Had a very bad day today.
i'm definitely cutting my hair...it causes itch
I've made up my mind to cut my hair bob-short...I can't stand the itch anymore and I have hair-dropping problem. Was thinking taking post Spice inspired haircut.. Plus, i'm so lazy to take care of my hair nowadays..Lazy to blow dry...
I've been on short hairs previously...And I'm comfortable in it....I might go for the top haircut.
My day started ok....Boring as usual.So I browsed through which haircut I'll be using for this weekend...Mind you that I look mature in short hair...but cute (ahaks, *coughing*). Finished my meeting at around 12 just now. Went to cafe to buy my lunch. I packed my lunch up to my cube. Like I said, I have no friends here....Sad isn't it...
between my dreams and the reality...checked...
"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, and always with the same person."
- Mignon McLaughlin
Another day in the office with nothing to do apart from blogging...Lame and boring...The only friend I have is Munyis...But only through instant messaging...No physical friends at all..My life sounds pathetic isn't it...That's the truth...Well, I've been doing some thinking....about....you'll be shock....thinking about getting married but I'm not sure myself whether I'm prepared or not...I mean mentally and financially...The truth is I'm not financially stable....Mentally??... Hhmm.... only about 30%.... Well, I don't want to be a housewife yet....It is not like we're in the 70s or something....Women should have a career nowadays,not ending up spending your time and strength in the kitchen....Well, not that I don't like to cook for my family....if I have one but I wouldn't want to waste my years of studying like shit down the drown. I want to make something out of it....Give my little sister a better education, I mean...Maybe it triggered me to think about getting married as I see everyone that I know is starting a family of their own...
I have many things that I want to do and I think marriage will only get in the way between me and my dreams...I am a dreamer, I admit that but it doesn't stops there..I want to make it happen...I want to be someone big, powerful, able to make vital decision for the company, someone who will sign authorization letter, and any company matter will have to go through me, travel around the world, attending big meetings, and most important of all, having to own my first BMW....Amazed??? That is not even half of my dreams....See what I mean. If I were to get married now, can I achieve those things?? I don't think so...I don't want to be someone who thinks up to a certain level of satisfaction, I want to maximize what I have...
Saying is easy but executing them is another thing to think of...I have a very long way to go... Marriage is my second plan...Not at the moment...I've found the right guy but the time has yet to come...
Another entry : Well, some people just can't shut their mouth up...So annoying...Introducing Mr.V, the most annoying human being in my department...Heard that he got promoted, so he wants to perfom...His performance is making me annoyed...I hate him...And he look so sissy....
i smell envy and memories of the good old days
The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life.
Richard Bach
One of my cousin is getting married..Childhood cousin I can say...The theree of us grew up together,bathe together, slept together and get naked together...ahahaha...2 girls and a boy...The boy is in Australia flying school...I soon realised that everyone has grown up now..The three of us are no longer small kids running around the house....You won't believe what we did when we were young...It was fun...Even though we're far apart from each other, yet, the closeness is still there...How I miss those days...
Those pictures on top dated back in 2007. We celebrated hari raya there. We do that every year except this year. The one wearing wearing zebra stripe top is the one who's getting married... and the only solo male is her future husband...We were at Sentosa.The last I went was with her and my other cousins as well as my aunties...That was like more than 10 yeras ago...Phheeww... We were in kindergarten if I'm not mistaken...Sentosa is not like before.Many things has change...
i miss my hometown
Well, weekend wasn't so bad...Spent the weekends with daddy and mummy. Adik as usual, busy with her brass band thing...Took a bus ride from Perlis to Butterworth at 3.30pm and reach at around 5.30pm...The bus driver was 'extraordinary'....I was seated at the last row as the front rows have been fully occupied....The whole journey was a bouncy journey and I could not sleep at all!!!
The Boyfriend picked me up in Penang ferry jetty. Then, we decided to go QB as he wants to pay his credit card. We bought movie ticket (The Taking of Pelham 123) and ate TGIF for dinner. Which I regretted. I ordered SouthWest Mac and Cheese. A dish consist of grilled chicken strips with mac and cheese....It is nice but without any gravy except for the mac and cheese. So I don't really enjoy it. End up taking the Boyfriend's food....He ordered New York Strip with 2 side dish(cheesy mash potato and french fries)..After dinner we went to Jusco to shop for some groceries.
Below is a sneak peak of what The Taking of Pelham 123 is all about...Nice movie to watch..
A New York City subway dispatcher draws on his extensive knowledge of the subway system in order to outsmart a dangerous criminal mastermind who's hijacked a subway train in this remake of the 1974 thriller inspired by John Godey's best-selling book. Walter Garber (Denzel Washington) was drifting through his daily routine when he received word that a heavily armed gang of four has hijacked a subway train and are holding all of the passengers hostage. Led by cunning master thief Ryder (John Travolta), the gunmen will begin executing everyone aboard should the authorities fail in delivering $10 million in the space of just one hour. With the tension in the tunnels rising, Walter races to save the hostages before the shootings start. But through it all, there's one part of Ryder's plan that Walter can't quite comprehend: even if the thieves do succeed in getting their money, how could they possibly get out of the tunnels undetected?
~ Jason Buchanan, All Movie Guide
mother to be, a mother, babies
Well, I've been reading people's blog about their baby's development. When they were born, how, breatfeed and so on. It captured my interest, to be honet. Of wanting to have kids in the future. Who doesn't want one right...But at the moment, it is not the right time yet. First of all, I'm not even ready to be a wife...Well, wedding is something nice actually. Nice flowing dresses, pelamin, best part is the hantaran...Hahaha...
