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God, please give good health and panjangkan umur my parents
I can't imagine how my life and world would be without them...Even when I lost grandma, it felt so heart-broken,apatah lagi mak bapak sendiri...I rely on them for their encouragement and support..They provided me everything to make sure I have what I have now...I feel very blessful and greatful for the achievement I got today...I used to give up in almost everything I do but they gave me moral support and push me harder...
I always pray that God will always panjangkan umur my parent so that they can enjoy a good life. Just sit back and relax. I really miss them a lot. I've been having this kind of fear. Fear that I'll get a phone call one day from someone to inform me that they are gone...
Yesterday, when daddy sent me to the bus station, I salam him and feel so sebak. I didn't cry though but berat sangat hati nak tinggalkan family. Mummy didn't tag along as she followed the neighbour to the supermarket. I salam her first before she went off, she didn't look at my face but I gave her a kiss on the cheeks. I shed some tears....It was very hard to leave them yesterday and I don't know why..
when we were young
it feels good to be back





even if we just met


Well, how time flew so fast and some of my colleagues are going off pursuing their dreams. Even though I have just join the team but I felt close to them especially Rina, Winnie,Sam. Winnie looks garang but she's nice and very motivational. I fell comfortable working with her. The pictures above was taken during Rina's farewell dinner which was yesterday. it was fun. We had the dinner at a Japanese restaurant. Food was ok but because we often have Japanese so it feel muak sikit. I reached there at about 8pm. Drove from the office.

Out with the group and good friend's enagagement
Then boyfie and me went to Mona's engagement party in Kulim...The journey was ages,and we got lost for almost 2 hours...But upon reaching there, I went straight to meet her...FYI, she was my ex-housemate and a good friend of mine.We had a lot of goodtimes together..I miss her a lot.. We were very close back in college years...her fiancee is sooo handsome...Mona, I was just kidding, but he is handsome...Hahahaha...I cried when I saw her...tears of joy...The last we met was many years back, right before she moved out after finishing her diploma studies. But we still keep in touch through sms....Well, she's gonna get married in December and will be moving to Ipoh with her husband...I' going to miss her dearly...She helped me a lot....
Yes, we do have arguements sometimes but we still remain good friends...
when customer says 'This is bullshit'
after weeks of struggle
I'm blogging from my office actually.Calls are low and not much things to do.Had Indian food for lunch. Elizabeth's mum cooked and it is delicious....Maybe because I prefer Indian food.
Khang's in Penang.Will be going out with him later on. Together with Fifi as well. Boyfie is not sure yet as he has class later in the afternoon but I asked him to skip the class...So bad of me...
Interview was ok last week but I won't put much hope actually....One thing went wrong but I'll keep it to myself.Kind of embarassing to tell the whole world...Most of the interviewees are like...30 plus and some are married.I think I'm the youngest one...I was the first to be called. Interviewer was a girl and a guy...Pretty friendly...Most questions are about myself, on why do I choose MBA and what will I benefit from the course...I 'goreng'everything out...Said what ever that comes across my head at that point...You should see the look of my face...Blur,fake and nervous...I wore baju kurung...Konon nak tunjuk ayu la.
BFF got her Government posting at Majlis Keselamatan Negara. Her first day was on Monday(5th April)..I called on that day..She sounded excited though...Girlfriend, I hope you'll find yourself a cute and handsome guy...Most important is a guy that loves you for who you're and takde pasang2 ok...I'll always pray for...I love you babe...
It's already April and I'm looking forward to May and June.Not that I'm gonna get married or something.Will update you guys when I get the news.
The after gamble
Well been working hard for the past 2 weeks and has been a very hectic week for me..Time is running fast as well.....
Missing the family a lot lately..Called adik and daddy few days back..Hhmm..
Got an interview for my masters intake next Monday.very nervous but not sure what to expect for the interview. I've never heard of interview for master's study before in my life...
