nuffnangers
is that person trying to fake or show off or plain lie??
This is quite an old post I had in mind actually...Few weeks back, a friend of mine told me that she bought a shoe from some country(need not to mention here as it can serve as a clue ok), and also said that the shoe was bought around RM200++(price already converted)...Her friend bought it for her...I believed it....The next few days I was browsing through a few blogshop and I found the exact same shoe, same design at a very low price(need not to upload the picture ok)...Price is about Rm80++.........Could you see the difference??How far was it??????????...
I admit that her fashion sense is better than mine...I was shocked that I actually took the shoe's picture using my handphone and showed it to the Boyfriend.....I was like 'wth?'.....OK, what I want to know is, is she trying to brag or what????
high school people and the memories
on right : pah,husna and sarah
Behind row : lyn, pah, sarah,puteri and husna

Have a great weekend!!!!
diahornea, last minute work, map
People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.
Had a very bad diahornea since yesterday(woke up at 5.30am this morning to shit)...Came to work and took 2 packets of diahornea pills...
I think I've mentioned thousand of times that I'm so excited for my graduation...Rizki called me yesterday...I said if it wasn't about the convocation, I guess he'll forget me as a friend... He useless ass...Do things at the very last minute...So kanchiong....
Delon emailed me as well asking me for map to PICC...and asked which hotel is the nearest..He'll be bringing Nelly and his parents....
Cooked ayam masak bawang and ate with fried rice. Chicken was ok but too spicy..Hhmm...Went no where yesterday...No plans for the weekend yet...
Btw, Mr.V asked me to check all Xmas deco on all conference rooms. What the heck??? You goes in and out of the room everyday and walk pass by them everyday..Can't he take it out??? Am I that 'maid' to him?..Gosh!!!
adrenaline rush!!!woohoo
Will be attending the graduation dinner with Khang on Friday nite..Might be going by cab... Guess...I hope I'll be sitting at the same table as him or else I'll have to act dumb because I know no one there....Lina will be there as well...Same goes Kamini and the rest........I'll be wearing mummy's baju songket(maroon in color) as the theme will be traditional...Good...I was thinking of wearing something else...Even on the actual day, they require us to wear traditional again... Lame isn't it....That's the hated part...But its ok actually as you don't have to think what to wear...
Came to the office as usual...Facebooking...So not good as it is call 'addiction'...I wonder how many people would die to have a job like mine...Hhmm...'Gaji buta'....hahaha....
I'm so excited to start my work at the new company...I just need the money for my blogshop... After that, I'll be my own tauke....hahahaha...Fun...Then I can just work from home and let the Boyfriend crank his ass off working...
Well, life has been great for me after the awful breakup 2 years back...Slight arguments, sobbing is normal...A relationship will never be perfect without those small setbacks.....Was talking to BFF yesterday night and it made me think that how much of time, energy I have wasted on the previous relationship...I know I will never get those things back but what made me regret was, I never actually stood up for myself...I let him treat me the way he wants...Easy said to let go of the past but it never was easy...honestly....I met the wrong guy at the wrong time and at the wrong place...I knew that things will never work out at the beginning of our relationship but somehow, dunno why, I did not do anything....We have different views, goals and perspective s about our lives......If I were given a chance, I would want to slash him so that he'll know how does it feel to hurt a woman but I know it will never change anything...
current mode : drained, miss and love and random post


I feel so drained out with everything for the past few days. Work has been very boring and dull. I feel so drained that it makes me wanna sleep the whole day..That was what I did yesterday. Went back to Perlis last weekend and could not felt happier thanh spending time with the family and the Boyfriend...Last weekend was a special one...Celebrated mummy's birthday by bringing her to ikan bakar...The food was ok, but having the time to spent with the family makes the food tasted even more delicious...
Went to Dinesh's Deepavali open house yesterday nite. The food was awesomeness!!!..I was still eating when everyone else has finished their food...*Greedy pig*. Bumped into Yazid, Riana, Sunita and Abigail. Dinesh's house was freaking clean!!!!...We sat for a while, then went off as we need to buy some groceries in Jusco...Yesterday's lunch and dinner were free....Hahaha...I'm so lovin' it...
