i miss my family and boyfie when i'm sick

Today is my second day of having fever. To be honest,I feel like going back to my hometown. At least there's daddy and mummy to take care of me. And boyfie is not around as well. I miss him a lot. Extremely a lot. The house has been very quiet lately. No one is at home. House mate is away. So its just me and myself. Went out for lunch with Fifi and BFF. Don't know what to eat. Then went to Popular book store. Bought myself a sketching book and a whole set of magic pen. Reached home, sat down at the table and start drawing. Imagine how pathetic my life is!!!! Worst part is the TV has die on me. Not sure when am I gonna buy a new TV.

B, please come back faster. I really miss you a lot....

Lucky that BFF is in Penang or else I'll go crazy. Even though I'm sick, I have to do everything on my own..It sucks, you know...Now I know how it feels when there's nobody to help you to do anything especially when you're sick...First day when I had fever, I actually cried..Because I miss daddy, I miss mummy and I miss boyfie very much. I had high fever and I was scared as well. Scared that in case anything happens, no one will be at home to help me...

fever visited me

Picture was taken quite some time as I didn't have time to actually upload. It was roughly a month ago. We had lunch in Fridays. Boyfie ordered his favourite steak and I ordered mac and cheese something. Can't remember the actual name. Looked good in the menu but it came in a big potion. I can't exactly finish it up so boyfie took some.

Picture was taken when we just arrived in Gurney Drive soon after we had our dinner. Its been a while since the both of us actually hang-out till late a night. We went back around 3am.Gosh. reached home and called boyfie but there was no answer on the phone. So I assumed that he was sleeping and I was correct when I called him again the next day. He was down with high fever. And today it is my turn.Had high fever in office since morning but I did not went back as I didn't want to go back home half way through.

As you can see the picture above, I was wondering why on earth does people like her has the 'courage' to actually put on an outfit like that. Gosh, pain in the eyes..I bumped into this girl when I was sitting by Gurney Drive with BFF,Alla. We were actually waiting for our movie to start at 11pm. It was on Saturday night and just so you know that boyfie was in KL at that time. I didn't mention to BFF but I know eventually she'll read this post..Hahahaha

sure enough worth fighting for

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse (curse)
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt.

Is it better? Is it worse?
Always sitting in reverse
It's just like we're going backwards.

I know where I want this to go
We're driving fast but lets go slow
But I don't want us to crash no.

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's' worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

Now everyday ain't gon' be no picnic
Love aint no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark.

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

I don't know where we're heading
I'm willing and ready to go.

We've been driving so fast
We just need to slow down
And just role.

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh).

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
It's worth having, it's worth fighting for (Oh...).

Happy Mother's Day mummy

Wishing you a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
Moga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki.

Thank you for all that you have done for our family.

Those sleepleess night you have during years of taking care of us.

Those sweat that we caused while waiting for us to finish school.

While waiting for us to finish our music class.

The dishes that you prepare for us for lunch,dinner and breakfat.

And everything.

We love you,Mummy!!!

One of the people I care most

Well, as you can see on the title, the man in the picture is the man that I would want to spend the rest of my life with. He's peeeeeerfect in every way except when he jokes:-) (he thinks that I'm big in size)..Hahaha.We've been together for the past 2 1/2 years and still going strong. And throughout these years, he showers me with care,love and affection even though he don't say it out loud (guys and ego are a set). If you ask me whether is he worth it? I'll say yes because I bet you that I might not find someone like him. He cheers me up when my day is terribly bad and stood by me when I almost falling apart. He accepted my clause and never once complain. He put me first on top of his priorities. He make sure that I'm safe everytime I'm with him. He takes good care of me when I'm sick and even though sometimes he nag, it's for my own good.

I always pray that both of us will last forever and I never want to set my eyes on another man, not anymore.

I have my insecurities, and he gave me an assurance. He's loyal and faithful and it is hard to find that kind of man in this modern days.He respect and accepted me for who I am. But sometimes, when things goes wrong, worry starts to haunt me. Worry that I might lose him to someone better. I know he won't cheat as he is not a 2 timer man. Like I said, he's loyal and faithful.

Everyday I look forward to see him after work, go for a simple dinner or movie. And he don't mind if I wear my sleeping attire for the dinner as long as I'm comfortable.And he prefers my bare-face instead of make-ups all over. I do wear light make-ups for certain occasion. Make-up and girl are one:-).

I just want him to know that, even though sometimes we argued about the smalls things, but I want him to know that, I'm looking forward to a better life with him, through sick and health and through rich and poor. I'll never dump him for any other man and he's the only man in my life apart from daddy.