Well, as I mentioned in the previous post, I'll be going back to my hometown tommorow which will cause the Boyfriend to spend his weekend alone. For the past few days, I've thinking of going back to college so badly that I had the intention to quit asap...But I decided not as it won't look good for my CV...Just that one reason actually...I'm thinking of either to persuade my Masters locally or overseas....Well, it's not easy leaving someone you love behind...I feel so attached to the Boyfriend that sometimes, I'm thinking of leaving all my dreams behind just to be with him...But then again, I thought, these dreams has been with for the past years...I want what's the best for me and him and both our future...I want the both of us to live in a moderate life...A house, children, enough pension money and grow old together...I know that he's the one for me...In order to achieve all the dreams, some things have to be sacrifice, but the thing is,can both of us take the challenge...This might sound greedy, but I don't wanna lose neither one...I want both...It is impossible as long as you have the will,courage and most important of all, trust to through a long distance relationship...If it has to be that way...
It is almost lunch time now...Thinking of what to eat...Ms.J is leaving the office at 4pm later,as usual...Most probably I'll post pictures during my trip back to Perlis....
Well, as I mentioned in the previous post, I'll be going back to my hometown tommorow which will cause the Boyfriend to spend his weekend alone. For the past few days, I've thinking of going back to college so badly that I had the intention to quit asap...But I decided not as it won't look good for my CV...Just that one reason actually...I'm thinking of either to persuade my Masters locally or overseas....Well, it's not easy leaving someone you love behind...I feel so attached to the Boyfriend that sometimes, I'm thinking of leaving all my dreams behind just to be with him...But then again, I thought, these dreams has been with for the past years...I want what's the best for me and him and both our future...I want the both of us to live in a moderate life...A house, children, enough pension money and grow old together...I know that he's the one for me...In order to achieve all the dreams, some things have to be sacrifice, but the thing is,can both of us take the challenge...This might sound greedy, but I don't wanna lose neither one...I want both...It is impossible as long as you have the will,courage and most important of all, trust to through a long distance relationship...If it has to be that way...
It is almost lunch time now...Thinking of what to eat...Ms.J is leaving the office at 4pm later,as usual...Most probably I'll post pictures during my trip back to Perlis....
Thursday and 1 more day to go
It's Thursday today..How fast time flies without we noticing it...But still, it feels like the beginning of the week...Boring and dull...It rained yesterday afternoon, therefore I could sleep like a pig at night as it was cold...Too bad that I have to wake up at 6.30 to get ready for work...I thought of taking EL or MC (please note that I've never been absent from work without reason).. I got a mail from IT hosting informing me that someone delegated room booking task to me. It is annoying...I hate to see that kind of mail...Its like someone blackmailed you...That bad...
Today is not that good either. It is the same as the past few days. My mood still hasn't change. Boring and don't know what to do. Weekend's coming and I'm going back to Perlis. The Boyfriend will be spending his weekend by his own...Nothing much to do since Monday. Have been sitting around the computer, browsing through other people's blog...Fascinating you know. Some are hilarious, bitchy, colorful and etc...I'm trying to make mine interesting as well...I brought yesterday's food for my lunch. Packed from home...Sambal daging and white rice...Not many choice of food in the cafeteria....It's like hospital food...I bet theirs are much2 better.....*sigh*...
I'm trying to make a decision between keeping my long hair currently or cut it short...Hhmm..
Today is not that good either. It is the same as the past few days. My mood still hasn't change. Boring and don't know what to do. Weekend's coming and I'm going back to Perlis. The Boyfriend will be spending his weekend by his own...Nothing much to do since Monday. Have been sitting around the computer, browsing through other people's blog...Fascinating you know. Some are hilarious, bitchy, colorful and etc...I'm trying to make mine interesting as well...I brought yesterday's food for my lunch. Packed from home...Sambal daging and white rice...Not many choice of food in the cafeteria....It's like hospital food...I bet theirs are much2 better.....*sigh*...
I'm trying to make a decision between keeping my long hair currently or cut it short...Hhmm..
By the way, next month marks the starting of Ramadhan...I'm soooo excited to celebrate Aidilfitri plus we will be having a big reunion with my ex-schoolmates....OOhh, I miss my school days...Bad news is, I'll only get my duit raya from my parents as mummy said we won't be going back to Singapore for Raya this year because daddy's in Malaysia...This is the 2nd raya that the family will be celebrating in Malaysia....hhmm....Looks like the SingDollar that I've been collecting during raya every year no longer can be in my dream....
Photography and Ms.J's nonsense
Well, photography has been a phenomenal event nowadays. you can see these DSLR so-called camera around town...Seems nice...And you can make money out of it by turning into pro-photographer...But it is costly...One camera itself costs thousands...Even my own basic camera, I don't even use it anymore... Now has become a display in my bag...hahaha
I'm trying to find ways to make extra pocket money so that I can continue my studies, buy a house, a car that could bring me from Point A to Point B and petrol economical at the same time.. My best had bought a car for herself...I'm still with my good old bike but lucky I have a boyfriend that would take me from point A to point Z...ahahahahahaha...
Anyway, Ms.J is in office today. Damn it...There's always things that she would ask me to do when she herself, can do it....Lame...Giving excuse of busy...She's kind of annoying most of the time..When I first work with her, it was ok..Soon, it's like, 'You can't do like this' or 'Its not like this'...It is always those 2 words...Everything has to be in line...So annoying...
I'm trying to find ways to make extra pocket money so that I can continue my studies, buy a house, a car that could bring me from Point A to Point B and petrol economical at the same time.. My best had bought a car for herself...I'm still with my good old bike but lucky I have a boyfriend that would take me from point A to point Z...ahahahahahaha...
Anyway, Ms.J is in office today. Damn it...There's always things that she would ask me to do when she herself, can do it....Lame...Giving excuse of busy...She's kind of annoying most of the time..When I first work with her, it was ok..Soon, it's like, 'You can't do like this' or 'Its not like this'...It is always those 2 words...Everything has to be in line...So annoying...
