KL or Jakarta and people who are full of shit

I went through Nelly's FB and saw picture of her in Jakarta and Surabaya. Went with his darling, Delon..hahaha. I saw a sneak peak of Jakarta ( I think so) shopping mall. F***ing huge!!!!!! F***ing awesome...Shopping heaven for me!!!..So few days back, I suggested to the Boyfriend.

Me : B ar, why not we save some money, then go for a Jakarta trip

Bb : Hah?? for what. Wait kena bomb or what. Don't want la

Me : I saw in Nelly FB, the shooping mall is so huge!!!

Bb : So you want to drag me to go for shopping and spend my money?? So the part where you said we save money means, save my money then we can go rite..?

Me : *Smilling*

But, previously, the Boyfriend and I and a few friends planned to go for KL trip but everything went down the drain...!!! Same goes to Paint Ball...Even the paint ball center which located right in front of my house (walking distance), has closed down...Bloody full....

I've been noticing that everyone I know is getting married and the question that I always encounter is 'Ei, when is your turn la?'..Hhmm...Well, I have no idea...me and the Boyfriend still have a long way to go. Marriage is not something I have in mind..................yet.

Indeed, the Boyfriend understands me well....I guess so...

Additional post over here...Working in my current company is full of shit as the people here are full of crap....Imagine eating shit, worst than that...Honetly speaking...If I am a millionaire kid or some future heiress, I would certainly quit right now and stand in from of their say shouting :

I quit!!! And you know why? Because all of you are full of crap and nonsense. You can eat your own f***ing shit as I don't need all this shit as I have enough shit to handle and care in my life. You all are just selfish, self centered species without any brain!!! Moorons!!

Not so exciting but yet still moody today= job burn

There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.

funny Oscar Wilde quotes

Well, I feel a lil' bit down today. Dunno why...Ms.J is back in office..Felt sick...uurrgghh!!! Plain, dumb, straight woman. I don't like her. She always critisize my work. What ever I do is not enough for her..Everything has to be in line, I mean according to the rules including how I send email. Pathetic and it get to your nerve isn't it...I feel stupid... Currently I'm having a mood swing when ever I'm at work. Is that a sign showing that you're getting bored with your job...For me, it looks like that. So I browsed through recruit.net. A website which was recommended by the Boyfriend's friend. You can find thousands of job. Basically, it's a website that compile all jobs/opening/vacancy from all the employment websites like JobStreet, Jen job, Man Power and etc. You can even search for job in China and Australia and a few other countries which obviously I can't remember. The Boyfriend said I have a brain of a goldfish because golfish can only remember for like 2 second...Isn't it cute....

I do feel like searching for other job prospect but then it won't look good in my CV. My first job was in Maxis but quit after 4 months of working. the reason is.....can't get a long with the boss. But money was good though. Then again, daddy said, good money comes with high responsibilities. I never think of that until the first day I stepped into Maxis. It was nighmare!!!..But I got the chance to meet different kind of human species. Some are demanding, annoying, nice. It tested my patience...Damn...First day at work, I cried when I reached home and I called daddy. He said, 'I thought so'...Hahahaha...Funny to think about it but it was a lesson to learnt.

And now I'm stuck in my current job. First impression when I went for the interview...'Wow, the place is so clean and everything are so organized.This is how MNC company work'...But, it was a whole lot mistake...AGAIN....I kept reminding myself...'Work for the sack of your resume' 10000 times, everyday..Do you know how it feels to see nerds everyday, to hear unrelevant complain through your ears everyday, to have fullfill these nerdies need everyday, to handle their nonsense everyday????? Some of their request doesn't even seem to be logic!!!! They think they're one of a great hell engineers..ya rite......How can they have brains like what they have now...It is sick, you know...

You know what, I'm always complaining about almost everything in my life...Sometimes I forget that I still have good things in my life...A perfect family, a perfect Boyfriend, a bowl of rice that I can eat, a bike, a place to stay..But it never been enough for a normal human being...