Looking forward for a better week next week...Fingers crossed...
typical people around us
I've started reading finance books and magazine. Starting to be a bookworm as used to in uni. Fingers crossed hoping that my master application come through.
Nothing much to blurp actually.I miss my hometown and my family.The last I went back was 4th day of Chinese New Year..I took a 5 days leave that ended me regretting for not paying a visit to grandma's place.It was a disaster...Seriously...
I'm currently planning getting my blogshop up and running for the next few month to come. As I mentioned earlier in my blog that I want to work from home.Well this is what I like I guess. Being entrepreneur..Don't have to crack my head everyday at work...
my heart is pouding fast
Since grandma passed away,everything seems dull to me.The only thing that make me laugh and smile are my colleagues, BFF alla, khang,fifi, dearest boyfie and the family. The rest is just dull. I don't really speak much now but because of my work nature, I forced myself to. I hold this guilt inside me for blaming myself of not having to visit my grandma and I never knew last year's Chinese New Year will be my last visit. If I knew things would work out this way, I would have gone back instead of pressuring myself for the money.
there are some thing money can't buy
So 3 weeks after that, on Sunday morning(7th march), I received a call from daddy saying that grandma has passed away..I was holy shocked and I cried instantly reminiscing the regret of not going back to visit her..I asked daddy again whether it's a prank or real...And he said, it is real and that they're going back to Trengganu the next day (morning). They came down that night and we went back early the next morning...Heart was pouding as I still hope that they're wrong...When we reach, I took a peek at grandma's coffin and tears came swimming down my tears..I couldn't hold my tears back and with full of regret in me...We sat for a while and about 5pm we checked into the hotel..Had shower and a change of new clothes...Waiting for the Buddha priest to come...part of the tradition...When the part where we have to go round grandma's coffin, I saw daddy was crying and it made me cry too...I grew up with her and I would call her once in a while just to check on her...
The 3rd was the day where she'll be bury..So we followed the car that carries her coffin to the cemetery ground... the worst part was when seeing they closed her coffin and bury her...We were hoping that she'll bang at the coffin case to tell us that she's still alive...But no sound....I hugged daddy and cried for the last time...
I've learnt the biggest lesson ever, money is really not everything...I'll carry this regret forever...
God, please give me the strength...
after CNY and having family time.
pre Valentine and chinese new year
Valentine is around the corner and I have yet to buy gift for the Boyfriend. And I'm working on the day,and CNY falls on the same day as well..Daddy and mummy is coming tomorrow or Saturday morning and they'll be heading back to Trengganu for Chineses New Year and sadly I can't join them this year, FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!. I hate the feeling of not being able to be with family members especially festive season...NO angpow for this year as well...And can't visit grandma....work from home

CNY shopping
Went for Chinese shopping with BFFs. The Boyfriend could not tag along as he has class to attend.Too bad.But we hade great time together..It was a quick shopping trip as Khang already knew what he wanted and I'm the one who tagged him along to the fitting room..I hope he like the shirt I choose...I'll definitely buy one for the Boyfriend if I have the extra cash in hand...So sad...Upon reaching QB, we had lunch in Sushi King as Khang was craving for it...FYI, there's no Sushi King in Alor Star..But they have McDonalds,unlike Perlis...OMG!!!....
extra income=extra headache
Its Friday and I'm looking forward to weekeend as it has been a hectic week for me...Tiring and exhausted...Has not been able to go back on time even though my shift is over...Is torn apart whether to change my job or just give it a go...But I've been changing too many jobs now...Until then, when can I drive my own BMW...*sigh*....
The Boyfriend has started working now, so most of the things I would have to do on my own... Sad......
untitle
*Watched Tooth Fairy yesterday. Movie was pretty funny. Worked from 9.30 am till 2.30 pm and did not plan to stay back even 5 minutes..Damn tired..Reach homer after work and slept off till 6.30pm.Went out again for dinner in McDonald.Me and the Boyfriend had Regular Ayam Goreng McD.Felt so tired the whole day.