Bookworm, work cube
Well, I'm looking at USM's admission, fees and course structure page. I've been thinking of going back to reading notes, exam and study related things..Like I mentioned in my previous post, this job I'm currently doing is no interest to me....I'm not saying that I'm facing a job-burn. Its just that..............................Well, actually, when I finished my degree, I did not expect I'll be doing administration work...It was out of the context of my imagination...I landed in sales as my first job when I was working with Maxis (Penang), last year October and quit on March 2009. I realised customer service cum sales is not my 'thing'. Plus, I could not get along with my boss....Soon, I decided to apply through employment agency (which I will not mention here) and they said they have a vacancy in Intel...I was so excited at that time. Imagining myself working in billions of dollars worth of chipsets...I thought it would be a glamorous job in terms of when people ask me where do I work....But soon, I realised, this job is not getting me any further...Boring and I don't apply what I've learnt in my college years...Its quite frustating... But yet, it is so hard to find job now and then due to the economic downturn since last year's June (approximately)....So I stick around for a little while just to see how it goes...But now, the 'stick around' method is no longer applicable as my heart is raging with boredom.
I've imagined myself having my own table (preferably my own room,hahahahahah), calculating numbers with my calculator. Calculating stocks, bonds and etc. Making tonnes of money. Drive a ....say...Honda within 1 year of my employment, buy a house within 2 to 3 years after that... Daddy always say I have a very high imagination but low in hard work...Hahahaha...Well, it's not wrong to have your own imagination but then again, God will not just dump things you imagine to your lap, you know....
Well, went for lunch with the Boyfriend as I don't know what to eat in cafeteria...Food are lousy. We went to QB foodcourt....Guess who I bumped into...Lionel and Fiza...Its been a long time since I last met them in college...Those times were nice and fun...Careless, free and no worries.....I miss those moments very much...I'm looking forward to attend my ex-college prom night actually...Plan to take lots of pictures that night for memory...College years are the best apart from my Secondary 5...It was memorable...No need details on that...hahaha. Watch movies, shopping, skipped classes, sleeping in the class and so on....But at least I've graduated... It was a hard lesson for me as I used to be a playful kid back in when I was in high school...
I've imagined myself having my own table (preferably my own room,hahahahahah), calculating numbers with my calculator. Calculating stocks, bonds and etc. Making tonnes of money. Drive a ....say...Honda within 1 year of my employment, buy a house within 2 to 3 years after that... Daddy always say I have a very high imagination but low in hard work...Hahahaha...Well, it's not wrong to have your own imagination but then again, God will not just dump things you imagine to your lap, you know....
Well, went for lunch with the Boyfriend as I don't know what to eat in cafeteria...Food are lousy. We went to QB foodcourt....Guess who I bumped into...Lionel and Fiza...Its been a long time since I last met them in college...Those times were nice and fun...Careless, free and no worries.....I miss those moments very much...I'm looking forward to attend my ex-college prom night actually...Plan to take lots of pictures that night for memory...College years are the best apart from my Secondary 5...It was memorable...No need details on that...hahaha. Watch movies, shopping, skipped classes, sleeping in the class and so on....But at least I've graduated... It was a hard lesson for me as I used to be a playful kid back in when I was in high school...
Down with fever, mood swing and quitting my job
Well, bad news on Monday..the Boyfriend is down with fever since yesterday. So bad and pityful. Anyway, weekend was 'ok'...Watched Harry Potter : The Half Blood Prince . We chose the midnight session and the earlier one was almost fully booked, only left the front row...I don't wanna add to my blidness!!!...The movie was ok..But too bas Dumbledore was dead...*sorb*.. Then went to QB for grocery shopping. We went out like 4pm++ and came back even before it reaches 6.30pm...the Boyfriend was very sick so he doesn't have the mood for window shopping... Sad isn't it...But neither both of us were eager during last weekends as we did not know where to go...Penang is an island you know....You'll only need like half a day to go through the whole island...Boring....Even if it is better than my hometown...Well, I'm going back to my place this weekend...Yahoo!!!!..I'm so excited...
Today is quite dull and boring...I'm forever on Monday blues,as long as I have to work here. I'm starting to get boring with this job...Well, USM intake for masters will only be next year(for by coursework)....I can't wait you know...
Some people just love to brag what ever they do, have or own..Keep it to yourself la sister...You're not the only one who has have everything in life...
I feel sooooooooo mix up today and I don't know why..I don't feel like going to work today actually. But then, I forced myself up even I'm sleepy due to lack of sleep yesterday night..I itched the whole night...stupid bed-bug......
Today is quite dull and boring...I'm forever on Monday blues,as long as I have to work here. I'm starting to get boring with this job...Well, USM intake for masters will only be next year(for by coursework)....I can't wait you know...
Some people just love to brag what ever they do, have or own..Keep it to yourself la sister...You're not the only one who has have everything in life...
I feel sooooooooo mix up today and I don't know why..I don't feel like going to work today actually. But then, I forced myself up even I'm sleepy due to lack of sleep yesterday night..I itched the whole night...stupid bed-bug......
a break that snapped and late for chores
The Boyfriend rode the bike early in the morning to send me to work and guess what, my bike's disc break snapped...Perfect isn't it...First was, I had no mood at all to go to work today as I know there will be chores waiting for me...Secondly, I was very sleepy, and lastly, I hate to see Ms.J's face...!
So I called my ex-college mate, he was sleeping. So I called his gf to call him. And he called back. But he said, there won't be any shop open at that time (7.30am!!, great). At the same time, I called another friend, but he was on his way for a training. Forget it. But the Boyfriend was determined to search for a shop. So we went round and round and at last found one...I paid RM25 for the disc pad...It was gone!!!...Anyway, the mechanic said that maybe someone tried to steal by disc break before. Because the plate was a bit slunt. So guess someone might have tried to knock it out...Too bad, he couldn't make it. Before we went and search for a bike shop, I noticed that my bike was missing a screw that suppose to tie my disc break with the absorber ( I think that's the name)..Well...I'll have to be more careful after this...