Anyway, I browsed through my favorite online shop *Pumpkin* and spotted this baby doll-like dress. Very cute and flowy.

dolly lace

For credit card and for movies

Well, weekends gone by so fast and here again 6am, I'll have to wake..Soooo sleepy.Weekend was ok as I spent it by going to the movies with the Boyfriend. We watched Public Enemies and Obsessed. Well, overall, the movies was ok. But Public Enemies(main character: Johny Depp, he's sooo drop dead but I don't fancy him ok) starts a bit slow. Actions in the mid of movie. Its 70s concept movie actually and based on a true event. It plays on how a man escaped from a jail and commit robbery over and over again until he was finally caught. Half way before, he fell in love with a hotel girl. She work as a girl who collect jackets, bag and etc to be store away upon request by customers. She stood by him no matter what happened. It was a bit of drama. For the girls who doesn't fancy 70s, old machine gun, no fast car, its not a movie to watch...Bet ya, you'll sleep even befor the movie starts. I don't mind though.

For Obsessed, its a story about Derek Charles (Idris Elba), who works in an investment company. Married to Sharon (Beyonce Knowles) with one kid. They just moved into their new house as it is nearby to Derek's office. Soon came a temp staff named Lisa(Ali Larter from Heroes series).. replace Derek's assistant as he was out sick. She starts stalking Derek, all the things he's worked so hard for are placed in jeopardy. Its quite a nice movie to watch but the beating part between Sharon and Lisa was a bit short but hell ye, you'll see how powerful was Beyonce's punch...

Well, for the next movie, I'll be waiting for Harry Porter : The Half Blood Prince even though I missed out most of the previous one..Another news is, I just saw pictures of Sentral Collegenew wing open ceremony (previously was my beloved study center,hahahha).

The tutors were great though but the students are kind of 'backward'...

Good Friday, wedding gown and I stapled my fingers..Gosh!!!

I told you about the story of my family yesterday. Well good news for you peeps...I just wanna tell you that...today is Friday!!!!!!!!!! Yehahhhh..Funny ain't i?? Who doesn't like Friday. Guess what, I stapled my finger yesterday and it sound stupid. How could a person stapled his/her own finger???Tell me anyone. I told the Boyfriend and he nod his head. He said 'It's not a big deal as you're prone to disaster, so its normal'...So I'd had to eat with fork and spoon

Tommorow's weekend and Tuesday is holiday as well (replacement for a public holiday on Saturday)..No plan(s) as I'm broke... Anyway, planned to make chicken sandwich for dinner out of a 3 day Ayamas that I bought...Haha. Anyway, went for lunch with the Boyfriend. I ate Ayam Goreng McD.. Then we went around QB as it is 2 hours break every Friday. Went to Gurdian to see whether our cleanser (Neutrogena Deep Clean cleanser) has value pack or not...Well, we're facing a serious recession, so everything has to be in value pack except when it comes to shopping!!!! No way I'm gonna give up on that, no matter what... But nothing...Same goes in Watson.

Hhmm..A friend of mine(Ryan) is getting married in this short period of time...At last...OMG.. I feel happy for him.He must be a great bf and a husband-material type and best of all, he's a great friend..We used to laugh and chat as we worked in the same company previously...He and his soon-wife-to-be looked so match made in heaven...I was wondering, when is it gonna be my turn.OK ok I know...I said in the previous post that I'm not thinking about getting married as I have many other s things to do...Well, looking at the pretty wedding gown, 3 tier wedding cake, cute little wedding invitation card, make me feel...wow, so beautiful...But then again, marriage is not just pretty things.It's about commitment of life between you and your soon-to-be husband/wife. It need patience, tolerance, loyalty, faith and etc...My friends used to tease me 'Ei Yong, I bet that you'll be the first one to walk down the aisle'...Well, she's the one who got married first...Now with 3 kids...

