off Alone
One thing I'm wonderin
'When you run out of friends
Will you be coming back home?
Let's think this through again
Let's take a different spin
Why can't I leave you alone?
Somewhere tonight, you may be found
With some other girl you've been draggin' around
You lie to yourself, and you lie to me
It seems like the truth is your worst enemy
Cause baby I'm tired, tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights
It's taken some time, cause I didn't know
If I could ever let you go
You helped me figure it outI'm better off alone
I'm better off alone
I may be found, somewhere tonight
Cursing the day you walked into my life
What's done is done, I can't change time
But I'll be damned if I'm not gonna try
Oh I'm gonna try
Baby I'm tired, tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights
It's taken some time, cause I didn't know
If I could ever let you go
You helped me figure it out
I'm better off alone
But every now and then, my heart gives in
To the hope that someday you'll change
Then alone I'll wake, to my own mistakes
That it's just a foolish game
I'm tired, tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely lonely lonely days and the dark endless nights
You didn't think, cause you didn't know
That I'd find the strength to let, let you go
I finally figured it outI'm better off alone
I'm better off alone
One thing before I go
Something I've got to know
Boy, did you ever love me?
i had 0 idea in my head
Never let life's hardships disturb you ... no one can avoid problems, not even saints or sages.
Nichiren Daishonen
And I guess I'll be celebrating new year with BFF and that girl will definitely be out with him... You know what I do feel like killing someone at the moment and if there's no law saying that you'll be jail for manslaughter, she'll be the first person on earth I would love to kill. I'll only say but when the time comes, I'll chicken out. Not that I'm scare or what tapi tak sampai hati...And becoz of 'tak sampai hati', see where am I standing now???Miserably...I should be a mean girl from the start..
christmas 2010
Christmas is like 3 freaking weeks away and I'm sooo freaking happy. Plus BFF is coming to Singapore with me as well...yahoo... Its a good way for me to relax actually after all that has happened. Planned a trip down to KL for new year celebration with Khang and Alla but not to sure yet. It has been 2 years since I last had my vacation. Plus the trip down to Singapore will be a good one as Christmas celebration in Singapore is a something to die-for. Sitting down at the Orchard Road on Christmas eve with close friends and cousins.Sitting by the roadside or walkway...Drinking a cup coffee at Clarke Quay. Like how I used to do last time with my cousins. It was pure fun as we were still children. Nothing to worry except homework...No responsibilities, no attachment...Good old years...And that is where I went to my first club..Ahahahaha...
life is unfair sometimes
Life's not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow.
~Terri Guillemets
I didn't expect that life would throw me things that I would have never expected but I guess that what makes life more meaningful. If everyone can predict how the future will be, we won't appreciate what we have. Well sometimes, when things happen, you can only bring yourself back up and pray for strength and guidance. It may take time but eventually you'll be yourself again. Some can stand back in a short period of time but some people (like me_), it may feel forever.
I'm taking one step at a time from now on. Baby steps as I don't want to be hurt and crush anymore. At this moment, daddy and mummy has been the strongest supporter and they know what I'm going through. I'm still having hard time to get myself to sleep at night and it is tiring but I know I have to as I have so much things waiting ahead of me. So many plans to be executed. Plans that I have since I was small...
I've never regretted. Not even once instead I felt lucky to have met such a great man in my life. A man who I respected and look high upon to. A man who I knew will always be there in the time of in need. A responsible and caring person. And a man of honor(put aside his egoistic character, every man has that). A girl would be lucky to have someone like that in her life, Words will not be able to describe how he is.
late at nite
It's 1.47am on Sunday wee-hour. I can't sleep as I'm not sleepy but I didn't take my nap in the afternoon. It has been going on like this for the past weeks. Even during weekdays. I have to force myself to sleep. Lost of appetite and so on...This is so tiring...
Daddy and mummy has gone to Singapore. they were here for the past 4 days so at least I don't feel lonely. BFF will be in KL for the next almost 2 weeks. So I guess this week will be a very boring week for me. Go to work , come home, dinner and off to be. I'm not looking forward for weekends nowadays. Cause I know I'll be spending my time at home on weekends and that's lame. Well, with limited circle of friends, that's what I do. Most of my friends are either married, working overseas or working in another state.....
It has been a week
Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always
One day you will ask me which is more important, you or my life? And I will say my life, and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.
I could be with anyone in the world and be content, but I stay with you because when I'm with you, everything's better than I could've ever hoped for.