Well, it's 11am..I felt like time flies very slow since yesterday except when I was sleeping..but the good news is, its Friday...woohoo.....Raya in 2 months time and puasa is next month...Green packet waiting for me!!!!...hahaha...
For the past few days, I've been thinking of going for a vacation maybe in New Zealand. Sounds interesting place to visit aite....But...who to go with....??
So I called my ex-college mate, he was sleeping. So I called his gf to call him. And he called back. But he said, there won't be any shop open at that time (7.30am!!, great). At the same time, I called another friend, but he was on his way for a training. Forget it. But the Boyfriend was determined to search for a shop. So we went round and round and at last found one...I paid RM25 for the disc pad...It was gone!!!...Anyway, the mechanic said that maybe someone tried to steal by disc break before. Because the plate was a bit slunt. So guess someone might have tried to knock it out...Too bad, he couldn't make it. Before we went and search for a bike shop, I noticed that my bike was missing a screw that suppose to tie my disc break with the absorber ( I think that's the name)..Well...I'll have to be more careful after this...
Well, it's 11am..I felt like time flies very slow since yesterday except when I was sleeping..but the good news is, its Friday...woohoo.....Raya in 2 months time and puasa is next month...Green packet waiting for me!!!!...hahaha...
For the past few days, I've been thinking of going for a vacation maybe in New Zealand. Sounds interesting place to visit aite....But...who to go with....??
KL or Jakarta and people who are full of shit
I went through Nelly's FB and saw picture of her in Jakarta and Surabaya. Went with his darling, Delon..hahaha. I saw a sneak peak of Jakarta ( I think so) shopping mall. F***ing huge!!!!!! F***ing awesome...Shopping heaven for me!!!..So few days back, I suggested to the Boyfriend.
Me : B ar, why not we save some money, then go for a Jakarta trip
Bb : Hah?? for what. Wait kena bomb or what. Don't want la
Me : I saw in Nelly FB, the shooping mall is so huge!!!
Bb : So you want to drag me to go for shopping and spend my money?? So the part where you said we save money means, save my money then we can go rite..?
Me : *Smilling*
But, previously, the Boyfriend and I and a few friends planned to go for KL trip but everything went down the drain...!!! Same goes to Paint Ball...Even the paint ball center which located right in front of my house (walking distance), has closed down...Bloody full....
I've been noticing that everyone I know is getting married and the question that I always encounter is 'Ei, when is your turn la?'..Hhmm...Well, I have no idea...me and the Boyfriend still have a long way to go. Marriage is not something I have in mind..................yet.
Indeed, the Boyfriend understands me well....I guess so...
Additional post over here...Working in my current company is full of shit as the people here are full of crap....Imagine eating shit, worst than that...Honetly speaking...If I am a millionaire kid or some future heiress, I would certainly quit right now and stand in from of their say shouting :
I quit!!! And you know why? Because all of you are full of crap and nonsense. You can eat your own f***ing shit as I don't need all this shit as I have enough shit to handle and care in my life. You all are just selfish, self centered species without any brain!!! Moorons!!
Not so exciting but yet still moody today= job burn
There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.
Well, I feel a lil' bit down today. Dunno why...Ms.J is back in office..Felt sick...uurrgghh!!! Plain, dumb, straight woman. I don't like her. She always critisize my work. What ever I do is not enough for her..Everything has to be in line, I mean according to the rules including how I send email. Pathetic and it get to your nerve isn't it...I feel stupid... Currently I'm having a mood swing when ever I'm at work. Is that a sign showing that you're getting bored with your job...For me, it looks like that. So I browsed through recruit.net. A website which was recommended by the Boyfriend's friend. You can find thousands of job. Basically, it's a website that compile all jobs/opening/vacancy from all the employment websites like JobStreet, Jen job, Man Power and etc. You can even search for job in China and Australia and a few other countries which obviously I can't remember. The Boyfriend said I have a brain of a goldfish because golfish can only remember for like 2 second...Isn't it cute....
I do feel like searching for other job prospect but then it won't look good in my CV. My first job was in Maxis but quit after 4 months of working. the reason is.....can't get a long with the boss. But money was good though. Then again, daddy said, good money comes with high responsibilities. I never think of that until the first day I stepped into Maxis. It was nighmare!!!..But I got the chance to meet different kind of human species. Some are demanding, annoying, nice. It tested my patience...Damn...First day at work, I cried when I reached home and I called daddy. He said, 'I thought so'...Hahahaha...Funny to think about it but it was a lesson to learnt.
And now I'm stuck in my current job. First impression when I went for the interview...'Wow, the place is so clean and everything are so organized.This is how MNC company work'...But, it was a whole lot mistake...AGAIN....I kept reminding myself...'Work for the sack of your resume' 10000 times, everyday..Do you know how it feels to see nerds everyday, to hear unrelevant complain through your ears everyday, to have fullfill these nerdies need everyday, to handle their nonsense everyday????? Some of their request doesn't even seem to be logic!!!! They think they're one of a great hell engineers..ya rite......How can they have brains like what they have now...It is sick, you know...
You know what, I'm always complaining about almost everything in my life...Sometimes I forget that I still have good things in my life...A perfect family, a perfect Boyfriend, a bowl of rice that I can eat, a bike, a place to stay..But it never been enough for a normal human being...
Anyway, I browsed through my favorite online shop *Pumpkin* and spotted this baby doll-like dress. Very cute and flowy.
dolly lace
For credit card and for movies
Well, weekends gone by so fast and here again 6am, I'll have to wake..Soooo sleepy.Weekend was ok as I spent it by going to the movies with the Boyfriend. We watched Public Enemies and Obsessed. Well, overall, the movies was ok. But Public Enemies(main character: Johny Depp, he's sooo drop dead but I don't fancy him ok) starts a bit slow. Actions in the mid of movie. Its 70s concept movie actually and based on a true event. It plays on how a man escaped from a jail and commit robbery over and over again until he was finally caught. Half way before, he fell in love with a hotel girl. She work as a girl who collect jackets, bag and etc to be store away upon request by customers. She stood by him no matter what happened. It was a bit of drama. For the girls who doesn't fancy 70s, old machine gun, no fast car, its not a movie to watch...Bet ya, you'll sleep even befor the movie starts. I don't mind though.