Putting into words about his characteristic won't be enough as the list will never end. But what is put into this blog is sure enough to explain how good he is in my eyes.What epople think,does not matter because at the end of the day, I lead my own life not anyone else. And when you're in trouble, these are the people that you'll think of first.

boyfie is old enough to get married

Well, 30th April was boyfie's birthday. We went out to Gurney Plaza with his colleague as well. Watched Iron Man 2..It was crowded..Holy s***...And saw a few people that I wish I don't bumped into...I didn't even say hi...Well, past that off...

Anyway, movie started at 10pm.. So all of us met up in 7th floor for dinner...7 of us left from 12 of us who should be attending the dinner and movie...Then, at a very last minute, 1 attendee canceled the movie-date...That's it.. So during movie, only 11 of us left...So after movie, we didn't know where to head..Club???It will be jam pack as it is labor day and Monday will be a holiday as a replacement holiday for 1st May that falls on Saturday...And I can say, club is the worst place to be during any public holiday..Place will be damn humid,hot,sweaty adn uncomfortable...People will bump into you escpecially drunkers, they will talk nonsense....And I don't like that...So everyone decided to have a drink at Sega's GP...We sat there from 12.30pm till 4am...We were the last customers left and pity the waiter, they have to wait for us to leave...We talked, we laughed, we talk, we laughed...Hahahaha..It was a good exercise for my mouth...

I woke up at 2pm the next day feeling so 'freshhhhh' and lazy!!! It' s been a while since I last had my 'good-night' sleep... Then, me and boyfie headed to QB and my GOD, the jam was longer than a giant caterpillar and then only I remembered that it was public holiday..So I told boyfie to park at open-parking lot instead of having to line up to get carkpark....no way..We ate Nando's for lunch and the crowd was 'full-filling'..We had to dashed through 'oceans' of people...And guess what, sales was everywhere and my jaws dropped down but because of the overcrowded humans, I wasn't that keen to lineeeeeeeeee up just to pay my shopping stuff..So we went for a walk...Postponed my shopping to the next day...

BFF is coming to town

As happy as I can be. Bff said she's moving in to Penang this weekend...Woohhoo..Have compnay for gossip and stories..No need to spend my phone calling her anymore...Just an sms or surprise meeting at her house...And to that b****, me and BFF gonna kutuk you till you drop...Bloody b****...We don't f***ing care whether you're gonna die or almost die...Whatever *snap*...

Today can be consider good for.Calls were quite good.

God, please give good health and panjangkan umur my parents

Good to be back home last weekend. But sadly, I had only 1 day to spend with the family. Didn't meet up with friends as time was limited for me. So this time around, I spent the 1 day I had with mummy,daddy and adik and as usual adik has to go for her tuition. It feels so good to be back home. Nothing better to compare.I feel different this time. Felt more attached to the family. Help mummy with house chores. I can see that they're not as strong as they used to be. Wrinkles on the their faces and hands..How fast I grew up...I can still remember house daddy used to run around the house playing catching with us but now he can't barely walk to the kitchen..He looked so tired...Mummy as well..I pray to God to give me strength and courage to work hard so that I can afford to take good care of them like how they used to do it...Sebak rasa hati...

I can't imagine how my life and world would be without them...Even when I lost grandma, it felt so heart-broken,apatah lagi mak bapak sendiri...I rely on them for their encouragement and support..They provided me everything to make sure I have what I have now...I feel very blessful and greatful for the achievement I got today...I used to give up in almost everything I do but they gave me moral support and push me harder...

I always pray that God will always panjangkan umur my parent so that they can enjoy a good life. Just sit back and relax. I really miss them a lot. I've been having this kind of fear. Fear that I'll get a phone call one day from someone to inform me that they are gone...

Yesterday, when daddy sent me to the bus station, I salam him and feel so sebak. I didn't cry though but berat sangat hati nak tinggalkan family. Mummy didn't tag along as she followed the neighbour to the supermarket. I salam her first before she went off, she didn't look at my face but I gave her a kiss on the cheeks. I shed some tears....It was very hard to leave them yesterday and I don't know why..

when we were young

Well, I believe that most of us went through a very rebellious years when we were teenage. And yes, I did too but compare to the rebellious behavior with today's teenager are totally different.

When we were young, the things that we did really upset our parents but not to a point where it made our parents speechless or not bothered anymore. But today youngsters are so lucky, they have handphones at the age of 12 years old, PSP at the age of 10, nintendo Wii at the age of maybe 15 and best part is few weeks back, I was at a mall with boyfie, so we were chatting and I saw a girl who's using a Sony Ericsson that is worth $2000 so I showed boyfie and he said 'See la, parents nowadays really spoil the kid'... Part of it I agreed but what about kind that comes from a good upbringing but still end up spoil????You can't blame their friends or peers..Yes, they maybe easily influenced by many things when they are 16 but what are the reasons??? Family? Friends?..

it feels good to be back

Well, pictures tell a million stories. As you can see, I looked happy right? Yes indeed. Being able to go back home after few months of 'hard labor' is definitely a good therapy. at least this is what I need. A break from the stress and tension of work. I miss boyfie at the same:-(

Anyway, reached home and put down my bag. Lazing around in the room with air condition on. Soothing...aarrgghh..Feels like giving in my resignation letter and just relax...As if like the money will just 'rain' on me...How good if it does.