Thinking that today will be a working day, it makes me fell soooo...pissed off..Because I'll have to see these idiots faces....Ms.J messaged me saying that she'll be a bit late to work today as she has a doctor's appoinment...What ever!!!!
Planned to drop by mama's house this Friday as I have 2 hours lunch break...BFF called me yesterday...She's going through something that I went through last time...Ok, minus the beating part...*shame*....I'm meeting her next week as I'll be attending my convocation...I'm so looking forward to this...Best part is I'll be on leave for the next 3 days(not including weekends)....So bye-bye you moorons....And after that I'll have another4.5 days to go before leaving the company...
By the way, do you know what is an assiatant administration job is like???Does she needs to top up the pantry, do the pantry orders, decorating the building for festive season and what ever nonsense??...Well, that is what I do here..Plus the 'baby' complain from some employees make you feel demotivated...Honestly, it is more to a maid job..Honestly speakin'...
Its pouring heavily outside so I packed food from canteen...Cold and sleepy...
Well, was passing through the tea-corner(amazing isn't it that my office has a tea corner) as I wanted to go to the pantry to wash my utensils. The tea corner that I meantioned was not a tea-time corner..It is a chinese tea drinking corner...Saw a few bunch of employees sipping cups of tea, chit chatting away. I believed some of them does not agree in many things but each of them acted normally...I say 'two-face idiots'....2 tier of cabinet carried by me with a janitor's help was used to put tea accessories and dried teas that they bought from everywhere...no one even has the courtersy of saying thank you...They never even bother to even offer their help...Each cabinet weighted about 50kg+/-...and the janitor who helped me to carry it is about 60 years old...I hope you get when I said its kind of a maid job....Lame isn't it... they only know how to give order but others who have to execute the orders....I guess they never see assistant admin as a human but more to a bulldozer....
mummy's nite and the pictures says it all
at home
OldTown coffee



By the way, I bedazzled my camera with the gem sticker that I bought few days back..hahah.. the best part is I did it in my office and during working hours...Fun leh...I don't think I'm gonna have time to even daydream once I start to work in the new company...Got inspired by a blogger who bedazzled her PDA..It was cute...
bangkok, here we come.

Well, IMed Khang just now. Told him about my plan for a vacation in Bangkok as well as to buy some stuff for my blogshop. I told him that I wanted to get serious with m blogshop and if everything goes well, I might go fulltime on that...but let me be comfotable and stabile in my upcoming new job...I hope it goes well and i can catch-up with everything new...
I told him we're not going yet but we still need to plan so that we can buy some time to save up some money...I told him my budget is around RM1000 and he said it is way too high..I told him that it is because I need to buy some stuff for the blogshop as well...RM500 is enough for him, I said...And he agreed...He said at least can save some money and he need to apply for a passport..*shame*..I'm bad....
Anyway, another story is, went to GP yesterday note to watch G Force 3D. It was fun and hilarious and not to mention, they're so damn cute...I wish I could train Russell and Max to be super spy...That is so lame and impossible...So we reached GP at about 8.30...Went straight to the cinema to buy tickets and I thought I was clever enough to think that ticket was supposed to be cheaper as it was movie day (every Wednesday) and I was wrong...Pity the Boyfriend...Ticket still remain at RM30 (for 3D movies)...On teh way down, we passed by some small booth and some glitter sticker caught my attention..So I bought as attached in the above picture...Cut that...Then, we went to A&W as I was thinking of eating their special promo, rice with daging/ayam masak lemak cili api...It was superb but sadly they said the promo has ended...So I ate chicken waffle with curly fries and the Boyfriend ate double mozza burger with fries...We shared the drink....
Movie finished ata round 11pm...We stopped by Yunus maggi goreng and headed home....* islept like a pig*...