I looked up through Yahoo! on Vera Wang wedding gowns a few times since the past few months. Their collections are so eye catching..but pricey though...I prefer colored wedding gown instead of the conventional plain white gowns. With less beads and decor on the gown without overly sexy...Just enough to show my body shape..For me, simple is the key to sexiness..Just 2 to 3 tone color will do. Compliment with a beach front view or garden view wedding...Perfect match...And honeymoon in Paris(in my dream)..Who know, dream could come through...

you raised and you supported through pain and suffering

When I was just a little girl, I ask my mother, what will I be,
Will I be pretty, Will I be rich,
This what she said to me,
Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be,
The future's not us to see,
Que sera sera

Remember that song. A song which most of your mum would sing to you before bed or your kindy teacher will play it through cassette in school (in my years, cassette is something which makes people go, "wah, she got cassette ar")... Anyway, close that kindy story (I'm a nerd in kindy)..I grew up in a less-moderate lifestyle..At that time, my dad only owns an old Yamaha C60 bike ( I think so) and that's is the only mean of transport that we have until he bought a Ford Laser(more than 10 years and still is apart of the family) from my uncle. He bought it through hard-earned money way back when he was working in Kota Bahru, Kelantan. Even before he got married with mummy..Before he worked in Kota Bahru, he used to work for a optical factory in Singapore (that's where he met mummy through a friend)...Sound soooo sweet. They dated around 10 years(that's what mummy told me) then they got married in 1983 and mummy gave up everything including her career and family just to be with him despite his disabilities. Her friends and family members even asked her to rethink on the consequences. They're afraid that daddy could not provide everything that she need but she put those things a side.
Then, daddy got a job in Kota Bahru(that's where my origin comes from, sad isn't it)..Mummy stayed in Singapore until daddy got us a rented house( we still keep in touch with the landlord until today and we visited them last Chinese New Year as I insisted to). they were very nice. But the rented house that daddy got is not like what you imagined...It was a two floor kampung house. At first we rented the ground floor (it was so small, it can only fit a single bed and a tv). At that time, we didn't have a TV. TV was considered as a luxury item at that time. Mummy couldn't get used to that kind of lifestyle as she was quite well brought up. I was born in year 1984, a few months after I was born, that was the hardest time as daddy got retrenched (only chinese were retrenced as racism was normal at that point of time)..We had no money to even buy milk for me and mummy would have to lend money/milk powder from the neighbour. Luckily, they were kind enough to help us. I was the only child and luckily.. Daddy was out of job for about 6 months until a big-offer came 'knocking' at the door. His previous boss (the company which retrenched him) called and asked whether he's interested to work in a diamond company but the catch is , he would have to based in overseas ( means that he would have to be apart from the family)..Mummy agreed as we had no choice...Daddy started hard(as an under paid labor) but he never give up (for the sake of the family in Malaysia).. He worked hard thought out many years and got promoted as a supervisor...From there, recommendation came 'raining' down on him and numerous job offers just 'flew' into his lap. Then he was offered as a manager (also in diamond polishing) in Perlis (where we settled down)... So daddy brought the whole family to Perlis ( where I met my best friends, Alla). And that's when my sis was born (year 1994). She was born in Kedah actually. Daddy drove all the way to Kedah Medical Center as mummy insisted to have her labor over there...45 minutes of hell-ride...
Anyway, we rented a house at first. Then a chinese man asked my dad whether he's interested to buy his house (his house was well taken care of..lucky)..Properties were cheap at that time. Daddy agreed and used his 'years'of saving to pay for the down-payment. And paid the installment for only a few years. Then, the factory that daddy worked in, would have to shut down and everyone was retrenched. But daddy was one of the lucky ones as some of the diamond polishing companies in overseas offered him different position (but good money babe)...until today (now he's half retired,haha)...
The family used to being a way from him most of the time...But we managed to keep the bond closed with the help of today's tech (amazing isn't it)...The love between our family has never change,fade, lessen...It actually makes us even stronger.. To be honest, my dad has a disabilities. his leg are smaller on the left ( he got polio when he was small and my grandma did not know what is polio so my dad did not get any polio injection).. But I was never ashamed of that (except when I was small as I don't know what really happened to my dad, he said he got knock by a hockey stick..bad girl). Instead I'm very proud of him as he has done things beyond his capabilities and beyond what a normal person could actually do. Whether its physically or emotionally. He never gave up... I remembered when I was in Secondary 3, he beat me up because I ignored mumy's advise...It was the beaten of me life and that was the first time daddy ever got real pissed off..... Then I saw him crying to himself in the kitchen and he said sorry. From that moment
A 10 pages blog or a 300 pages book will never be able to describe how much pain our family had to go through, how much sufferings we have to feel, how much love and support our family has provide to each other...Nothing can compare a love of a father and a mother... They've given me the best of what they can afford...Daddy taught her childrn to be strong, prepare for the worst and be humble and kind...He said, sometimes, it is ok to cry. Men do cry but silently, they don't show. They are a species with high ego attitude. Daddy is a soft-spoken person while mummy is the nagging type but for our own good. Daddy has the patience to teach his children.. Basically we learnt all the good things from daddy and maybe some from mummy...Well, through my parent's effort, I'm now graduated from college and adik will be having her PMR this year. She's independent as daddy taught her that way as well...He said show good example to the younger one... And whatever happens, she's still you sister...And you can't deny that...
Daddy has always been the hero in the family while mummy is his sidekick. We learnt what is the real meaning of life basically from him. What we are today came his hard work to raise the family, to provide what's best for us and give the best of what he can. He conctantly remind us to be grateful of what we have. Never compare yourself with others. Instead try to compare yourself with those who are less fortunate...But now, travelling to overseas, having 'tonnes' of money to spent, is not something the family are striving to. We just want to spend the time that we never had for many years and put it into good use...Having lunch and dinner together, watching tv together, and other normal thing that a family do, is what we are aiming for... Daddy has never taught us to live luxuriously (we created on out own). He teaches his daughters and wife to live moderately...Never be a show-off of what you have...
My family are unique in a way where we go through ups and downs together....Whether daddy used to be poor, mummy and his children were there and will always be there...