Oohh how I missed home cook food. Ate mummy's cook,fish and vege...It is simple but there is nothing more delicious than your own home cook dish.

Work is tiring and there are times where I really gave up and just want to walk away from everything..It was stressful week last week...

BFF is moving down to Penang and she got transfered from Putrajaya...Woohoo...At least we can meet often now...I'm so happy...I have boyfie and BFF in the same place and at the same time.. At least I have more company...

even if we just met

Well, how time flew so fast and some of my colleagues are going off pursuing their dreams. Even though I have just join the team but I felt close to them especially Rina, Winnie,Sam. Winnie looks garang but she's nice and very motivational. I fell comfortable working with her. The pictures above was taken during Rina's farewell dinner which was yesterday. it was fun. We had the dinner at a Japanese restaurant. Food was ok but because we often have Japanese so it feel muak sikit. I reached there at about 8pm. Drove from the office.

And today Rina cried as she said she misses the friendship she has long built.I wanted to cry as well earlier but I 'tahan' my tears. It was quite dramatic. I'm going to miss her dearly actual fact as she jokes alot and teach me a lot of things. Everyone is leaving and I feel all alone over here. Honestly....Sadly...

Been going back quite late lately due to heavy workload and due to learning on how to use our new order management system.I can tell you that it is 'awesome'.

Anyway, going back to Perlis tomorrow and looking forward to a relaxing weekend.

This picture was taken 1 week back. It was Mona's engagement day in Kulim...Me and boyfie got lost while trying to find the venue of her ocassion...God knows where..I thought Perlis was dull, you couldn't imagine how dull can this place be compare to Perlis.Anyway, we started our road trip at about 7.30pm and reached there at about 9.30pm...Imagine that...Lucky there was food left for us. The first thing I did was,I find her and give her the tightest hug and guess what,we both cried...Aaww...She was a good friend of mine...We used to stay together for about 3 years. She was the best housemate ever. Yes, we do had our arguments,but we made up in the end. But it was fun.I miss her a lot.If I were given the chance to stay with her again,I'll definitely say yes.

Out with the group and good friend's enagagement

Went out with BFF Khang and Fifi to QB after work. Sent food to boyfie first.He didn't joined along as he has class to attend.Sad...Anyway, went for lunch with them and then later on met up with Riana and Yazid...As usual they're 2 hours late..We expected that...Fifi bought Forever 21 big clutch, Elianto mascara and Etude eyeshadow...I bought a Forever 21 bow belt...Black in color..Its like RM9..Value for money...wanted to buy skinny jean,RM119 but boyfie said how many would I want to wear...True....I have tonnes on jean but I only wear just a few...What a waste of money....

Then boyfie and me went to Mona's engagement party in Kulim...The journey was ages,and we got lost for almost 2 hours...But upon reaching there, I went straight to meet her...FYI, she was my ex-housemate and a good friend of mine.We had a lot of goodtimes together..I miss her a lot.. We were very close back in college years...her fiancee is sooo handsome...Mona, I was just kidding, but he is handsome...Hahahaha...I cried when I saw her...tears of joy...The last we met was many years back, right before she moved out after finishing her diploma studies. But we still keep in touch through sms....Well, she's gonna get married in December and will be moving to Ipoh with her husband...I' going to miss her dearly...She helped me a lot....
Yes, we do have arguements sometimes but we still remain good friends...

when customer says 'This is bullshit'

I'm not sure has anyone get a customer that says 'Look, this is bullshit' before???? I do and almost everyday..Some say worst than that..Honestly...It is sick and tired...To those customer out there, it's not my fault if what you see and what is available is not the same...We can't keep on offering the same...We are doing our job...And remember that you are not Bill Gate that has your own company..You're just an employee like me who rely on your company for your montly pay. You're nobody so its better for you customers to watch what is coming out of your mouth...Don't be a rude asshole..Think twice before you want to say anything....

after weeks of struggle

Well, its been 3 weeks of hell. Been working 6am shift for the past like...3 weeks??? But I enjoyed because no one will disturb and I get more calls ;-).

I'm blogging from my office actually.Calls are low and not much things to do.Had Indian food for lunch. Elizabeth's mum cooked and it is delicious....Maybe because I prefer Indian food.

Khang's in Penang.Will be going out with him later on. Together with Fifi as well. Boyfie is not sure yet as he has class later in the afternoon but I asked him to skip the class...So bad of me...