*Today is the Boyfriend first day at work.At last.....Good luck my BB.......
rude people are just annoying and full of crap and i have to work during CNY
Another thing that annoys me is when working in a company where it is dominated by one race...When it comes to festive seasons, MY GOD...Everyone will be taking off holiday..Sadly, I can't celebrate Chinese New Year I have to work on that day...To think, I was better off in the previous company...This job I'm doing currently is totally for money minded human...And I'm not that kind...
To make it short, customers are just plain stupid...
God test our patience
With the 'polluted' country we're living in, I'm not sure whether my spouse and future children will have the opportunity to live in peace like how it was 20 years ago...It was so different compare to now..Everything seems to be separating from each other..And plus the ongoing case of using 'Allah' terms for other races, this has caught the attention of international media...It is a shame...For a country that si so called democratic..
Well, to my BFF Khang Wei : DOn't forget us once you're in Jitra. Visit us often and not to forget our movie sessions ok...We'll miss you...
life can be hard sometimes
Anyway, work is stressful for me for the past few days.Things are not doing great...I miss the family though...My BFF is leaving for Sabah next week..Well, I miss you, Adelyn.We haven't been communicating with each other lately....
when my mind doesn't go in a straight line
Met with my ex-schoolmate back in high school.We had lunch at McDonald Greenlane.To my surprise, he's already married (even though no traditional ceremony yet).Bu then, they are officially legally hisband and wife.Wow, how time flew so fast.He was the chicky one in high school. Nevertheless, to think that he'll be married at this age(not that young though)...He bought a house and I asked the Boyfriend to show me where the area is.The compound was clean, with guarded front gate....Apartment style. At least he owns a house..I'm so envy him. After that it makes me want to earn more money for a better life.
I knew that I have never done much about my life last year so for this year, I want to work hard towards my personal goal :
morning after
Drove to work with my lazy eyes, listening to FLY fm morning crew,thinking how good if I could work from home. That is because this morning's topic was about working from home.Interesting topic and what a motivational topic to kick off the morning..Its only Tuesday but I feel like I'm working for the whole week already.Tired and exhausted.
Second day of school for Dianah and she's in Secondary 4 now. How time goes by so fast. I hope she'll do well in SPM.
Been wanting to watch Avatar for the past few weeks but it seems like everyone is still into that movie. Tried to book Avatar 3D but can't...Was supposed to watch Avatar 3D with the Group last weekend but too bad I was down with fever.Did not have the appetite to eat for the last one week. It was miserable.At this time, I wish mummy was here.She'll cook for me, feed me my medicine and would look after me.I miss her so much.
I have got no time for the family since I started working and I'm kind of feel guilty.And miss the family a lot.Its been a while since we all last had our vacation together. With stress from work and all,it would be unlikely that I could make it for Chinese New Year as well.Fingers crossed hoping that I could spend the day with the family.
Everything seems moddy for me....
second day of 2010
Anyway, I hope 2010 will be a better year for me, the family and the Boyfriend...To think back those old times,my previous relationship,it was horrible...
To him,
I'm glad that I dumped you and met someone much better that you,moroon....I never want to se you again or even have thoughts of you your lame ass individualistic...If I had the power to turn back time, I'll definitely stab you in the heart....
May God bless me and the family...May the Boyfriend and me will have the chance to take our relationship into another level, and may my friendship last forever...
Its been a long time
Daddy's coming back today and will be fetching hima nd adik later around 7...Ohh ya, Dianah got 8As in her PMR...I'm so proud of you...Well, at least we have a scorer in the house...
Work wise..I'm no longer struggling except when there's too many calls to handle....GOD....Its been a pretty god December for me I guess....Luck is just on my side....2010 is just fingers counting away and I pretty much know what will be my resolution this year and the important note of all is to not over spending anymore....2009 has been a rough year for me and I managed to pull it through by the hard way too...