Another thing is, I've been working here for 6 months and some people still don't know who the should refer to for room booking. Isn't that sound f***ing lame...Am I invisible or what...??? I've cleaning up the pantry, walking down the hall to collect your f***ing submissions, go up and down to entertain your request, doing deco for the building and etc. This is a strong reason why I'm leaving this company..I can't tolerate these people's nonsense anymore...And heaven sake Mr.V, why would I not submit your expenses claim??? Will I get money in return if I sabotaged your claim...If you do not trust me, you should not have gave me responsibilities at the first place...Instead of asking me to do, it is better for you to do it yourself rite????....But it's ok, I'm leaving YOU soon and you'll have your peace of mind...and I pray that the new job I'm getting will be a lot better than here...
scatter through old pictures

i'm in the middle of the crossroad
I've asked opinions from a few people (daddy, the Boyfriend, Khang and Jay) and one thing in common that they said...'I can't make the decision for you. If you think you can handle it and easily adapt to new working environment, then take it. You can't be afraid of taking some rish forever'. Honestly, it doesn't help at all... But with the pay that I get now, I can't save...I'm going to further my studies and the possibilities of not wanting to take a study loan is high as I've already in debt with my current loan (RM30k++ to be exact)..How the hell am I gonna pay off this debt with the pay I'm getting now???
Plus, I want to be a good daughter(*laughing and coughing*)...I planned to give some money to mummy to be kept aside (i know they won't use it) so that I won't be a big-spender....And maybe save some for future use(marriage????)or rainy days....Not that I don't like my current job(aside with the annoying people), problem is I'm going no where and there is nothing to do with what I studied.. The new job offer pays quite a sum compare to current one but high pay comes with a great resposibility.
Updated version : handed in my resignation letter...Ok don't say anything. Talked to supervisor on my decision and she adviced me that made me thinking twice again...But at least I can get rid of my dead-end job and need not to see Mr.V's ass-face again...Btw, he complained to Ms.J that the pantry is out of sugar...Is he blind???Are you blind, Mr.V???..Whatever, I'm not gonna see you anymore after this...Say what ever you want.
weekend was random and mummy's upcoming birthday.



Well, watched Sorority Row on Saturday and Surrogate on Sunday. It was ok...Looking at the Sorority Row poster would definitely make you think that this is a lame cheap budget movie but wrong...It is a thriller movie and you should watch it...
I'm getting married....woohoo
Ok, a cousin of mine is getting married this month and I can't be there..*sorb*...I can still meet her for raya..which is.....................2010...Hahaha..We grew up together and do almost everything together...I missed those days when the 3 of us were having lotsa fun..I learned in line skating from them actually...It was scary...Damn scary...One of them will be holding me and another one will be oushing me slowly from my back...UURRGGHH....Everyone's growing up now...Don't know when is my turn to get married but marriage is not something you can fool around...You can't simply get a divorce if your feeling towards your partner is getting dull....FYI, its 2 years 1 days of our anniversary...I'm very excited on this actually....Never thought that me and the Boyfriend could last this long....
Its Thursday and I can't wait for Saturday to come..Not because I go hang out or what but to get a good sleep..
2nd anniversary

Dear Boyfriend : Happy 2nd year Anniversary...May our years and days to come fill with joy and happiness..I still used and will always love you. Thank you for the happiness you bring for the past years. Thank you for all the emotional support that you have given me through the tough time that I went through before. Thank you for being a listener and a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for standing up for me and being by my side when ever I needed you.
Yeay, today is my second year aniiversary with the Boyfriend. We wished each other twice (yesterday nite and this morning,hahaha)...So excited...Sadly we would have to differ our celebration to other day as $ is a concern now...Anyway, most important is we have each other.. Honestly, I did not think that we could make it untill today as we often fight with each other when we first declared our relationship...I see no future in it...Hahaha..But now, we are happily as it seem...Thank you God...I pray that we can bring this into another level...
I feel anxious, moody, sad, excited, etc..Dunno why and don't ask...the Boyfriend always says that I'm not good in controlling my emotions...He said when he first saw me in CF(working part time), I looked very snooby at first glance...Then later on, he said, I'm quite friendly. It is just that my face doesn't show it...How can I??? I have class from morning till evening, then rushed to workplace(did not have time to go back first), worked till wee hours, and sometimes when they're short of manpower, I'm the first one they would call and I never say no...I worked on Friday, Saturday and Sunday (days that supposedly partimers should cover but obviously, they're the demanding ones, bluek) and sometimes I worked the whole week;-( (bcoz it seems that these full timers are always on MC, wth)...But I'm ok with it as I thought 'Hei, why not help them,maybe they'll appreciate me'...But guess I was wrong...No one ever sees the good things I have done for them...So I quit the job....Cut the crap...