For Obsessed, its a story about Derek Charles (Idris Elba), who works in an investment company. Married to Sharon (Beyonce Knowles) with one kid. They just moved into their new house as it is nearby to Derek's office. Soon came a temp staff named Lisa(Ali Larter from Heroes series).. replace Derek's assistant as he was out sick. She starts stalking Derek, all the things he's worked so hard for are placed in jeopardy. Its quite a nice movie to watch but the beating part between Sharon and Lisa was a bit short but hell ye, you'll see how powerful was Beyonce's punch...
Well, for the next movie, I'll be waiting for Harry Porter : The Half Blood Prince even though I missed out most of the previous one..Another news is, I just saw pictures of Sentral Collegenew wing open ceremony (previously was my beloved study center,hahahha).
The tutors were great though but the students are kind of 'backward'...
Good Friday, wedding gown and I stapled my fingers..Gosh!!!
I told you about the story of my family yesterday. Well good news for you peeps...I just wanna tell you that...today is Friday!!!!!!!!!! Yehahhhh..Funny ain't i?? Who doesn't like Friday. Guess what, I stapled my finger yesterday and it sound stupid. How could a person stapled his/her own finger???Tell me anyone. I told the Boyfriend and he nod his head. He said 'It's not a big deal as you're prone to disaster, so its normal'...So I'd had to eat with fork and spoon
Hhmm..A friend of mine(Ryan) is getting married in this short period of time...At last...OMG.. I feel happy for him.He must be a great bf and a husband-material type and best of all, he's a great friend..We used to laugh and chat as we worked in the same company previously...He and his soon-wife-to-be looked so match made in heaven...I was wondering, when is it gonna be my turn.OK ok I know...I said in the previous post that I'm not thinking about getting married as I have many other s things to do...Well, looking at the pretty wedding gown, 3 tier wedding cake, cute little wedding invitation card, make me feel...wow, so beautiful...But then again, marriage is not just pretty things.It's about commitment of life between you and your soon-to-be husband/wife. It need patience, tolerance, loyalty, faith and etc...My friends used to tease me 'Ei Yong, I bet that you'll be the first one to walk down the aisle'...Well, she's the one who got married first...Now with 3 kids...
Tommorow's weekend and Tuesday is holiday as well (replacement for a public holiday on Saturday)..No plan(s) as I'm broke... Anyway, planned to make chicken sandwich for dinner out of a 3 day Ayamas that I bought...Haha. Anyway, went for lunch with the Boyfriend. I ate Ayam Goreng McD.. Then we went around QB as it is 2 hours break every Friday. Went to Gurdian to see whether our cleanser (Neutrogena Deep Clean cleanser) has value pack or not...Well, we're facing a serious recession, so everything has to be in value pack except when it comes to shopping!!!! No way I'm gonna give up on that, no matter what... But nothing...Same goes in Watson.
Hhmm..A friend of mine(Ryan) is getting married in this short period of time...At last...OMG.. I feel happy for him.He must be a great bf and a husband-material type and best of all, he's a great friend..We used to laugh and chat as we worked in the same company previously...He and his soon-wife-to-be looked so match made in heaven...I was wondering, when is it gonna be my turn.OK ok I know...I said in the previous post that I'm not thinking about getting married as I have many other s things to do...Well, looking at the pretty wedding gown, 3 tier wedding cake, cute little wedding invitation card, make me feel...wow, so beautiful...But then again, marriage is not just pretty things.It's about commitment of life between you and your soon-to-be husband/wife. It need patience, tolerance, loyalty, faith and etc...My friends used to tease me 'Ei Yong, I bet that you'll be the first one to walk down the aisle'...Well, she's the one who got married first...Now with 3 kids...
I looked up through Yahoo! on Vera Wang wedding gowns a few times since the past few months. Their collections are so eye catching..but pricey though...I prefer colored wedding gown instead of the conventional plain white gowns. With less beads and decor on the gown without overly sexy...Just enough to show my body shape..For me, simple is the key to sexiness..Just 2 to 3 tone color will do. Compliment with a beach front view or garden view wedding...Perfect match...And honeymoon in Paris(in my dream)..Who know, dream could come through...
you raised and you supported through pain and suffering
When I was just a little girl, I ask my mother, what will I be,
Will I be pretty, Will I be rich,
This what she said to me,
Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be,
The future's not us to see,
Que sera sera
Remember that song. A song which most of your mum would sing to you before bed or your kindy teacher will play it through cassette in school (in my years, cassette is something which makes people go, "wah, she got cassette ar")... Anyway, close that kindy story (I'm a nerd in kindy)..I grew up in a less-moderate lifestyle..At that time, my dad only owns an old Yamaha C60 bike ( I think so) and that's is the only mean of transport that we have until he bought a Ford Laser(more than 10 years and still is apart of the family) from my uncle. He bought it through hard-earned money way back when he was working in Kota Bahru, Kelantan. Even before he got married with mummy..Before he worked in Kota Bahru, he used to work for a optical factory in Singapore (that's where he met mummy through a friend)...Sound soooo sweet. They dated around 10 years(that's what mummy told me) then they got married in 1983 and mummy gave up everything including her career and family just to be with him despite his disabilities. Her friends and family members even asked her to rethink on the consequences. They're afraid that daddy could not provide everything that she need but she put those things a side.