It has been a memorable days for him

Today is the Boyfriend's last day at work as his contract has ended. He has been sad for the past few days thinking that he would have to leave his colleagues of 1 year. The boding that he and his friends created made him moved and sometimes wonder why can't he be with them. It happened to him before when he was working in CIMB. When comfort, relationship came to live, some thing will come and attack and perish it away. So, I told him. 'Don't worry, you can still meet them during futsal gam'...He said ' Its not that, its just that, I'm so comfortable over there with friends to laugh and giggle with'....At few second, I felt moved as well. And it made me wonder that next year will be my turn. Plus it was MJ's funeral (1am to 3am, M'sia time).It was an event full of heart-breaking performance. Sometimes I think, it take us ages to actually grown but it only takes a few minutes/second to be dead...When I was with the-Ex(he's a jerk, he don't deserve any girls in the world), I see everything in balck and white until I found the Boyfriend. He treat me with respect(except the part when he jokes, he's a cannibal you know)...He make me feel special...I'm not trying to brag about him but it's true. And you know what, I never thought that the both of us could last this long....I wonder....Was watching through YouTube on MJ's memorial service. It shed my tears...Damn... I'm not a fan of his actually but the effort of everyone on remembering him. He's somissed...Now that he's gone, I myself can feel the weirdness that he no longer there..It's strange. Imagine his fanatic fans out there....