The 7th day
When I found you,
I felt as if my heart found its destination
Nothing much has change. The feeling of 'pain' I guess is still there. Doesn't subside. Anger and confuse is in the head. Still finding the main reason why it happened. Clueless is more of the correct word. Deep in my heart I know I have to move, go with the flow and at the same time, put a bit of hope that things will be better but I can't. It is hard to bury that kind of thought in my mind.
Boyzone - Better
I guess things seems to be better with you around. . Nothing look beautiful now....
Day 6th
Bought ticket to Singapore for Christmas. There's no reason for me to stick around for the holiday. Furthermore I have no one else here. Its been 2 years since I last stepped my feet there. Good to have some time off in order to leave everything behind even though it's just temporary. Some time to think what I really need and what I'm gonna do next.
5 days after
You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind.
- Author Unknown
Dear readers,
You must be thinking why I changed my blog address right? Well, I want to leave behind something that I can cherish forever. Telling stories about how my love journey went and the best thing that I've never imagined happened...
Talking to mummy and daddy about what happened more or less made the burden a little bit lesser but still nothing changed..I'm trapped within myself and my mind is still blank with what has happened..I'm still in search of why even though I know there's no point but there's always a reason why some things happen...
When I received a text message from mummy saying 'I love you,from mummy' for the first time (even though she often say it verbally) yesterday,made my heart sank. It seems that she understand what I'm going through and I know that she's trying her best to cheer me up when I was at home. Every mum hope and pray the best for their children. Having to see them in their wedding outfit is one of the many things that parents would want to see but I guess on my part, it is just a dream...
few days after...
Todays one of those days...
where i stare at the paper, but can't write,
only tears seem to sheer...
Even if I fall in love again, with someone new..
It will never be the way I loved you..
It will never be the way I loved you..
Being with him for the past 3 years has changed me a lot. Especially mentally. He showed me the broader side of life that I've never notice previously. He introduced me the colorful side of life that I thought was just black and white last time.
I thanked and owe him a lot and I know I can never repay him back. He was my everything and my world revolved around him. He picked me up when I was down thinking that I can never be back again. He gave me hope that there'll always be rainbow after the rain. I trusted him with all my heart and looking at having a better future with him up to a point of taking the next biggest step in my whole life...All plans were laid down in front of me...And thinking that I'll be the happiest and the luckiest person even when the time comes but now everything will remain as dream.
I can't deny that it is hard for me the accept the fact after what has happened but I know I have to be strong no matter what. I can't pretend to put a smiling face when I know I'm not happy. If I could turn back time, I'll definitely make things better and I know every man will want a perfect partner and I knew the fact that I took for granted on many things. Part of the reason why this happened is because of me.
I've never regret knowing him and never once think that it was a wasteful 3 years instead it was the biggest achievement(apart from academic) and the greatest memory one can dream of having. We cherished each other and we had the best years of our life and I knew that no one can ever replace him.
Tears has not yet dry off at the moment. I cried because I know I've lost one of the most important person in my life. I lost part of the purpose in my life and lost the second strength(apart from my family) that made me strong all of these years....
I'm not sure if God has a better plan for me but I know He do and daddy said take it as a blessing in disguise...My prayers will always be with him (praying that he'll always be safe and God will always help him in whatever he does)..
If one day, things changed the other way round or he has a changed of heart, I'll always be happy to mend things back and be happy back like how we used to be because he is the precious thing in my life....
A test from up above
God, if I can’t have what I want, let me want what I have
Life is hard sometimes, but there is always a reason for why it is
-Jacquelyn K.
Weekend was good as mummy and a neighbor of mine were here for a medical follow-up.They reached here on Friday night and went back this evening. We wanted to visit Bukit Bendera but it was closed for renovation so we went to Kek Lok Si temple. It was hot and tiring but good. The view from up there were beautiful until it made me don't feel like coming down ever....
Had a good conversation with mummy for the first time ever (after 26 years) about G...Didn't know that she could take the news so calmly. But I'm glad that everything has settled on my side that I don't have to hide my relationship anymore.
I'm praying that God will give me the strength to overcome what I'm facing now and that He will lighten my way and give me a peace of mind..And God, please keep away whatever that comes between me and him..
Feast the eyes on the pictures taken during the visit...
It was believed that you lit the candles and pray that your path and whatever you do will be enlighten by God.
They used to have turtles in this pond
This picture was taken during the medical follow-up. While we were waiting for our turn:-)
I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
Javan (Steven Javan Jones)
Things hasn't gone well for the past few days. Many things happened and it affected emotionally. Talked to daddy for a while over the phone and it made me felt better. I never thought that I could talk to him about my relationship. It was a good conversation. I hope what ever is happening now is just temporary. Just a change of life cycle. I have so many things going through my mind so I do not wish to add any more burden into my tiny brain. I never want the same thing happen to me again like my previous relationship. It doesn't make me feel good.
felt awful since then....