Then, daddy got a job in Kota Bahru(that's where my origin comes from, sad isn't it)..Mummy stayed in Singapore until daddy got us a rented house( we still keep in touch with the landlord until today and we visited them last Chinese New Year as I insisted to). they were very nice. But the rented house that daddy got is not like what you imagined...It was a two floor kampung house. At first we rented the ground floor (it was so small, it can only fit a single bed and a tv). At that time, we didn't have a TV. TV was considered as a luxury item at that time. Mummy couldn't get used to that kind of lifestyle as she was quite well brought up. I was born in year 1984, a few months after I was born, that was the hardest time as daddy got retrenched (only chinese were retrenced as racism was normal at that point of time)..We had no money to even buy milk for me and mummy would have to lend money/milk powder from the neighbour. Luckily, they were kind enough to help us. I was the only child and luckily.. Daddy was out of job for about 6 months until a big-offer came 'knocking' at the door. His previous boss (the company which retrenched him) called and asked whether he's interested to work in a diamond company but the catch is , he would have to based in overseas ( means that he would have to be apart from the family)..Mummy agreed as we had no choice...Daddy started hard(as an under paid labor) but he never give up (for the sake of the family in Malaysia).. He worked hard thought out many years and got promoted as a supervisor...From there, recommendation came 'raining' down on him and numerous job offers just 'flew' into his lap. Then he was offered as a manager (also in diamond polishing) in Perlis (where we settled down)... So daddy brought the whole family to Perlis ( where I met my best friends, Alla). And that's when my sis was born (year 1994). She was born in Kedah actually. Daddy drove all the way to Kedah Medical Center as mummy insisted to have her labor over there...45 minutes of hell-ride...
Anyway, we rented a house at first. Then a chinese man asked my dad whether he's interested to buy his house (his house was well taken care of..lucky)..Properties were cheap at that time. Daddy agreed and used his 'years'of saving to pay for the down-payment. And paid the installment for only a few years. Then, the factory that daddy worked in, would have to shut down and everyone was retrenched. But daddy was one of the lucky ones as some of the diamond polishing companies in overseas offered him different position (but good money babe)...until today (now he's half retired,haha)...
The family used to being a way from him most of the time...But we managed to keep the bond closed with the help of today's tech (amazing isn't it)...The love between our family has never change,fade, lessen...It actually makes us even stronger.. To be honest, my dad has a disabilities. his leg are smaller on the left ( he got polio when he was small and my grandma did not know what is polio so my dad did not get any polio injection).. But I was never ashamed of that (except when I was small as I don't know what really happened to my dad, he said he got knock by a hockey stick..bad girl). Instead I'm very proud of him as he has done things beyond his capabilities and beyond what a normal person could actually do. Whether its physically or emotionally. He never gave up... I remembered when I was in Secondary 3, he beat me up because I ignored mumy's advise...It was the beaten of me life and that was the first time daddy ever got real pissed off..... Then I saw him crying to himself in the kitchen and he said sorry. From that moment
A 10 pages blog or a 300 pages book will never be able to describe how much pain our family had to go through, how much sufferings we have to feel, how much love and support our family has provide to each other...Nothing can compare a love of a father and a mother... They've given me the best of what they can afford...Daddy taught her childrn to be strong, prepare for the worst and be humble and kind...He said, sometimes, it is ok to cry. Men do cry but silently, they don't show. They are a species with high ego attitude. Daddy is a soft-spoken person while mummy is the nagging type but for our own good. Daddy has the patience to teach his children.. Basically we learnt all the good things from daddy and maybe some from mummy...Well, through my parent's effort, I'm now graduated from college and adik will be having her PMR this year. She's independent as daddy taught her that way as well...He said show good example to the younger one... And whatever happens, she's still you sister...And you can't deny that...
Daddy has always been the hero in the family while mummy is his sidekick. We learnt what is the real meaning of life basically from him. What we are today came his hard work to raise the family, to provide what's best for us and give the best of what he can. He conctantly remind us to be grateful of what we have. Never compare yourself with others. Instead try to compare yourself with those who are less fortunate...But now, travelling to overseas, having 'tonnes' of money to spent, is not something the family are striving to. We just want to spend the time that we never had for many years and put it into good use...Having lunch and dinner together, watching tv together, and other normal thing that a family do, is what we are aiming for... Daddy has never taught us to live luxuriously (we created on out own). He teaches his daughters and wife to live moderately...Never be a show-off of what you have...
My family are unique in a way where we go through ups and downs together....Whether daddy used to be poor, mummy and his children were there and will always be there...
Will I be pretty, Will I be rich,
This what she said to me,
Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be,
The future's not us to see,
Que sera sera
Remember that song. A song which most of your mum would sing to you before bed or your kindy teacher will play it through cassette in school (in my years, cassette is something which makes people go, "wah, she got cassette ar")... Anyway, close that kindy story (I'm a nerd in kindy)..I grew up in a less-moderate lifestyle..At that time, my dad only owns an old Yamaha C60 bike ( I think so) and that's is the only mean of transport that we have until he bought a Ford Laser(more than 10 years and still is apart of the family) from my uncle. He bought it through hard-earned money way back when he was working in Kota Bahru, Kelantan. Even before he got married with mummy..Before he worked in Kota Bahru, he used to work for a optical factory in Singapore (that's where he met mummy through a friend)...Sound soooo sweet. They dated around 10 years(that's what mummy told me) then they got married in 1983 and mummy gave up everything including her career and family just to be with him despite his disabilities. Her friends and family members even asked her to rethink on the consequences. They're afraid that daddy could not provide everything that she need but she put those things a side.