Somethins stinging at your butt as I can feel it so clearly

I'm having a stressful mind blowing time now. Today's post will be in red color and I don't feel at ease now due to someone,seriously, I feel annoyed. So much annoyed which I will not mention her name here. Because she's a human being. Okay, if someone asked you to do a favor for them and if they mistakenly done wrong, will you show them the correct way on how to do it. Of course...But this one particular person, she'll keep calling and instant messaging me on the mistakes and I myself keep on saying sorry for hundreds of times. She will give instructions, and you have to obey them. Like sticking a huge banner. What bloody hell do you think I am, while you, comfortably sitting at your chair, looking at your computer and so-called doing your work, busy as a bee. Like I care. Is your butt that heavy to just, once in a while help me out with these chores. When I'm not around, is it hard for you go floor by floor checking the pantry. or maybe you feel humiliated for doing low-class job?Just because you're graduated from oversea??...Please sister, your qualification is the same as mine. The different is you're doing it in another country. At the end of the day, this multi national company is not yours. You only have a few percentage of stocks in them. Everytime when I wake up in the morning, I'll be thinking... "Damn, will have to see her face at work"...But when ever you're not around, I feel so happy and free. I believe you don't follow the rules 100% as you're human, sister. Not a robot which had been programmed to do certain task and does not have that 'naughty' feeling. I know you feel so 'big' as you've been a resident of this company for many years but that does not mean that you're big enough to tell me what to do. You've got to loose yourself sometimes, you know. Not everything is about rules...It has never been satisfy in your eyes for what ever things I do.It feels sick, you know and lame. You're the worst supervisor anyone can ask for. I called that bloody self-absorb... If I was given a chance, I will not work in this stupid MNC company. Full of racism...Cut throat la sis.

Republic of Singapore, there they go

Spent the weekend with mum and her friend from Singapore. Childhood friends actually for the past 40 years. Wow.. I wish me and Alla will be that way also. We rented a car and I drove them around. Tiring but fun. Leaving the Boyfriend alone at home to clean the house.Hahaha. Cna your boyfriend do that???One in a million. I love him so much more..

Me, mummy and her friends went for dinner on Friday and spend most of the time talking to each other. Updating each other. It waas nice though. They went back yesterday evening by SilkAir. Kind of missing them already. Felt attached to them even they were here like a week. Mummy wanted to cry, I know. So did I. But I tried to restrain myself.

I'm boring right now. Jessie's gone for her teambuilding. Thank God. No one will get on my nerve. Only her department. Sadly. I don't have the mood to blog actually. I was moved after watching Tribute to Baby Eliot on YouTube. How far a mother willing to go to cherish her child even they're gone and live only 99 days after birth. It was heart moving. Perhaps we think that our mother don't care about us when one of the siblings get what they want and we think we are the left out one. I never believe when people say their mother don't love them. 9 months of pregnancy, the pain that she has to go through, it will be a lie if a mother tells you that she don't love her own child. I too, sometimes, felt annoyed when my mum used to nag me but when I moved away from home, I do miss her nagging, sometimes....

Its Friday, people

It's 9.21am. I guess this is the earliest time I ever blog. Well, its Friday and I'm kind of happy as tommorow will be weekend. Not much work to do...at the moment. Later going out for lunch with the Boyfriend. 2 hours break today babes...Actually there's no where you can go in Penang. Its just a small tiny island where you need only like 3 hours and you're done exploring it. I finished it ever since 2004.hahaha. With one of my bestfriend, Alla. She's going off to Sabah for training. I missed her a lot. We used to do a lot of things together, you know. It was fun back then.
What could possibly they have in Sabah. Well, at least its betetr than Perlis. I guess so.

I do need a break like this. A calm, cosy clear water scenery. Lazing on Sunday by the seaside with loved ones.Well, its gonna be just a dream. Sad...Anyway, I'm thinking of what to wear to my ex-college prom night. Even though I graduated last year October. Most probably I will not miss it. Of course I'll be going with my beloved Boyfriend and best friend, who else, Khang Wei. Hahaha. Both of them will make you laugh your ass off, I tell you. Maybe this year I'll be wearing a maxi dress. Not too sure...or maybe a dress??Gorgeous isn't it...