Chatted with Kamini just now and said there'a vacancy in PDC...Might be going to USM this weekend with Khang..No so sure yet...I'm so excited about the convocation...Plan to meet Lyna as well....This graduation is truly gonna be damn fun as my batch are graduating together. Will be going for the graduation dinner...OOHH, so happy...
its a total disaster and I need a break...seriously
I don't know why I feel so exhausted for the past few weeks...I don't feel like coming to work and feel very tired...Played with Max and Russell so that Max could get use to my smell...They're so cute...Anyway, I posted a reherseal video for prom nite'07...I did a mistake during the actual day...Usual me...Prom nite is around the corner and I don't feel like dressing up like usual mron dress..I'm thinking of flare grey color pants, a shirt tuck in and heels...Something chic I can say..
I have the pants, it needs to be alter..But I'm not sure whether I'll attend this year's rpom or not...The group are going I guess except Fifi...She's not sure yet..
Gossip people and movie


Ok, starts with the pictures posted. As you can see, me, the Boyfriend, Khang and Nazya went out for a movie...The Perfect Getaway...Directed by David Twohy. Cast: Steve Zahn, Milla Jovovich, Timothy Olyphant, Kiele Sanchez, Marley Shelton, Chris Hemsworth, Anthony Ruivivar, Dale Dickey....The movie was a thriller even though it was rated 2 stars by some reviewers...You should watch it...
I'm having headache of trying to edit my templates...
last day of the week and I'm waiting for the weekend
One more thing, Nazya and Khang were showing off their new hp E75 and I'm sooo jealous... Shoukd have accepted the Boyfriend's idea of wanting to buy me a new Sony Ericsson Xperia... I was stupid as usual ;-(.... Went back and I told the Boyfriend :
Me : B ar, I see Nazya hp very cantik la..When you have the moey, buy for me ar??
Boyfriend : Why wanna buy new one?
Me : Then? everybody have new hp..Some more now the flip type like IM phone is so in
Boyfriend : So what?? If I buy new one for you, you'll drop it and my poket only sakit.
Me : B ar, ayooo!!!
Boyfriend : Last time, when I wanna buy for you the Experia you said ' Nevermind B,my hp can still be use'. I know you'll regret one...
See what I mean...He can read my mind...*sad*
Last week and this week has been a tiring week... I hope it would be better next week...
i thought i was having dizziness...
Boyfriend: B, why the chair shaking ar?
Me : No la
Boyfriend : Ya la ( the Boyfriend sat quietly and I saw him craddling a 'lil bit...scary)
So I looked up at the ceiling and the fan was shaking. To confirmed again, I went and see the pail of water near to the kitchen to see whether it is shaky or not, and it did...Well, I panicked a while and opened the back door to see has anyone rushing down the stairs..No...Only a few families..It is not that bad when I first exeprience it back in 2005 or 2006 (I can't remember)...If you're moving around, you can't really feel..I felt dizzy but I did not say anything to the Boyfriend...I off the tv and asked the Boyfriend to go down...
Boyfriend : Ei, why you off the tv??
Me : Its earthquake la..Come go down...See, everyone is rushing down...I experienced this before..
Boyfriend : But you survived rite??..Its nothing one la...Faster, on the tv back..Hayoo...
So I switched on the TV back and continue with my sweeping and cooking...I cooked nasi minyak, ayam goreng berempah (tasted awful), and chicken curry(which tasted like....)..The Boyfriend enjoyed it though;-)..Thats why I like cooking...Going for Sentral Mooncake Festival with Khang and the Boyfriend...Surprisingly the Boyfriend agreed to tag along...I'm craving for.....free food...
high school reunion, convo and flashback
But year 2002-2003 was years of my life...Hahahaha..Many things happen and it was a lesson to learnt...It was years back, eveything is history...