I don't know what to feel
I don't know what to say even though I know it won't change
I don't know how to react anymore
I'm speechless
I feel threaten
I sense jealousy
I sense hypocrite
I feel annoyed
I don't feel well emotionally
I sense anger
I feel irritated..........and the list goes on........
I know what I feel now will not change anything but I do hope it will change....
Billy Gilman --- Oklahoma
This song is about a boy who never knew that he had a dad and his dad doesn't know he exist.
I cried when watching this music video
my heart wants to shout out
Sometimes, there are moments where I feel like standing at the edge of a cliff and shout my heart out but I can't find the perfect cliff here in Penang. The only cliff I know is Bukit Bendera..Not a suitable place to do that I guess Even though you have good friends or family to listen to what your heart want to say but there are things that you're aren't able to verbally tell them...It is hard to explain by words and that is what I feel now. Confused and decide whether to think or not to think...The harder I try not to think, the harder it gets...Sometimes it is best to just let it go...
Entri BM sempena Aidiladha
Entah kali ke berapa aku menyambut Raya Haji di negeri orang. Terasa sayu bila mendengar takbir raya di awal pagi. Bayangkan mereka yang terpaksa menyambut raya lebih jauh di negara asing. Entah apa perasaan mereka. Namun ini salah satu pengorbanan yang terpaksa dilakukan demi mencari sesuap nasi...Inilah lumrah kehidupan zaman sekarang. Mereka yang di kampung berhijrah ke bandar unutk mencari peluang yang lebih cerah....Ada yang berjaya dan ada yang hanya boleh melihat orang lain gembira kerana berjaya mencapai matlamat hidup...Mereka di perantauan hanya dapat menumpang kasih dan ihsan orang asing dan menganggap mereka seperti keluarga sendiri...Sayu................
Accomplishment in life.
"Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use."
I know I haven't been updating my blog for quite some time. Been busy with exams and workload..Sorry readers..Nothing much to tell about for the past few days. Same chores..Go to work and come back, books, computers and so on... |
Happy Diwali
I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Hindu friends a very Happy Deepavali. Have a joyous moments with your loved ones....
weekend gateaway
Weekend was good as I spent it with the family back in my hometown. No pictures though...
blood is thicker than blood
At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable.
~Mark V. Olsen and Will Sheffer, Big Love, "Easter"
Families are the compass that guide us. They are the inspiration to reach great heights, and our comfort when we occasionally falter.
-- Brad Henry
-- Brad Henry
girls night out and photography for fun
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Had a great night with BFF Alla and Alina who came down to Penang for a conference in Park Royal, Batu Feringgi. She called and aked us out..So me and BFF went and pick her up but as usual we were late..Ahahahah..Brought her for a coffee in Coffee Island as me and BFF haven't had our dinner yet a the same time..Food was good but we ate too much..Now BFF have to think on how to shed those extra kilos:-). Took a few photos( girls called it camwhoring and I dunno why)...
By the time we reach home, it was about 1.30am..Washed my face and feet and then slept by 2.30am..Seriously can't wake up that morning plus it was raining(nice weather to sleep)...Its good to have girls night out once in a while...
its a girl's best friend right?
Let these 2 pictures do the talking..I assumed most of you know what this is right..Told you its a girl's best friend..Not just diamonds ok..Not all girls are materialistic...Well, bought this yesterday in Jusco as it was on sale...Delivered earlier in the evening...This will definitely make my life easier...No more rough fingers:-)...Silky smooth hands...
By the way, I signed up for a health screening which will be next month..It is a monthly activity organized by my company in collaboration with Pantai Medical Center...Best of all it is free. It consist of blood test up till HIV test..All included in one whole package and IT IS FREE!!!..Should I repeat that again?..The problem is, I'm scared of needles regardless of the sizes and worst is they're going to take a whole full of the lab tube..Even though I've signed up, I haven't actually made my decision...It is good to have a complete medical check-up and better if it is free but just the needle part that scare me off... The last I did my med-checkup that requires me to 'donate' my blood was like 10 years ago???I think so...
I miss Singapore and I want to visit the UNIVERSAL STUDIO...Agak-agak Malaysia ketinggalan berapa tahun kebelakang dari Singapura selepas diaorang ada studio tu ar?Ppfftt...
P/S; When I have kids, I want to be a hot-mama...