Indie

I was watching, there's this one group names Kollaboration on YouTube. They were awesome. You should watch it. They are like a group of freelance singer who produces their own music line. Their artist are so HOT and talented. By the way, I'm quite bored currently. So been watching all this independent music record label and to say they are outstanding and even more creative. They fund own their own, you know. Oohh, btw, one of my friend got a job in Hard Rock Hotel, Penang. Isn't that awesome...It triggered me to apply as well but my mind was blown off by the Boyfriend. He said, why am I always keep changing jobs...Hahaha. It sounds nice when people asked you.

Someone : Ei, Yong...Long time didn't see you. still studying or working now.

Yong: I'm working d la.

Someone : Ooo izit, where you working now?

Yong: hard Rock Hotel

Someone : Fuyoo... Ei, but which department and what position?

Yong : Finance department as account executive.

See what I mean? Rather than

Someone : Ei, Yong...Long time didn't see you. still studying or working now.

Yong: I'm working d la.

Someone : Ooo izit, where you working now?

Yong: Intel la

Someone : Fuyoo... Ei, but which department and what position?

Yong : Admin assistant

Someone : Permanent or what??

Yong : No la, where got. Cotract 1 year and not renewable.

Apart from that, they'll send you for training in the U.S. I'm sooooo jealous...best part is you get to eat free food in canteen. Save aside for shopping...hahaha...Anyway, I'll try and see how it goes. Don't wanna put hopes on it. Plus, I don't feel fun or motivated and whatever they call working here anymore. Its dull and kind a repeatative job and most of all, it has nothing to at all with what I studied last time....Nothing comes close to similar...At all...Lame and boring.

Moderate Wednesday

A true friend is the one that sticks with you when everyone else doesn't
by Becca

I felt as if its already Friday but it is stil Wednesday. I feel soooo depressed. I'm not looking forward to go to work when ever I wake up on Monday morning. As like the world stops moving. OMG....

When ever I step into the office, my mind will be thinking. There'll be complains again today, as usual. These people are sooo nerd and lame.

Talked to one of my best friend, Alla yesterday. She poured her heart out. Amazing friendship for more than 10 years. Wow!!. I'm lucky to have best friend on one side and a true lover on another side. Nothing else to complain apart from having such a lovely family except not having enough cash for shopping.haha. Girll will always be girls...

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Anyway, weekend was fun. Me and boyfriends watched Transformers last Saturday and it was so awesome. It is worth watching twice. Boyfriend did mentioned about watching it for the second time. Human traffic are so conjested!!! You won't believe it. Boyfriend bought Premiere class and it was so sweet. We bought it one week earlier and it was powerfulllllll!!!. It was actions from the beginning till the end and I concerntrated throughout the movie. It was filled with humor as well.

Someone IMed me and told me that there are ants on his chair...He's is so lame.OMG. I can't believe it. So I went over his cube and I see nothing. Maybe because the ants got frighten by his attitude. He looked like a nerd and awful. And when I said he can call CS, he said what is he supposed to do by then, keep the ants with him. Look on how rude and annoying he sounded. I felt like slapping his face off his computer.

Laughing out loud

I was watching Friends and half way through I was laughing. Damn la. I'm thinking of buying a red dress or any stricking color dress. Anyway, I'm boring. Very boring.

I got this pic from some webpage. Kinda like this dress. Pair it with a clincher. Thought of finding something like this.

Not much story today as you can see, it's raining a few minutes ago. Took this picture in Level 3 at my office. Coincidently I was in Level 3 to check the condition of the cubes for restoration purpose. It used to be empty. Jessie's in PG12 for meetings and training. What meeting??I'm not sure. Intelians always have meetings. Craps...Boring...