Back to the reunion...Talked to Alla(BFF) just now...So she said she chatted with Kamil yesterday and they were planning to do next year's reunion in Brasmana hotel and now itself I feel so excited...Given that mummy don't plan to celebrate Raya in Singapore or else I'll have to miss it...Anyway,looking back those good old days when all of us were in high school, we were not close, not to say talking to each other...Sometimes we don't even know each other's name!!! But during the reunion, we were all like good friends, it was a pleasure moment and I'm lovin' every piece of it...It was s*** fun...
Remembering my college years which filled with crying(can't find solution to account question:-p), laughing in mamak, movie during class(we did skip class,ok,who have not done that during college time??)...It was pure fun, those 'childish' arguments we had(stupid!!)..And now, everyone is graduating while me, stuck in this dead end job(i'm included in that graduation, don't get me wrong)..I'm soooo looking forward this coming convocation as my batch are in...So we'll definitely have the best of fun..
It is not easy
Asked the Boyfriend to send my bike for repair and pay bills....
Polygamy is rubbish and not that I want to condemn
RAWANG: When she was practicing law, Kartini Maarof once went beyond the call of duty for her divorce client.
She arranged for Rohaya Mohamad, a mother of seven, to be married again - to Kartini's own husband.
The spouse they have shared for a decade is 43-year-old Ikramullah Ashaari, who has four wives and 17 children.
His 72-year-old father has 38 offspring from five marriages, without ever having flouted Islam's prescribed limit of four wives at a time.
Polygamy is legal for Muslims in Malaysia, though not widespread.
The Ashaari clan believes it should be.
Last month it launched a "Polygamy Club" that claims the noble aim of helping single mothers, reformed prostitutes and women who feel they are past the marrying age.
"We want to change the way people perceive polygamy, so that it will be seen as something beautiful instead of something disgusting," said Hatijah Aam, the founder of the club. She is the fourth wife of Ikramullah's father, Ashaari Muhammad.
Polygamy may seem out of place in an Asian democracy proud of its skyscrapers, high-tech skills and go-getter economy.
But it retains a foothold in this Muslim-majority country of 27 million where piety is deeply embedded and Muslims can be arrested for drinking alcohol or consorting with the opposite sex unless a couple is married.
The government also polices religious practice.
Ashaari, the family patriarch, used to head an Islamic sect that was banned in 1994 as heretical because it projected Ashaari as an absolver of sinners.
Most of the Polygamy Club members belonged to the sect, and there's nothing illegal about how they live now, so long as they're Muslims.
For the one-third of the population that isn't Muslim, polygamy is unlawful.
The practice used to be more common but has dwindled to an estimated 2 percent of all Muslim marriages as women have become freer and careers have opened up for them.
The polygamists point out that the Prophet Muhammad is thought to have married about a dozen women in his lifetime, including widows in need of protection.
"Some people treat polygamy as a laughing matter because they do not fully comprehend it," says Ikramullah, a jovial businessman and son of his father's first wife.
"But a community that practices it would know that it is not bizarre. In fact, you would be teased if you were a man with only one wife."
The club claims to number 300 husbands and 700 wives.
It hopes to cultivate examples of happy households to counter women's rights activists who say some spouses and children suffer in polygamous marriages.
Club members say polygamy deters adultery and would improve the marriage prospects of ex-prostitutes if more men were available to marry them.
But Shahrizat Abdul Jalil, the Muslim female minister in charge of family policy, says polygamy "is not a culture that is encouraged in our society."
Sisters in Islam, an advocacy group campaigning against polygamy, says it isn't good for women.
"If people choose to be monogamous, there are enough men for every woman," it said in a statement to The Associated Press.
One opponent of polygamy is a 42-year-old business executive who asked to be identified only as Sharifah.
She said she threatened to divorce her husband of nearly 15 years after he told her last year that he had fallen in love with a divorced mother of three, felt she needed help, and wanted to marry her.
"I felt like my fairy tale had ended," Sharifah said.
"He was my soul mate. ... I couldn't believe it was happening. Then I started to scream at him."
She said some people told her that agreeing to a second wife would secure her place in heaven.