Red - Official Trailer 2 [HD]
Watched RED with boyfie today..The movie was awesome andbought something 'special' for me but not gonna tell you yet..Wait till the delivery which is tomorrow.....Hint ; A girl's/woman's best friend(not diamond ok)...Had Nandos for teatime(weird right?) and Shauban nasi kandar for dinner...Goooodddd........
what makes you happy in life?
Have you ever thought that? Honestly, me neither..Is it a happily-ever-after marriage? Tonnes of money? Caring and loving family members? Well, some things are not measured by how successful you're in life rather how successful you're are emotionally. When your emotions are happy, the impossibles will be possible...I never knew how important it is to be happy until today...I fell down numerous times and I still managed to stand strong regardless of what life throws in to me..I have my regrets but there's no point of regretting what you've done or what you should have done instead make your life happier and fuller in the future..Put the past behind...I know it is easy to say but doing it is rather hard..there's no exception for me either.Sometimes when bad things happen to you, you will start thinking back of what has happened in the past..That will lower down your spirit...You try your best to change things again and again but the result is not as good as you think...It is tired to make the best out of you every single day...From the time you wake up in the morning till you put yourself to sleep...Sometimes you just want to erase all the nightmares that you have that keeps haunting you everyday...
quote for today
Never have regrets because at one point everything you did in life was exactly what you wanted
-Anonymous
Life throws the bad things at us to make the good things all the more worthwhile
-Amy
Jess's wedding post
Attended Jess's wedding dinner in Paradise Hotel. Event started at 7.30pm and as usual I was late but only 15 minutes:-) They served 8 course dinner and 'not too' bad I say but I prefer burger tepi jalan lagi:-p..Boyfie went along as well with some other Dell colleagues...It was fun but tiring though...Delon was tipsy due to the unlimited wine and beer served(he had his fun la)..And his face was red..Nelly as usual, laughing at him...The dinner ended at 10.30m and all of us headed home...
buying a house is not like A,B,C
Planning for a house is not like munching almonds. Just choose and pop into your mouth. I've seen a few houses around(apartments, condos) but none manage to capture my interest yet. Price might be good but the condition (area, interior, etc) doesn't make me go aaww and when the price is like 'roof-top', the house is so beautiful...Landed houses in Penang is like the 'highest-tower-in-the-world' unless if I'm a tycoon's daughter....Well, it's better for me to still do some searching before rushing into any decision...Don't want to regret later..Houese built y IJM and Ivory is so 'pretty' but I can't afford that kind at the moment...There's a few things I want to settle first before getting into marriage so that I don't have to still renting a house later on...A car and a house..Not to brag, but if I have any extra cash...including help from daddy;-), I'd get a Honda for myself. My current obsession is the Honda City/Civic...But for a start I would go for a Vios but BMW would still be my preferred choice(even my own boss don't drive BMW..hahaha)... Well better put things together first instead of a last minute thing...
15th Anniversay
Met with one of my classmate after work. Discussed about our project which due next Wednesday..Tiring and sleepy...
Anyway, my company celebrated our 15 years Anniversary in Malaysia so there were some activities in cafe. Dancing, singing, and launching of our new official song for the company. Singers were among our company's staff and winners of the 15 years Anniversary Official song competition (m not gonna upload here). They have to create their own lyrics and beats...Didn't know we have such talented people in the office..I didn't manage to record the whole song. Just part of it....The whole event lasted for 1 hour (people have to get back to work ok,not that we're on holiday)
One of the staff sang Norah Jones's made famous song 'Don't Know Why'..She was damn good...
strength within is the fuel
Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
-- Anonymous
I'm darn tired today. Work till 5pm and then class at 7pm. God please give me the strength. Had a great night of photography with BFF yesterday. I hope she enjoyed my company and thanks darling for the gorgeous photos. Waiting for her to upload them into my Facebook. We'll do it again next time and next destination will be Batu Feringgi...Ahahah..Kononnya pro photographer la...As BFF is still learning on how to use her DSLR, I volunteered to be her so-called 'model'...Model yang pendek...Xpa la..Pendek pun jadila...And I miss Along(she's in Sabah I think). Thinking of going back to Singapore this coming January 2011. Been 2 years since I last visited my aunties, cousins and uncles...Hhmm...The family be spending the almost-2-months school holiday in Singapore starting next month.
*and should I cut my hair short or keep it long and then go for wavy look??
I want to get myself a compact SLR camera.....
wedding bells
Happy marriages begin when we marry the one we love, and they blossom when we love the one we married.
-unknown
Love doesn't make the world go 'round.
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
-- Franklin P. Jones
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