Anyway, I called daddy this morning, he said Uncle Sim and Auntie Jennifer are coming for a holiday next week. They'll be spending the next few days at my place(Perlis). So daddy asked me to meet them at Penang Airport as courtesy. They're my family's close friends since before I was born. They were mummy friends in Singapore. Very close friends.I can't recall when was the last time we met but I remembered it was in Singapore, previous Hari Raya. Damn,it was way back. I'm kind of excited to meet them actually.

Random pictures taken from last week

seeing their faces is like having to swallow poison

I'm back in the office after 3 days of holiday. I feel so lazy. the Boyfriend is on leave. When I woke up this morning, I was thinking, why can't I be Billgate's kids.Not having to go to work or maybe I'll be working with him in his company. So that I don't have to deal with the lower rank employee like what I have to deal at the moment. Fussy and annoying. That is the only 2 words I can describe about them. No motivation at all to even open my eyes every morning. Boring job but I have no choice. I asked the boyfriend to post the customer's items just now. He did it. Wow...Audy called me regarding his insurance thing. I said I agreed.

Nothing much happen for the past few days except the part when I actually mistakenly taken the Boyfriend's house key back to my hometown. Damn..He'd have to drive back all the way from Penang to take it. He was piss off...I'm so sorry, B.

I feel extremely moody today and I don't know why. Maybe because I know that I would have to see those mooroons face. Pathetic...

There are a few things that I would want to achieve in 2009/10 :

1. To further expand my online business
2. To have more savings
3. To cut short on shopping( which sounds impossible, but I'll try)
4. To be a better daughter, sister and girlfriend
5. To go for my Masters'
6. To get a better job that requires me to apply what I've learnt in my study years

Everything sounds achievable but knowing someone like me, it will take a little extra effort to achieve it.

Winners take time to relish their work, knowing that scaling the mountain is what makes the view from the top so exhilarating.

Denis Waitley

I don't have the mood to work right now. I feel very bored and I don't think that I'm practising what I've learnt in my university years. I'm very sad, not exactly that sad la but I were to study hard last time, I would have been in my final years by now in pursuing medicine. I kept remisnicing the past when I was doing my A-Levels.Looking at my sis excel in her academic and curiculum made me a little bit of envy. Thinking why can't I be in her position. I still remembered, when I got my result back in 2003, I cried and wouldn't want to go out to celebrate. I was ashame of my result compared to my other class mates. But daddy advised me to go for finance and find an affordable college that suits me. Therefore, I ended up in UNITAR (where I met my best friend, Kamini). We've been together since first year of uni. It was hard at first as seeing all my friends had the offer to study science while I'm the only one end up in art streme. I remembered crying almost everyday due to the regrets I had in me. I'll call my best friend and pour my heart out. Luckily she's not sick and tired of listening to my complains. There, I met Kamini She knew that I was a slow learner. She taught me everything step by step. She'll scold me when ever I'm absent from classes. We do group study almost everyday in campus or her house. It was the best years. If I were to rewind back, I would love that and never regret.

Now, everyone has their own life, some work in bank, hotel, tax company and etc. I'm proud of myself now as I've achieved what I thought I could never got. Even it means different from what I dreamt when I was a little school girl. Evrything happen for a reason. For my case, I learnt the hard way...

I'm going home

The writer is back at her hometown.

Everything is green and fresh.

Updates soon.

something reminds me

Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.

Henry Van Dyke

Dear blog,

Today's story would be about someone and people who changed my life in many ways. Imagine how can a person change you life from good to bad or bad to good. They're humans like us. Amazingly, God created creatures with feelings and capabilities to think and do stuffs. Not many of us actually grateful on that. We tend to take advantage on the small things that slip through our eyes until the day when we realise, it's too late and there's no turning back. I had a few rough times for the past few days that make me very down and full of anger. Kind of. I worked in an environment where people are being paid high and their job are basically sitting on the chair, talking on the phone, looking at the PCs. Creating a whole new thing that the company believe could change the world. I'm basically doing the odd or cleaning up their 'shit'. No shame to tell.These people never knew that people like me do exist and people like me has help a lot in bringing up the company. Without people like me, all the small things like collecting newspaper, ordering lunch and dinner for them, attending to their nonsense, craps and etc, or having to listen to their complains(everyday!!!). It is sick. I'm not trying to complain but just to flip the facts. At the end of your contract, they'll do a small fairwell party for you. Saying that they'll miss you and what so ever.