But Sharifah, the breadwinner for her two children and jobless husband, refused to give in. The couple underwent marriage counseling and Sharifah's husband has promised not to marry the other woman.
"Women have to make a stand. We are getting more progressive. We know our rights," she said. "I will not enter into a polygamous marriage. I know I deserve better."
Kartini, 41, says polygamy has served her well; while she was busy arguing court cases, her husband's first wife would cook, clean and look after the children.
"The wives can complement each other," she said.
"Of course, you miss your husband and there are natural feelings of competition and jealousy at first.
But after a while, you try to become friends and you learn that you can share your problems with each other."
The club says most of its husbands keep each spouse in a home of her own unless the women agree to live under one roof. Many husbands rotate their days among households.
The tight-knit family is concentrated in Rawang, a town outside Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia's largest city.
They gather for religious holidays and other festivities, such as a recent "Family Day" where they performed songs for each other and picnicked.
They mingle easily in public, chatting and joking like any ordinary family.
The club is funded by the family's grocery stores, restaurants and other businesses. It plans to offer matchmaking, wedding planning and marriage counseling.
Hatijah, who became the patriarch's fourth wife in 1982, used to be skeptical of polygamy, and agreed to the marriage because she worried that at 27, she was getting too old to find a husband.
Now 54 and a mother of eight, she says: "What is wrong with sharing a husband? I've been doing so for nearly 30 years." - AP
In my personal opinion, not everyone is willing to share her husband including me, not to say staying together in the same house. Even when my current boyfriend looking at other girls 'boobs' in shopping malls sometimes (I know its normal for guys) makes me feel a little bit shaky, will I even let him find another girlfriend but at the same time seeing me as well?? Hello there, of course not...I know I'm not a perfect practitioner in my own religion but I know what is polygamy roughly...
Islam has emphasized that taking advantage of the permission of polygamy is conditional on the observance of several factors and circumstances -as it will be explained later. If the man lacks those material and moral conditions, or he is not competent enough to satisfy all of them, then he will not be eligible to take more than one wife.
In today's modern life, man no longer understand what polygamy is...They may say they married a second wife to help that lady but the actual fact is, lust, greed and sex...How many 2nd wife that you see that is at the same age as that man..Let me guess, not even 10%..What you see now is just and old man (age 50++ sometimes walking with a 20 years old woman) married to a young women...What the f***?....
For example, I used to have a bad relationship experience (it make me sick when I think about it)..He got another women and I caught him live at the cyber cafe as well as his profile pic with that girl up in MySpace!!!!...I dumped him (lucky me)..Imagine if I'd married to him??? My life would be miserable...But honestly, I don't lose anything for dumping him instead the other way round. Most man who married more than 1 wife is not financially fit...Some are just a low income employee and how the hell he say he's married according to polygamy guideline????This is the reason why I never want to find a Muslim soulmate...First experience was a blow for me so I'm not that stupid to repeat the same mistake..
There are a lot of factors to consider before taking up a second wife and I bet the man today have not thought about that..What they have in their mind is, younger wife, nicer body, better sex life....Don't you dare(men out there) saying that those things have not been in your mind!!! Nonsense....
After raya posta nd I'm still laughing




my eyes are like panda due to excessive raya celebrations and i'm not sure whether the Boyfriend can still recognise me or not
We really had fun up to the point of giving up walking for raya....
pre Raya and reunion, here I come!!!!!!!!
I'm going back to Perlis tomorrow (took half day leave)..Fuh, I'm soooo excited...Sleep on my bed, hot shower, my own smelly bolster...Wah!!!! Bestnyer...Mummy's cooking my favourite, ayam masak merah, kurma daging and nasi minyak for our open house and I have to help her this time...Dah besar dah...Adoiii la...I hate the washing part...
Preparations for Hari Raya dah habis...Too bad that this year I did not buy any new shoes...Will be earing my old shoes (bought but never been worn)...
Not going back to Singapore this year..This mean no 'duit raya'...*sorb*
Btw, I'm currently addicted at reading people's blog and most of the blog stated what does the blogger likes to shop...I know they have the right to post anything as it is their blog but don't they feel its like bragging about themselves...Trying to show-off what they have in an indirect way??...Sick you know.