Then, daddy got a job in Kota Bahru(that's where my origin comes from, sad isn't it)..Mummy stayed in Singapore until daddy got us a rented house( we still keep in touch with the landlord until today and we visited them last Chinese New Year as I insisted to). they were very nice. But the rented house that daddy got is not like what you imagined...It was a two floor kampung house. At first we rented the ground floor (it was so small, it can only fit a single bed and a tv). At that time, we didn't have a TV. TV was considered as a luxury item at that time. Mummy couldn't get used to that kind of lifestyle as she was quite well brought up. I was born in year 1984, a few months after I was born, that was the hardest time as daddy got retrenched (only chinese were retrenced as racism was normal at that point of time)..We had no money to even buy milk for me and mummy would have to lend money/milk powder from the neighbour. Luckily, they were kind enough to help us. I was the only child and luckily.. Daddy was out of job for about 6 months until a big-offer came 'knocking' at the door. His previous boss (the company which retrenched him) called and asked whether he's interested to work in a diamond company but the catch is , he would have to based in overseas ( means that he would have to be apart from the family)..Mummy agreed as we had no choice...Daddy started hard(as an under paid labor) but he never give up (for the sake of the family in Malaysia).. He worked hard thought out many years and got promoted as a supervisor...From there, recommendation came 'raining' down on him and numerous job offers just 'flew' into his lap. Then he was offered as a manager (also in diamond polishing) in Perlis (where we settled down)... So daddy brought the whole family to Perlis ( where I met my best friends, Alla). And that's when my sis was born (year 1994). She was born in Kedah actually. Daddy drove all the way to Kedah Medical Center as mummy insisted to have her labor over there...45 minutes of hell-ride...
Anyway, we rented a house at first. Then a chinese man asked my dad whether he's interested to buy his house (his house was well taken care of..lucky)..Properties were cheap at that time. Daddy agreed and used his 'years'of saving to pay for the down-payment. And paid the installment for only a few years. Then, the factory that daddy worked in, would have to shut down and everyone was retrenched. But daddy was one of the lucky ones as some of the diamond polishing companies in overseas offered him different position (but good money babe)...until today (now he's half retired,haha)...
The family used to being a way from him most of the time...But we managed to keep the bond closed with the help of today's tech (amazing isn't it)...The love between our family has never change,fade, lessen...It actually makes us even stronger.. To be honest, my dad has a disabilities. his leg are smaller on the left ( he got polio when he was small and my grandma did not know what is polio so my dad did not get any polio injection).. But I was never ashamed of that (except when I was small as I don't know what really happened to my dad, he said he got knock by a hockey stick..bad girl). Instead I'm very proud of him as he has done things beyond his capabilities and beyond what a normal person could actually do. Whether its physically or emotionally. He never gave up... I remembered when I was in Secondary 3, he beat me up because I ignored mumy's advise...It was the beaten of me life and that was the first time daddy ever got real pissed off..... Then I saw him crying to himself in the kitchen and he said sorry. From that moment
A 10 pages blog or a 300 pages book will never be able to describe how much pain our family had to go through, how much sufferings we have to feel, how much love and support our family has provide to each other...Nothing can compare a love of a father and a mother... They've given me the best of what they can afford...Daddy taught her childrn to be strong, prepare for the worst and be humble and kind...He said, sometimes, it is ok to cry. Men do cry but silently, they don't show. They are a species with high ego attitude. Daddy is a soft-spoken person while mummy is the nagging type but for our own good. Daddy has the patience to teach his children.. Basically we learnt all the good things from daddy and maybe some from mummy...Well, through my parent's effort, I'm now graduated from college and adik will be having her PMR this year. She's independent as daddy taught her that way as well...He said show good example to the younger one... And whatever happens, she's still you sister...And you can't deny that...
Daddy has always been the hero in the family while mummy is his sidekick. We learnt what is the real meaning of life basically from him. What we are today came his hard work to raise the family, to provide what's best for us and give the best of what he can. He conctantly remind us to be grateful of what we have. Never compare yourself with others. Instead try to compare yourself with those who are less fortunate...But now, travelling to overseas, having 'tonnes' of money to spent, is not something the family are striving to. We just want to spend the time that we never had for many years and put it into good use...Having lunch and dinner together, watching tv together, and other normal thing that a family do, is what we are aiming for... Daddy has never taught us to live luxuriously (we created on out own). He teaches his daughters and wife to live moderately...Never be a show-off of what you have...
My family are unique in a way where we go through ups and downs together....Whether daddy used to be poor, mummy and his children were there and will always be there...
It has been a memorable days for him
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Today is the Boyfriend's last day at work as his contract has ended. He has been sad for the past few days thinking that he would have to leave his colleagues of 1 year. The boding that he and his friends created made him moved and sometimes wonder why can't he be with them. It happened to him before when he was working in CIMB. When comfort, relationship came to live, some thing will come and attack and perish it away. So, I told him. 'Don't worry, you can still meet them during futsal gam'...He said ' Its not that, its just that, I'm so comfortable over there with friends to laugh and giggle with'....At few second, I felt moved as well. And it made me wonder that next year will be my turn. Plus it was MJ's funeral (1am to 3am, M'sia time).It was an event full of heart-breaking performance. Sometimes I think, it take us ages to actually grown but it only takes a few minutes/second to be dead...When I was with the-Ex(he's a jerk, he don't deserve any girls in the world), I see everything in balck and white until I found the Boyfriend. He treat me with respect(except the part when he jokes, he's a cannibal you know)...He make me feel special...I'm not trying to brag about him but it's true. And you know what, I never thought that the both of us could last this long....I wonder....Was watching through YouTube on MJ's memorial service. It shed my tears...Damn... I'm not a fan of his actually but the effort of everyone on remembering him. He's somissed...Now that he's gone, I myself can feel the weirdness that he no longer there..It's strange. Imagine his fanatic fans out there....