When I took over a girl's job back in April'09. I attended her fairwell lunch. Held in the biggest conference room in my office. I did not feel sick when looking at those faces. But after having to stand on my own, I couldn't even stand by just hearing their voices. It actually make me feel disgusted. Honestly... The people took and still taking advantage on people like me. They set in their mind that they'r are the bosses while people like me has nothing to be qualified of. They don't know that...

I msged my senior that I might be late to work as working hours here are quite flexible...For some:-). And she replied by aksing why I'll be late. I said I overslept. When I reach work, she instant messaged me saying that my supervisor asked why I'm late. I'm just trying to be really honest. But the Boyfriend said, honesty will never bring you further. How far is honesty importance in today's living style??

Well, I've leartn many lesson for the past many years, but sometimes we keep repeating the same bloody mistakes.But why?? Even though the previous mistakes smacked us right in front of our face. Even myself. I don't deny that.

But I believe, human will never ever apprecaite what's good in their life until dreadful things comes to you. Then all the memories of the good things will swift before your eyes.

Hell nooooo....

'How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.'

Annie Dillard

Anyway peeps. I remembered watching Drag Me To Hell last Saturday. It was a mvie make your bump jumping on the cinema seats as the movie fill with surprises and suspense through out. 3 stars I give. For those who has heart attack, better not as you'll spending your last moment dying in the cinema even if it just started.

I think many of us could still remember this cologne which Tommy produced many years back. Well, I'm currently using it only when I go to work. It doesn't last long actually. I have another one that I seldom spray. I can't find the picture. It's pink in color. My favourite color. Bought it years back but the bottle is not even 1/4.

Aaahhh... Remeber the old school perfume. Very strong smell and it stick to you like a glue. I don't relaly like it but it still finishes.

Its Monday..

Well, it is Monday..starting of the week. Where everyone's not into it... Went for movie yesterday

Blood: The Last Vampire.

The movie was ok. For those who loves Manga shouold watch this blood sucker movie. The heroin was a cute young girl by physical appearance(she's actuallya 400-year-old demon-hunting vampire slayer). Kinda hotfor a 400-years old girl. Can I be a vampire....?hahahha.

Skip the story, I went back at &pm last Friday.Pathetic...All because a greedy pig boss. Last minute job given to me. What can I say. He's the boss. Selfish and fussy.I hate him. With Jessie's absent, I felt everything is so hard as the responsiblitilies are great. Imagine if I were a CFO in a big MNC company, guess I'll crack in stress. But because this is a last minute job, I blamed them. Not that I can't do but I've never done it before. Emailed me without proper instruction. But when I replied, it's always delayed but he put it as priority. Damn it... Don't wanna loose my mood because of this.

It's Friday...weekend's tommorow!!!

I was excited yesterday. I opened my mailbox hoping that the clincher that I bought arrive and to my wish, it did. I was happy. I opened it up before reaching at my doorstep...So no-patience..haha..I ordered black. It fits me well. I can't wait to wear it tommorow for an outing with the boyfriend..So that night, I showed the boyfriend what is clincher...And he goes 'I don't know what is that la'. I laughed....hahahaha...

Daisy clincher.I ordered black color. Courtesy of

http://thekookything.blogspot.com/

I loved it so much!!!. Anyway, went out for lunch with the Boyfriend as we have 2 hours break today. Went for Tomyam fried rice...mmmmm...delicious. So now it makes me sleepy plus air conditioner. Very fullfiling... Anyway, today is quite a bit lame and down for me.