Nak main bunga api..yeay yeay..heading back to hometown for raya this coming weekend
I'm sooooooo friggin excited about the reunion on Monday (21st Sept). We'll be having reunion with some of my exschool mate (SMKPutra). Some of them might be bringing their kids and husband... It still feels like we just finished our high school last year (nonsense!!!)..How time waits for no one ;-(...But yet, evryone of us still managed to keep in touch...People that I never used to like has now become friends. It was childish I can say but that was years back..See how adulthood can make people change now...
Work wise????? Still hangin' on but so desperate for other job...I searched through Intel page and saw a few vacancy that require Degree in BBA/Finance or something similar to it...I meet the requirement but attending the interview is another nightmare...I'm not afraid of public speaking ( i know i'm weird)....The questions they ask are like subjects that I studied in my first term of degree or diploma years....How could I remember...GOSH!!!...I'm interested, and its part of my plan to work in the finance industry....But, the process of getting there is not like what I have in mind....
Syawal kian tiba
Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my friends ( ex-SmkPutra, ex-classmate UNITAR 2004-2009 batch, former Maxis colleague, former Celebrity Fitness colleague) a very Happy Syawal...May this Syawal bring happiness and prosperity to you and your family...Maaf zahir dan batin...
never forgive a guy who hits you the first time and this post for the people who have been with me through sadness and happiness
Well, my anniversary with the Boyfriend is counting down the days and I'm very excited..Apart from graduating, meeting my bestfriend and celebrating anniversary with my loved one, a little side of me still remembers the tough time that I had to go through before achieving the happiness I have now. I tried to forget at times and try not to remember a thing about it or act as if it never happened but I can't....Its very painful that sometimes, facing the Boyfriend or my parents make me feel soooo guilty...Guilty of not able to be a daughter that can take care of herself despite of her family teaching, guilty and shame that I have a bad history that doesn't mind to the Boyfriend...I'm trying my best to be the best girlfriend for him but sometimes it doesn't seem to be enough... 2 years has past since the 'nightmare relationship' but I still feel like it happened just yesterday.. I pray everyday, praying that he won't show up in front of my doorstep or anywhere (wherever I am) or his number appear on my hp screen...The rage and anger is still inside of me even though it was 2 years ago...I didn't have the guts to stand up to him, I don't have the guts to do what I supposed to do, I don't have the guts to stand up myself, my own pride and dignity....I was drained inside but yet I was stupid to continue the relationship... Even his family and friends looked at me as I'm the guilty one ( I know part of it was my fault)...I knew I never had a bright future with him but I kept reminding myself that people can change but I was so wrong...But instead of dumping him and leave the useless relationship, I decided to carry on with him...Giving him the chance each time he make mistakes hoping that he'll change somehow or rather...I gave everything I have in me as I thought it would be worth while, and again I was wrong...Meeting him at the first place was the stupidess mistake I have done in my entire life...I should have walk away but I was naive....I don't see my previous relationship as a typical guy-and-girl-breakup relationship...It dragged my life away up to the point that I don't realize that I've lose my friends around me...I don't the good thing when my friends tried to help me....My life evolved around him...I have never used to work in my entire life, but when I met him, I had to work for that extra cash just to support...You can say that I'm stupid because it is true (i am stupid, at that time)...I used to have what I want in life, a caring family (not like his broken family, where he comes from)...I don't eat Maggi for lunch and dinner straight or don't even have the cash to pour petrol...
Well, maybe the part I have a change of heart towards another human while in the relationship was a no-no thing but would you want to live with a guy that hurts you most of the time instead of sharing your ups and downs together, make you happy, make you looking forward to meet him everyday after your class???? I'm stupid enough so don't follow my footsteps. It's hard to put down everything into this blog and I hope I can educate people roughly.