Somethins stinging at your butt as I can feel it so clearly
I'm having a stressful mind blowing time now. Today's post will be in red color and I don't feel at ease now due to someone,seriously, I feel annoyed. So much annoyed which I will not mention her name here. Because she's a human being. Okay, if someone asked you to do a favor for them and if they mistakenly done wrong, will you show them the correct way on how to do it. Of course...But this one particular person, she'll keep calling and instant messaging me on the mistakes and I myself keep on saying sorry for hundreds of times. She will give instructions, and you have to obey them. Like sticking a huge banner. What bloody hell do you think I am, while you, comfortably sitting at your chair, looking at your computer and so-called doing your work, busy as a bee. Like I care. Is your butt that heavy to just, once in a while help me out with these chores. When I'm not around, is it hard for you go floor by floor checking the pantry. or maybe you feel humiliated for doing low-class job?Just because you're graduated from oversea??...Please sister, your qualification is the same as mine. The different is you're doing it in another country. At the end of the day, this multi national company is not yours. You only have a few percentage of stocks in them. Everytime when I wake up in the morning, I'll be thinking... "Damn, will have to see her face at work"...But when ever you're not around, I feel so happy and free. I believe you don't follow the rules 100% as you're human, sister. Not a robot which had been programmed to do certain task and does not have that 'naughty' feeling. I know you feel so 'big' as you've been a resident of this company for many years but that does not mean that you're big enough to tell me what to do. You've got to loose yourself sometimes, you know. Not everything is about rules...It has never been satisfy in your eyes for what ever things I do.It feels sick, you know and lame. You're the worst supervisor anyone can ask for. I called that bloody self-absorb... If I was given a chance, I will not work in this stupid MNC company. Full of racism...Cut throat la sis.
Republic of Singapore, there they go
Spent the weekend with mum and her friend from Singapore. Childhood friends actually for the past 40 years. Wow.. I wish me and Alla will be that way also. We rented a car and I drove them around. Tiring but fun. Leaving the Boyfriend alone at home to clean the house.Hahaha. Cna your boyfriend do that???One in a million. I love him so much more..
Me, mummy and her friends went for dinner on Friday and spend most of the time talking to each other. Updating each other. It waas nice though. They went back yesterday evening by SilkAir. Kind of missing them already. Felt attached to them even they were here like a week. Mummy wanted to cry, I know. So did I. But I tried to restrain myself.
I'm boring right now. Jessie's gone for her teambuilding. Thank God. No one will get on my nerve. Only her department. Sadly. I don't have the mood to blog actually. I was moved after watching Tribute to Baby Eliot on YouTube. How far a mother willing to go to cherish her child even they're gone and live only 99 days after birth. It was heart moving. Perhaps we think that our mother don't care about us when one of the siblings get what they want and we think we are the left out one. I never believe when people say their mother don't love them. 9 months of pregnancy, the pain that she has to go through, it will be a lie if a mother tells you that she don't love her own child. I too, sometimes, felt annoyed when my mum used to nag me but when I moved away from home, I do miss her nagging, sometimes....
Its Friday, people
It's 9.21am. I guess this is the earliest time I ever blog. Well, its Friday and I'm kind of happy as tommorow will be weekend. Not much work to do...at the moment. Later going out for lunch with the Boyfriend. 2 hours break today babes...Actually there's no where you can go in Penang. Its just a small tiny island where you need only like 3 hours and you're done exploring it. I finished it ever since 2004.hahaha. With one of my bestfriend, Alla. She's going off to Sabah for training. I missed her a lot. We used to do a lot of things together, you know. It was fun back then.
What could possibly they have in Sabah. Well, at least its betetr than Perlis. I guess so.
What could possibly they have in Sabah. Well, at least its betetr than Perlis. I guess so.
I do need a break like this. A calm, cosy clear water scenery. Lazing on Sunday by the seaside with loved ones.Well, its gonna be just a dream. Sad...Anyway, I'm thinking of what to wear to my ex-college prom night. Even though I graduated last year October. Most probably I will not miss it. Of course I'll be going with my beloved Boyfriend and best friend, who else, Khang Wei. Hahaha. Both of them will make you laugh your ass off, I tell you. Maybe this year I'll be wearing a maxi dress. Not too sure...or maybe a dress??Gorgeous isn't it...
Indie
I was watching, there's this one group names Kollaboration on YouTube. They were awesome. You should watch it. They are like a group of freelance singer who produces their own music line. Their artist are so HOT and talented. By the way, I'm quite bored currently. So been watching all this independent music record label and to say they are outstanding and even more creative. They fund own their own, you know. Oohh, btw, one of my friend got a job in Hard Rock Hotel, Penang. Isn't that awesome...It triggered me to apply as well but my mind was blown off by the Boyfriend. He said, why am I always keep changing jobs...Hahaha. It sounds nice when people asked you.
Someone : Ei, Yong...Long time didn't see you. still studying or working now.
Yong: I'm working d la.
Someone : Ooo izit, where you working now?
Yong: hard Rock Hotel
Someone : Fuyoo... Ei, but which department and what position?
Yong : Finance department as account executive.
See what I mean? Rather than
Someone : Ei, Yong...Long time didn't see you. still studying or working now.
Yong: I'm working d la.
Someone : Ooo izit, where you working now?
Yong: Intel la
Yong: I'm working d la.
Someone : Ooo izit, where you working now?
Yong: Intel la
Someone : Fuyoo... Ei, but which department and what position?
Yong : Admin assistant
Someone : Permanent or what??
Yong : No la, where got. Cotract 1 year and not renewable.
Apart from that, they'll send you for training in the U.S. I'm sooooo jealous...best part is you get to eat free food in canteen. Save aside for shopping...hahaha...Anyway, I'll try and see how it goes. Don't wanna put hopes on it. Plus, I don't feel fun or motivated and whatever they call working here anymore. Its dull and kind a repeatative job and most of all, it has nothing to at all with what I studied last time....Nothing comes close to similar...At all...Lame and boring.
Moderate Wednesday
A true friend is the one that sticks with you when everyone else doesn't
by Becca
I felt as if its already Friday but it is stil Wednesday. I feel soooo depressed. I'm not looking forward to go to work when ever I wake up on Monday morning. As like the world stops moving. OMG....
When ever I step into the office, my mind will be thinking. There'll be complains again today, as usual. These people are sooo nerd and lame.
Talked to one of my best friend, Alla yesterday. She poured her heart out. Amazing friendship for more than 10 years. Wow!!. I'm lucky to have best friend on one side and a true lover on another side. Nothing else to complain apart from having such a lovely family except not having enough cash for shopping.haha. Girll will always be girls...
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