My cousin passed her exam as well...Congrats...
Well for now, I'll just the night with daddy and adik...
i'm trying to comfort myself
I miss the family a lot...Been 2 months since I last went back to Perlis which is for Hari Raya... I'm trying to make as much money as possible....Got some goals I want to achieve, possibly by this year....
Going for dinner with BFF, Khang..the Boyfriend is having his class...
its december
Nothing much to update..I've missed my blogging session as my time is totally occupied..Not like in the previous company...
I do miss a few friends back in the old company...
salam aidiladha
still hanging
The family will be going off to Singapore next week and I'm stuck here....
adjusting my seating
My team are havoc and laughing is like eating...Hahahaha...I'm glad...Sean quitted(the guy who went the same training as mine)....Will be going out with the Group this coming weekend..Have not confirm yet...
testing
smoking is bad for your health
Will be going to GP for my tembuilding session..So freakin' excited..Its gonna be my last day here..Gonna miss the group....
Going out with The Group this coming Sunday and planned to watch Phobia 2...Woohoo...And maybe watching White Out with the Boyfriend on Saturday....
Just to inform my readers that there'll be late posting in this blog as some adjustment of my new work time need to be done...Sorry for the delays....Happy working people....
last day at work before signing off
I'm out of words actually...Not sure what to say....
The new hire who is going to replace me is with me and I'm coaching her the new task and it is hard....Need not to mention here...Well best part is I'll get to leave Mr.V behind...So lamo...Hate him...
Going for my teambuilding tomorrow..Treasure hunt activit...Woohoo
Dear BFF : Words of encouragement are just the only thing I can provide you..The rest is up to you...Babe, GOD has planned many things for us and He knows what is best for human kind...Whatever comes between you is just a test to see whether or not you're ready for the bigger challenge...These small tests are things that make you stronger and keep you prepared....At this point of time, friends and family are the best company to you...Take some time off from your hectic life and think about what you want in life...Once you waste a day in life, there is no turning back...BFF, I owe you a lot and I know some thing I can't pay you back...We've been tpgether since high school, therefore our bond will never ever break no matter what comes in between us...Our friendship is so strong that I'm willing to do anything to keep my best friend happy.....best friend are the one who not just share our laughter but tears and cry as well...Friends that leave you when you're in need is not a true friend...Just bear in mind that, HE'S NOT WORTH IT and take it as a bad dream and you will wake up from that some day...
new skirt for sale
2 more days to go....roughly
Then, went back in the evening...Cooked for dinner....the Boyfriend helped out in frying the chicken and oil spilled all over....I'm the one who has to do the cleaning...Uurrgghh!!!.He went for his badminton session till 11pm and by the time the comes back, I'm already asleep...But before that, I tried doind a vidoe for this blog and it was 'awesome'...Hahaha
Nothing much to do today..very boring...Msged BFF just to check on her whether she's ok or not and gladly she replied she's feeling better...Happy to hear that.....
Dear BFF : Just remember in mind that our friendship will never fade away no matter what comes between us. We are like sistesr. You stood by me when I was in total darkness, so now it is my turn...Even though we are far apart, trust me that my heart will always be near with you. When you're in deep pain, remember that you deserve something better than this and that you're strong...Love will always find its way to your heart...Love does not mean that you need a man, it is further more than that...You will always have us and your family..We have never gave up upon you...We love you more than he do...GOD created human to withstand every obstacle that he rained upon us and every little that happen comes with a reason. You deserve someone better and I know you can make it through...We have faith in you..
buat teman-teman universitas
Di saat engkau tak tersenyum
Di saat engkau tak tersenyum
changing of a new surrounding
I told myself that I have to learn to handle stress instead of doing this job-hopping thing... It won't look good in my resume as people might question me why do I change job too often...
I hope everything goes well next week as it will be my first week....I don't expect anything but smooth working environment...Things has been great except financially...Hhmm....