Interview was ok last week but I won't put much hope actually....One thing went wrong but I'll keep it to myself.Kind of embarassing to tell the whole world...Most of the interviewees are like...30 plus and some are married.I think I'm the youngest one...I was the first to be called. Interviewer was a girl and a guy...Pretty friendly...Most questions are about myself, on why do I choose MBA and what will I benefit from the course...I 'goreng'everything out...Said what ever that comes across my head at that point...You should see the look of my face...Blur,fake and nervous...I wore baju kurung...Konon nak tunjuk ayu la.

BFF got her Government posting at Majlis Keselamatan Negara. Her first day was on Monday(5th April)..I called on that day..She sounded excited though...Girlfriend, I hope you'll find yourself a cute and handsome guy...Most important is a guy that loves you for who you're and takde pasang2 ok...I'll always pray for...I love you babe...

It's already April and I'm looking forward to May and June.Not that I'm gonna get married or something.Will update you guys when I get the news.

happy easter 2010

Wishing everyone a very Happy Easter 2010

The after gamble

Well, its been 2 weeks since my trip to Genting Higlands with my previous team members. FYI, boyfie tag along and you won't imagined what happen in Genting....I threw up!!!... But it was fun though. And we went to the casino...first time for me and boyfie. It was cold but as the place is small, so there's not much things to do...We spent our time eating...BURGER KING...And boyfie bought 3 pieces of burger back to Penang...There's no BK in Penang....Lame...

Well been working hard for the past 2 weeks and has been a very hectic week for me..Time is running fast as well.....

Missing the family a lot lately..Called adik and daddy few days back..Hhmm..

Got an interview for my masters intake next Monday.very nervous but not sure what to expect for the interview. I've never heard of interview for master's study before in my life...

Looking forward for a better week next week...Fingers crossed...

typical people around us

Well,just finished talking to a customer...Normal routine..Looked through some of the post posted in FB.Some sounded weird,lame,ridiculous,arrogant...Well too many to list down.. But above all, I'm happy to see some of them are happily married, getting married not including those who got divorced...I'm sorry to hear that.Not sure when will it be my turn.But not anytime soon...

I've started reading finance books and magazine. Starting to be a bookworm as used to in uni. Fingers crossed hoping that my master application come through.

Nothing much to blurp actually.I miss my hometown and my family.The last I went back was 4th day of Chinese New Year..I took a 5 days leave that ended me regretting for not paying a visit to grandma's place.It was a disaster...Seriously...

I'm currently planning getting my blogshop up and running for the next few month to come. As I mentioned earlier in my blog that I want to work from home.Well this is what I like I guess. Being entrepreneur..Don't have to crack my head everyday at work...

my heart is pouding fast

Thing has not been great for me since last month. Firstly I lost the car key, then the housekey and my handphone. God, I pray to you to give me the strength to go through all this...

Since grandma passed away,everything seems dull to me.The only thing that make me laugh and smile are my colleagues, BFF alla, khang,fifi, dearest boyfie and the family. The rest is just dull. I don't really speak much now but because of my work nature, I forced myself to. I hold this guilt inside me for blaming myself of not having to visit my grandma and I never knew last year's Chinese New Year will be my last visit. If I knew things would work out this way, I would have gone back instead of pressuring myself for the money.

there are some thing money can't buy

It was a very sad day for the family last week as grandma passed away at her home in Seberang Takir, Kuala Trengganu. The worst thing ever happened to me in my entire life. I can't show how much guilt and regret I have. I was supposed to go back for Chinese New Year celebration as I do it every year but for this year instead of going back to visit grandma, I choosed to work just for the sake of the triple pay as it was public holiday...Therefore I went to work as usual and my shift was from 9.30am to 2.30pm.So happily thinking about the money, I ignored the time of celebrating the joyous day with the family...

So 3 weeks after that, on Sunday morning(7th march), I received a call from daddy saying that grandma has passed away..I was holy shocked and I cried instantly reminiscing the regret of not going back to visit her..I asked daddy again whether it's a prank or real...And he said, it is real and that they're going back to Trengganu the next day (morning). They came down that night and we went back early the next morning...Heart was pouding as I still hope that they're wrong...When we reach, I took a peek at grandma's coffin and tears came swimming down my tears..I couldn't hold my tears back and with full of regret in me...We sat for a while and about 5pm we checked into the hotel..Had shower and a change of new clothes...Waiting for the Buddha priest to come...part of the tradition...When the part where we have to go round grandma's coffin, I saw daddy was crying and it made me cry too...I grew up with her and I would call her once in a while just to check on her...

The 3rd was the day where she'll be bury..So we followed the car that carries her coffin to the cemetery ground... the worst part was when seeing they closed her coffin and bury her...We were hoping that she'll bang at the coffin case to tell us that she's still alive...But no sound....I hugged daddy and cried for the last time...

I've learnt the biggest lesson ever, money is really not everything...I'll carry this regret forever...