When I first got hit in the face, I cried but then I forgive him the next day as he beg for forgiveness...Promised that he won't do it again...I should walk away from this relationship after the first hit but I chose to stay because I believed in him. He made so many promises and sweet talk but it is all bullshit and full of craps...Then, it starts to drain me away from my friends, my pwn personal time, but I didn't see it coming until the Boyfriend called me to ask how am I doing (after got beaten the last time)...I soon realized I derserve someone better than him...I slowly pick up the courage to explore the world I've once lost....I skipped from work many times (not that I want to but because of the bruises I had on my face)....I feel so ashame with my friends and people who knows me...
This is not even 1/4 of the real thing that happened....But one thing for sure, it made me stronger and blessed with family, friends and loved one who cares and shower me with love all the way..
To all the girls out there, never ever accept someone who beats you up (then say he loves you), make you look stupid in front of his friends, or always give excuses for not going out with you or ask you for money(saying that he'll pay back but in fact he won't). Don't lose your dignity and pride for this kind of man and I can assure that it will haunt you forever and it will be the most regretful thing ever in your life because I have chose that path before but I turned back in time...
Graduations and meeting my best friend

graduation date
today is not a promising day
Bought a new guinea pig for Russell's companion...Afraid that she might get lonely....We named her Max (as in Maxine)...She's small and adorable and not to mention, damn quick!!!!...Maybe she's just afraid as she is not use to it...
Kasper went to see God

Weekends are coming
Its boring Friday..Not much work and hope it will remain this way till the end of the day...
My dad does not own this company
I'm still in a quest of searching other jobs available...I'm doing dead-end job...Colleauges are ok except people like Mr.V...
Nothing to blab today..No plans for the weekends yet..Supposed to watch Orphan last weekend but surprisingly there was no show..Hhmm...
Weekend was hhmm....
Went for movie yesterday...Watched Imagine That (main cast is Eddie Murphy)...Was funny and a few touching-heart moments.... The crowd was a bit less yesterday and ate Pastamania for dinner...I ordered something fishy (new menu) which doesn't taste nice at all...So I end up eating the Boyfriend's pizza...hahahaha..We shared mineral water...Then went Cold Storage afterwards to buy some groceries..Bought mostly frozen food just to test out the new microwave...hahaah...
Spend Merdeka eve in Slippery Senoritas with Khang and the Boyfriend...Fun even though it was a last minute plan!!!!!...The place was crowded towards the end...We managed to get a seat at the bar(of course we did as we were there since 10.45..Gosh)...We thought the place would be packed but no...Halfway through, we met up with Adrian...He's fat!!! OMG...We sat at the same bar...Everyone's laughing...Then, bumped into Sharmini (didn't expect that)...Nothing happen that night..No chairs or tables were thrown down (we sat at the same spot where the chairs and tables were thrown down last few weeks cause by some stupid idiotic creatures)..My eyes were 'running' around to see, just in case....Stupid...Me and Khang were dancing all night and I turned around to be amazed, seeing the Boyfriend is dancing as well.............................with other girl... The same crowd as us...We went back at around 4am...We woke up at about 4pm....Khang have to wake up at 9am....hahaha..as he have some kind of training the next morning...He was so excited for that 2 so-called hour training (because the trainer was a pretty lady)... Pervert... Hahahaha.....
the so not exciting Thursday
Well, me annd my best friend is trying to put together all the things for our reunion during raya. It is a bit of frustration as some of our ex-colleague did not agree with the price of RM30 that we set..We ere thinking of doing it big as this is a reunion of after 8 years...Hmm...Sh'es helping me to send out messages to all the classmates that we have in contact..Looks like it's not an easy task after all...
Nothing to blab today except one thing which I just remembered..Something about Mr.Vincent... Ahahaha..Stupid idiot...
In the mood of killing someone
Mr.V irritates me again.Now regarding the water dispenser. I don't want to elaborate much as this will bring bad luck to me...Even his shadow is a curse to me....
Daddy and mummy are coming tommorow...Gosh!!! So that mean the Boyfriend will have to be away...Uurrgghh!!! So sad...But at the same time I'm excited as this means shopping...
Nothing to 'blab' for the past few days. National day is next Monday and still don't have plans for it. Hari Raya is in 3 weeks time and I'm sooooo excited to attend my high school reunion....
Salam Ramadhan and was on MC yesterday