Graduation is over, so does college days...It is a lie if I say college sucks(part of it yes;-p)... I learnt many things during my years in college....Whether study wise, making new friends, having boyfriend(that sucks), fail my paper ;-p, resit again and other college matter....Every details and events make me stronger than ever...I worked my ass-off for this day and it definitely paid off and I'm happy to make the family and the Boyfriend proud of me...At least I have achieve something that I thought I will never get...It is a relieve....I hold my tears back after the convocation when the ceremony come to its end as I don't want to spoil the day...But I know right after that, everyone will go their own separate ways and it will be hard to meet each other again after this...I feel scare....Afraid that I might lose friends that I've bonded for the past 5 years....Kamini is getting married soon, she's the closest and bestest friend....What's more after this??I'll never know...Well, when I was in college, I pray everyday that I'll finished asap as I can't wait to get out of here, then daddy said 'Girl, believe me that you'll miss your college days once you start working'.... I never thought of it until it really happened....But you can't turn back time or be a college student forever...You'll have to grow up eventually...These people has been with me through my worst years in life....They never gave up upon me....I'll defintely miss them a whole lot!!!!!!
Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
Ku ingin kau tahu
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
I'm officially graduated and I had so much fun!!!
this post is dedicated to the people who has helped me alot in life.
I never thought I can go through this when I first started my semester...As all my friend managed to enter public universities, I'm way off the route....I dreamt of being a doctor since high school but because of my so-called laziness, I ended up in a private college which I thought private college are only for losers and ended up doing finance instaed of medicine...My heart crushed at that time...Regretting for not working hard enought and regretting for not listening to my parent's advice..I took everything lightly untill it actually slammed at my face....Daddy was the one who motivated me all this years up till today....While mummy provided me with the extras that I need...They both has sacrificed a lot....Even Adik sacrificed her needs and wants just to give way to me...
I can never repay everything that they has done for me for all these years...Not to forget the Boyfriend who supported me as well, emotionally...Who stood up till late at night accompanying me during exam period...Who listened to my nonsense, who let me use his t-shirt as tissue to wipe off my tears because I was scared that I might fail...Every test....Who calmed me down a day before the exam, who sent/pick me to/from college.....
To my classmates especially Kamini who willing to put up an effort to teach me(FYI, I'm a slow learner), who will call me in the morning and forced me to come to class(I'm a sleepy head), who has been there for me throughout our 4 years in college, for letting me study at your house even during weekends, for nagging me because I did something wrong(for my own good) and most important of all, you accepted me as your friend for who I am regardless of my history.
Also to my bestfriend, Nor Farah(Alla) and Adelyn who supported me from far..We only talk on the phone..Hahah..It is good enough...
To those who I did not mention names, I would like to thank you as well for being there for me. For standing by me through everything which a friend would do...
freaking awesome day and kaki ku patah
flying sky high

my stomach is killin' me
Went to the toilet twice this morning. Got stomach upset....Prom is tonight but I'm not looking forward to it...Dunno why....Picked out what I planned to wear later tonite...Something simple and formal...No more teenage typical prom dress....Not sure what the Boyfriend will be wearing tonite but I can say it would be a t-shirt,jeans and sneakers...He had his hair cut yeaterday as well...and mine...Paid RM26 for that.. Previously the barber only charge RM8 for the Boyfriend but we went yesterday, it was no longer the same hair shop....The previous hair shop moved to her own house...
Going off to KL tomorrow nite...So anxious and can't wait to meet Alla....Rehearsal will be on Friday and the actual day will be on Saturday...And I have not pack anything yet...OMG!!!!
pre prom and flying over to KL


We have successfully convinced Cik Fifi to join us to UNITAR prom tomorrow... Hahahahha..At last, we won...I've had something in mind on what to wear tomorrow...Nothing grand actually, old clothes...The main reason is not for the prom actually..Just to get-together will old mates...
They group planned to hang out some where after prom...Have not decide anything yet...I'm gonna have eyebag...Oohh GOD....
Went out on Saturday with Fifi, Khang and the Boyfriend..Went Queensbay...Riana and Yazid was supposed to meet us in Queensbay...But as usual, they said, they'll give us a call...Ok, they did..........................................only after I gave them a tight call...At least they have the 'courtesy' to call and inform that they're not joining us, wow...I was so pissed because we waited them like more than an hour...The four of us did not know where to go as we thought the 2 of them are coming...So we waited them at foodcourt....Assuming that they're on the way......And we gave them a call again, before they gave us the 'courtesy' call that I mentioned earlier...They said they were on their way to town as the boutique(or whatever) they visited in Sg.Dua does not have prom shirt that they have in mind.......Both of them are nominted as prom king and prom queen for this year's prom nite:-).......I hope they'll 'win'.....Then, Fifi went back with her brother...So me, the Boyfriend and Khang decided not to go back yet as it was still early(8pm ,ok)..So drove to GP and bought movie ticket for Inglorious Basterds which as usual I slept off half way through the movie(just a nap)..I don't understand a shit;-)....After movie, the 3 of us went for maggi goreng and Khang liked it...'better than Ali maggi goreng ei Khang'....Then went back home... I slept nicely like a pig....
I'm going off to KL this Wednesday...Woohoo!!!!!!!! For my convocation...I'm so effin' excited... BFF is going to pick me up....
Meet up with Khang, Fifi and her cousing in Prangin yesterday evening...It was just a short meeting...Had Khang's favourite laksa...Tasted ok but I much prefer the one in my hometown... ;-)....Then, Fifi went Giant, Khang went back home as he has to get ready for some event he's attending..me and the Boyfriend proceeded to QB..Bought movie ticket(Cloudy with the chance of a meatball) and bought groceries at the supermarket...Reach home at about 11.30pm...
2nd story...I idolised Nicol Ann David since high school...My passion for squash back in school baiscally borned from her...Could you tell me, how many Malaysia athletes that could sustain their victory, effort and everything consecutively????.....NONE!!!!....And recently, one of the squash court in Bukit Jalil was named after her, Arena Nicol David....How proud her family can be...
is that person trying to fake or show off or plain lie??
This is quite an old post I had in mind actually...Few weeks back, a friend of mine told me that she bought a shoe from some country(need not to mention here as it can serve as a clue ok), and also said that the shoe was bought around RM200++(price already converted)...Her friend bought it for her...I believed it....The next few days I was browsing through a few blogshop and I found the exact same shoe, same design at a very low price(need not to upload the picture ok)...Price is about Rm80++.........Could you see the difference??How far was it??????????...
I admit that her fashion sense is better than mine...I was shocked that I actually took the shoe's picture using my handphone and showed it to the Boyfriend.....I was like 'wth?'.....OK, what I want to know is, is she trying to brag or what????
high school people and the memories
on right : pah,husna and sarah
Behind row : lyn, pah, sarah,puteri and husna

Have a great weekend!!!!
diahornea, last minute work, map
People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.
Had a very bad diahornea since yesterday(woke up at 5.30am this morning to shit)...Came to work and took 2 packets of diahornea pills...
I think I've mentioned thousand of times that I'm so excited for my graduation...Rizki called me yesterday...I said if it wasn't about the convocation, I guess he'll forget me as a friend... He useless ass...Do things at the very last minute...So kanchiong....
Delon emailed me as well asking me for map to PICC...and asked which hotel is the nearest..He'll be bringing Nelly and his parents....
Cooked ayam masak bawang and ate with fried rice. Chicken was ok but too spicy..Hhmm...Went no where yesterday...No plans for the weekend yet...
Btw, Mr.V asked me to check all Xmas deco on all conference rooms. What the heck??? You goes in and out of the room everyday and walk pass by them everyday..Can't he take it out??? Am I that 'maid' to him?..Gosh!!!
